crusin'minnie
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Hi I'm Cindy. And I am an emotional eater. Problem is it doesn't matter what the emotion is. Happy, Sad, Depressed etc...
I have been dieting off and on since the age of 17. Funny thing is I did not need to be on a "diet" at 17 and certainly not dexatrim. I could have just cut back a little and taken off the 5lbs I wanted to lose. Diet roller coaster ever since.
I am a very finicky eater. No meat except a little bacon or sausage every once in a while. Not really a vegetarian because I only eat lettuce, corn and potatoes-and the last 2 are starches. I eat most any fruit, but usually only when I am dieting. I eat cheese every day. I eat cheese they way most of you eat meat. And I love sweets.
I have eaten this way since I was 3 and don't really know why. My mother was really worried when I stopped eating different foods. Lots of different foods. The pediatrician told her to leave me alone, I would outgrow it. 34 years later I have not.
When I was in second grade the school board stopped letting grade school children carry a lunch. This was tramatic for me. What was worse was that on the first day of school there was nothing I would eat except for my roll. My second grade teacher embarassed me in front of the whole table. She really went on and on. I was mortified. From then on she decided to make me her pet project and I would have to sit across from her and she would try to make me taste a bite of everything on my plate. I would politely say "No ma'am". She would not let me go to canteen and when that did not sway me she would not let me go to recess. Many days the cafeteria would be empty except for the 2 of us. Lots of times she would keep hammering me until I cried. I told my mom about it and she sent several notes to school asking Ms. Doyle not to try and force me to eat. That I ate just fine at home and my pediatrician had said everything was normal and I would outgrow it. She might back off for a week then it would start up again. After the 3rd note she started calling me a baby who had to have her mommy write notes for her so I never said anything else to my Mom. There was one cafeteria lady that finally about mid-way through the school year walked over to the 2 of us when the cafeteria had cleared out and said "I think it is horrible the way you are treating this little girl. You need to just leave her alone and let her go play. For the most part this ended our daily ritual. It was only every once in a while Ms. Doyle would make me sit with her and skip canteen and recess. I think she was afraid the cafeteria lady would go to the principal.
Wow- I just read this and I'm not really sure where all that came from. Probably therapeutic though.
Maybe that was to explain that ever since Ms. Doyle, I literally get sick to my stomach when someone tries to make me eat something out of my norm. So I stick with the foods I love and really don't venture very far out of that comfort zone. I also much prefer to eat by myself.
My DH is really supportive. He agreed that as an incentive, if I can lose 33lbs. by Nov. 17 then we go to WDW for Thanksgiving. So I am really motivated to stay on track this time. I have 60lbs total to lose.
I am also really interested in maybe doing the Marathon in 2007. I will need to get some information on how to start training for this. I hate exercise, but maybe I could get excited about preparing for this.
Feel free to leave comments. And I really didn't intend to garner sympathy for my inner 2nd grade child with my post. I wasn't a total victim. Ms. Doyle would have choked if she had known that while I sat there politely saying "No, ma'am" to her face, mentally I was cursing her a blue streak with every curse word I knew thanks to a father with a very colorful vocabulary.
Oh and the polyester thing. I have a couple of business suits that have polyester pants that I despise. I had never bought polyester anything but when I started this job last year and went to buy some clothes for work, I did not want to spend a fortune since I did not intend to remain a size 14/16 for very long. Now here I am 15 months later still wearing them. When I start to lose I am going to burn these outfits. Really light a fire and burn them. And then...With God and the DIS as my witness, I will never wear polyester again!!!
Cindy
I have been dieting off and on since the age of 17. Funny thing is I did not need to be on a "diet" at 17 and certainly not dexatrim. I could have just cut back a little and taken off the 5lbs I wanted to lose. Diet roller coaster ever since.
I am a very finicky eater. No meat except a little bacon or sausage every once in a while. Not really a vegetarian because I only eat lettuce, corn and potatoes-and the last 2 are starches. I eat most any fruit, but usually only when I am dieting. I eat cheese every day. I eat cheese they way most of you eat meat. And I love sweets.
I have eaten this way since I was 3 and don't really know why. My mother was really worried when I stopped eating different foods. Lots of different foods. The pediatrician told her to leave me alone, I would outgrow it. 34 years later I have not.
When I was in second grade the school board stopped letting grade school children carry a lunch. This was tramatic for me. What was worse was that on the first day of school there was nothing I would eat except for my roll. My second grade teacher embarassed me in front of the whole table. She really went on and on. I was mortified. From then on she decided to make me her pet project and I would have to sit across from her and she would try to make me taste a bite of everything on my plate. I would politely say "No ma'am". She would not let me go to canteen and when that did not sway me she would not let me go to recess. Many days the cafeteria would be empty except for the 2 of us. Lots of times she would keep hammering me until I cried. I told my mom about it and she sent several notes to school asking Ms. Doyle not to try and force me to eat. That I ate just fine at home and my pediatrician had said everything was normal and I would outgrow it. She might back off for a week then it would start up again. After the 3rd note she started calling me a baby who had to have her mommy write notes for her so I never said anything else to my Mom. There was one cafeteria lady that finally about mid-way through the school year walked over to the 2 of us when the cafeteria had cleared out and said "I think it is horrible the way you are treating this little girl. You need to just leave her alone and let her go play. For the most part this ended our daily ritual. It was only every once in a while Ms. Doyle would make me sit with her and skip canteen and recess. I think she was afraid the cafeteria lady would go to the principal.
Wow- I just read this and I'm not really sure where all that came from. Probably therapeutic though.
Maybe that was to explain that ever since Ms. Doyle, I literally get sick to my stomach when someone tries to make me eat something out of my norm. So I stick with the foods I love and really don't venture very far out of that comfort zone. I also much prefer to eat by myself.
My DH is really supportive. He agreed that as an incentive, if I can lose 33lbs. by Nov. 17 then we go to WDW for Thanksgiving. So I am really motivated to stay on track this time. I have 60lbs total to lose.
I am also really interested in maybe doing the Marathon in 2007. I will need to get some information on how to start training for this. I hate exercise, but maybe I could get excited about preparing for this.
Feel free to leave comments. And I really didn't intend to garner sympathy for my inner 2nd grade child with my post. I wasn't a total victim. Ms. Doyle would have choked if she had known that while I sat there politely saying "No, ma'am" to her face, mentally I was cursing her a blue streak with every curse word I knew thanks to a father with a very colorful vocabulary.
Oh and the polyester thing. I have a couple of business suits that have polyester pants that I despise. I had never bought polyester anything but when I started this job last year and went to buy some clothes for work, I did not want to spend a fortune since I did not intend to remain a size 14/16 for very long. Now here I am 15 months later still wearing them. When I start to lose I am going to burn these outfits. Really light a fire and burn them. And then...With God and the DIS as my witness, I will never wear polyester again!!!
Cindy
When he saw that it was really important to me, he suggested we maybe try the half. We'll see what happens.
Cindy!
So what are you waiting for?
Maybe this weekend. Anyway we went to a pizza buffet and I only had 2 pieces of pizza and 1 breadstick and drank water. No dessert. Even told DH he could go get his dessert it would not bother me.
I hope I can get to that much in a day. Right now, getting 8/8ounces is a struggle and takes me forever to get that down. 
I'm sorry that you had such a bad teacher. That was just awful. I was not a big eater either as a young child. Like you, I'm waiting to graduate from size 14. I can't wait to get back into those size 8 jeans & some of the really cute shirts that are out now. CoolRunning has a training schedule called from Couch to 5k (or something like that - I'm not sure how many k's). Congrats on getting started!!!
Just kiddin'!
