Angelrose's Journey

[RNMOM]

 

[Minnie&Nana]

Angelrose, Thank you for letting us know it would all right to post on the website.

Will be thinking of you all tomorrow and holding you very near in heart and prayer.

 

[Va-bear]

I"m very sorry to read of Ron's passing. I hope you are doing ok - we're all thinking of you.

 

[dogodisney]

I have been thinking of you and just wanted to check in and see how everything went yesterday.

I know today and tomorrow are going to be very hard for you.

Please take care of yourself.

 

[reelmom]

Thinking of you this morning. As hard as it is, just think, Ron is celebrating the greatest Father's Day ever...........Celebrating with the Heavenly Father.

 

[D L and K's Mom]

Thank you for the photo of your dear Ron. What a kind face. I am so sorry for your great loss.

 

[Liberty Belle]

Angelrose,

You and your children are in my thoughts and prayers today.

Ron has such a handsome face and it looks like he always had a joke on the ready. You can just see it in his face.

 

[Angelrose]

Hello my friends. Yesterday was a very bad day. When I first saw him in the coffin he looked so strange. We all cried our eyes out. I just kept saying nonononono. It can't be true. He's really at home waiting for me. I finally got control of myself and sat down. Then we went to look at the picture cd they had playing. It started when Ron was a little boy all they through his graduation from 8th grade and high school. Then him in his National Guard uniform, him at work. Then of course our wedding picture and pictures of him at Disney World wearing a Goofy hat. A picture of him dressed as the Grim Reaper for Halloween. He was trying to be scary but not succeeding. Very funny. There was a picture of him with the dance hall girls from the Diamond Horseshoe show and the belly dancer from Morocco. A picture of us in front of our house in the snow with his arms around me. A picture of him with Chuck at Christmas and then a couple of pictures of us at Chuck and Karen's wedding. He was so happy in all those pictures.

There were so many people from work that came to tell me how much they respected Ron and how much he taught them. Even his old boss came to pay his respects. He was 10 years older than Ron, but didn't look it at all. So many of Chuck and Karen's friends from work came and both their bosses. My family all came and the man from across the street came. He had a very hard time holding back his tears. Ron and Chris would see each other as they took care of their properties. My next door neighbor came and another one down the street. Even a couple whose store we used to go in all the time on our walks. They had a hard time seeing him like that too. My friends came too. At the end of the viewing, the man from the funeral home spoke a few words from the bible and said a few prayers. Then our Karen got up to read something Ron had written called Remembering Ron. I had never read it until he was in the hospital and his dr told it how beautiful it was. Finally his nurse told me I should read it because it was so beautiful. Our Karen read almost all of it before she broke down. I made Chuck go up there with her to support her. She did make it through to the end. I was so proud of her.

Then they gave me the folded flag from the National Guard and we stood while they played Taps. I totally lost it again. Then everyone said their last goodbys and finally it was our turn to say our final goodby. I didn't want to leave him there all alone. My sweetheart, my love.

It had poured the entire time we were there. My friend said that the heavens were crying too.

We went to Chuck's house and the first thing I see is our Jesse running to me shouting GAMMOM! I got a hug that almost knocked me over. Karen brought me a plate and I discovered that I was hungry. It was good to hear everyone talking and laughing about things we did as kids. Just talking about everything. It took my mind of things. After a while I discovered that I was exhausted. People started to leave and I almost fell asleep on the couch. After everyone finally left, Chuck and Karen took me downstairs to the redone basement. They did a great job. I sat in the recliner and didn't want to move. I told Chuck that I needed to come home. It was a long day.

Today wasn't too bad. I just have to realize that this is what my life is going to be from now on. I am alone for the first time in almost 44 years. I know I have friends and relatives. But it's not the same. I will wake up alone for the rest of my life. I will not have my love to hold me anymore. I have my crying spells, but then I try to go on with my day. I know I have to be strong for the kids and Jesse. But, it's so hard.

 

[SCHBR'smom]

You put it all so beautifully, I can barely keep from crying.

Take comfort in the fact that you will be together again.....

 

[pixie dust 112]

Oh Angelrose, I have been thinking of you all weekend. This is going to be so hard for you. I can't begin to imagine how difficult it is. Luckily you have such a wonderful relationship with CHuck and Karen and they are nearby. Try to stay strong, but of course you need time to cry too. Thank the lord for the wonderful years that you have had with Ron!

 

[dogodisney]

Angelrose, thank you for coming in to update us.

You have been on my mind and in my heart.

 

[auntie]

Angelrose, thank you for coming in to update us.

You have been on my mind and in my heart.

Me too....been thinking of you as well. God Bless you and give you the strength you need to make it through.... one day at a time.

 

[Lil Lil]

Oh Angelrose I'm sooo sorry about your DH. Just remember you are an ANGEL in his eyes. You hang in there and God will help you through this difficult time. Stay strong. I will keep you and your family in my prayers .

 

[minniecarousel]

You made it through a very difficult day! Take each day as it comes. Let people "be there" for you.

Hang in there.

 

[minnie56]

My heart aches for you..
Just take baby steps..one day at a time.
It's a new reality most definetly, but your beloved is with you always. In your heart and soul. He never left you..I pray your tomorrows get easier.

 

[N&B'smom]

Oh my. I'm so very sorry about what you're going through. I will be thinking of you and praying for sure. We're all here for you whenever you need us.

I'm actually very close to you, I only live about 15 minutes away. If you need anything, just let me know. I'd be happy to help you in any way that I can.

 

[Eeyores Butterfly]

Angel, so sorry to hear about your husband. Prayers are being said for your family.

 

[autumnpalm]

Oh, angelrose. I just found this thread and your story is breaking my heart. I am saying many prayers and sending many hugs your way.

 

[AnnaS]

Angelrose,

my heart aches for you. Ron was a wonderful man. He will always be with you in your heart. He is your shadow and at your side until you meet again.

Don't forget to smile and take comfort that you have a wonderful family who loves you. They need you too.

 

[Tuffcookie]

Angelrose,



Don't be afraid to attend grief counselling. See if you can find a church that has a group. Forty-four years with someone and to suddenly not have them around, is a BIG adjustment.

Take care of yourself! (and let us know how you're doing!)

TC