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im so sick of people just looking at the way i look and not at me. i mean, i know thats cliched and i hate cliches it just so happens that this one is true. some of my friends dont actually care about me; i dont want to even call them friends but i dont really have much of a choice. i mean, they pretty much hang around me, and im too nice to not talk to them, petty as they are
okay so i skipped a grade. well, when i skipped into third grade a month into school, people thought i was a freak. i was an outcast. i had no friends for 2 years, when i made friends with a couple geeks. i was happy, till they moved. i made a few friends in sixth grade when i transferred to a new school. they turned into druggies, so i ditched them.
and then i started caring about my appearances. through 8th and 9th grade, i made more and more friends. basically, im trying to say i know what its like to be an outcast
then now, in tenth grade, people want to talk to me. they come up to me and ask for contact info of various sorts, and you know what? ive been looking at my pictures from the past, and i hate saying it, but i think it has a lot to do with the fact that i put so much into looks, and i hate it. i talk to tons of guys because they all talk to me. i talk to a lot of girls, but not as many, and its probably only because of my connections. of course i have real friends, too, but not nearly as many
oh yeah and now all these guys are just assuming that i do drugs and drink and have sex on the weekends. i dont. im very strict about it. i dont do any of that stuff. i think its degrading, and i have enough dignity not to.
so now im pretty sure that thats all these people want from me. they want to be seen with me to boost their social standing, and they want to get me drunk and lay me
its just frustrating, and im sorry if that made no sense feel free to discuss or share personal experiences.
sorry its so long
okay so i skipped a grade. well, when i skipped into third grade a month into school, people thought i was a freak. i was an outcast. i had no friends for 2 years, when i made friends with a couple geeks. i was happy, till they moved. i made a few friends in sixth grade when i transferred to a new school. they turned into druggies, so i ditched them.
and then i started caring about my appearances. through 8th and 9th grade, i made more and more friends. basically, im trying to say i know what its like to be an outcast
then now, in tenth grade, people want to talk to me. they come up to me and ask for contact info of various sorts, and you know what? ive been looking at my pictures from the past, and i hate saying it, but i think it has a lot to do with the fact that i put so much into looks, and i hate it. i talk to tons of guys because they all talk to me. i talk to a lot of girls, but not as many, and its probably only because of my connections. of course i have real friends, too, but not nearly as many
oh yeah and now all these guys are just assuming that i do drugs and drink and have sex on the weekends. i dont. im very strict about it. i dont do any of that stuff. i think its degrading, and i have enough dignity not to.
so now im pretty sure that thats all these people want from me. they want to be seen with me to boost their social standing, and they want to get me drunk and lay me
its just frustrating, and im sorry if that made no sense feel free to discuss or share personal experiences.
sorry its so long
