I don't know why but I've been thinking about this today. I'm reading a book that pertains to being truly happy and I think I have a wonderful life in almost all states. Plus we have a super son!
My marriage is probably my happiest success. I'm married to my soul mate and even after almost 16 years together we still hold hands. He tells me I'm beautiful probably 10 times a day and hes constatnly telling me how much he loves me. I feel so blessed to have him.
We are okay with our bills. We owe no car notes and only one Visa Payment along with our mortgage and other regular utility bills and insurance. John is a manager and makes okay money and his job is secure.
I'm getting more pleased with my body since I've lost weight and can fit in more and more cute clothes.
Now for the unhappy part..........my panic! I sometimes wonder if it will ever end 100%. Will I ever be able to have just ONE day without little tinges of panic! I've been on meds forever and although they usually keep the serious attacks away I still am jittery and panicy on a daily basis and I hate it. I know there are others who know what I'm talking about because they experience it as well. I just wish that I understood why the panic comes or the jitters. I am a religious person and I know God does everything for a reason I just wish I understood the reasons.
Anyway I don't know really what the purpose of this thread was, just to put down some feelings......LOL! If you've read this far your doing goo and thank!
My marriage is probably my happiest success. I'm married to my soul mate and even after almost 16 years together we still hold hands. He tells me I'm beautiful probably 10 times a day and hes constatnly telling me how much he loves me. I feel so blessed to have him.
We are okay with our bills. We owe no car notes and only one Visa Payment along with our mortgage and other regular utility bills and insurance. John is a manager and makes okay money and his job is secure.
I'm getting more pleased with my body since I've lost weight and can fit in more and more cute clothes.
Now for the unhappy part..........my panic! I sometimes wonder if it will ever end 100%. Will I ever be able to have just ONE day without little tinges of panic! I've been on meds forever and although they usually keep the serious attacks away I still am jittery and panicy on a daily basis and I hate it. I know there are others who know what I'm talking about because they experience it as well. I just wish that I understood why the panic comes or the jitters. I am a religious person and I know God does everything for a reason I just wish I understood the reasons.
Anyway I don't know really what the purpose of this thread was, just to put down some feelings......LOL! If you've read this far your doing goo and thank!