Happy Weekend all!
I had fun at the birthday party but did awful on food. Just way too much of the food I love, appetizers, birthday cake and beer! I finally stopped myself before I did even more damage.
Today was much better on the food front. Ds and I went to his reading teacher's memorial service. What an incredible woman she was. I must say, it made me realize yet again, how special life is. She will be sorely missed. Several of ds' other grade school teachers were there, they couldn't believe how grown up he was!
Before the service my friend and I and her daughter (they went with us as the daughter also had this teacher) stopped at Starbucks. I saw an old friend I have lost touch with at Starbucks, it was nice to see her but I was sad to see she had gained more weight. She and I had both always struggled with weight issues. I guess I was somewhat hoping she had won her battle. Just another reminder that its hard to lose weight and that I am not the only one that doens't always succeed. Which made me sad but also feel a bit better. Does that make any sense?
I have come to the conclusion that finding a job is going to be tougher than I thought. I have filled out applications, put out feelers, called an employment agency (they gave me the cheerful news I would be "really hard" to place) all to no avail. The fact I refuse to work nights or weekends make the retail front really hard to go after. So I have come up with Plan B (or is G?). I am going to clean houses. I did this years ago for a couple of friends of mine and then quit when my mom got sick. The thing is, I can make $25 an hour to do this, pick my own hours, work on my own (have I mentioned I do not like being with a bunch of people all day long, women in particular?) and make three times the hourly rate I can make standing at some retail place all day long. No need for nice clothes either. My friend (birthday girl from last night) said she would really love to have me do this for her, she works full time, has a huge house and just can't keep up. I mean, its not glamorous but the money is decent and hard work never killed anybody. When I did this before, once I got one gig, I got others and I am hoping that same thing happens this time as well. Not the best use of my college education but who cares? The extra money will come in handy and make me feel like I am contributing more towards my family. And dh is fine with this. Years ago when I did this he was mortified! I think the last few years, the things we have been through, my mom's death, his lay off, problems with ds, have all done for him what they have done for me. Made us realize life is too short to sweat the small stuff. What do I care if people find out? So that's the plan. Frankly, I can't handle anymore rejection on the job front, so hopefully my friend will get her husband to agree to this, spread the word and I can start in the near future. And if not, well, I'll have to come up with Plan C.
In any case, I can do this for awhile (hopefully), in its own strange way it will make me feel better and I can reflect on maybe going back to school someday. I also hope to do some volunteering in the new year which is something I really miss. Its time for me to get busy again. Its been great having the last year to really get back into some sort of normal life. But its time to get back out there so to speak. I really hope this works out. It would make me feel so good to take some money I earned to take dh out to dinner some night or just give us a bit of breathing room. Maybe even pay off those darn orthodontal bills sooner! And of course, there are always trips to WDW that need to be financed and planned.
Okay, I am off to church. No walk today, but I told dh we are going tomorrow. The weather is supposed to be nice. Hope everybody is having a super weekend!