Yesterday - I think yesterday was more emotionally trying than Wednesday. I knew that this work would not be easy and that I would end up seeing many very sad children. But it is still difficult to face. I can't really say much, but 2 days in a row I had to watch young girls bawling and know that nothing I said would really help

. I know that things will be better for them now though and that we did what is in their best interest (although they were really hating us in the moment). I did ok in front of the girls, which was a good thing. Most of the time if someone else is crying I am crying right along w/ them. I know that in this job I cannot be that emotionally vulnerable. So, I didn't cry with them, but I did cry when I came home. I think this is going to be a process in which I try to reduce my reaction over time without becoming too cold. I can do this it is for a good cause
So it also helped that I got to go out to eat last night

We had planned it ahead of time, but we couldn't have picked a better night!
Food -
b - oatmeal w/peanut butter
l - tv dinner, lots of cheddar & sour cream potato chips
d - chicken bryan from Carraba's (YUM!), pasta, lentil soup, bread in olive oil
Didn't bother w/ my totals yesterday.
Exercise - 28 minutes of walking. I went by myself and just listened to my MP3 player and tried to move beyond thoughts of work. It was somewhat helpful.
Today was much calmer at work. In fact I did next to nothing today

I even got off of work early because of the extra hours I worked earlier in the week. My eating wasn't too good today though
I didn't get any exercise today either

However, we did go and join the gym today

My sis had checked it out the other day and they were running a special. Mom, Dad, Shell (sis), Dh, and I all went in and signed up. We officially become members Tuesday, but he said we can come over the weekend if we want. We have a lot planned though so I doubt it.
food today-
b- kashi w/ milk, gas station cappucino
l- leftover chicken bryan and pasta
d - burrito, taco, rice, beans.... Oops! We were supposed to cook in tonight, but we went out w/ my parents instead.
Ok, this is how

my

family is... we sign up at the gym, don't workout, then go out to dinner

I tried to pretend that I was gonna workout...I got on the stair stepper for about 2.5 minutes

It didn't seem to be going fast enough and they kept saying "go faster", but I was really Struggling not to be breathing too hard!

I don't do well on stair masters. That will be one of my goals --- Make it 10 minutes on the stairmaster.
Well, have a good night. I have a busy weekend planned so I may not be on much, but I will at least check in by Monday. I am gonna have to do some moving and shaking this weekend if I'm gonna make my exercise goal this month!
