Ahhhh man! Bad day :o(((

[Tinkerbell_Girl]

 

[CathrynRose]

And another thing "annoying" me...

I didnt talk to her everyday. My youngest did just about - I was more of maybe a once a week'er.

And now - every-damn-day, I think I wanna call her. WHY is that?!?!? Its bothering me. I never thought "Gee, I wanna call her right now in the middle of my work day" but now that I -cant-, I suddenly have this urge to.

 

[Stitchfans]

I am so sorry. Last I heard she wasn't feeling well. Didn't realize she passed away. I would of been there for you and had gone to support you had I'd known. We live so close I could of been there. Here I am feeling sorry for myself and you had something much harder to deal with.

 

[dmslush]

I'm so sorry for what you are going through. It is very difficult, I'm sure. Just know that your mom will live on through you and your beautiful children.

It is normal to feel a huge range of emotions. Don't feel guilty for feeling Okay!! Grief is a scary beast and no one gives us a manual telling us how to get over the death of someone who has been our longest lasting relationship.

 

[Stacey2grls]

I am so sorry for you Cathryn. I know how you feel, my mother passed away when I was 19, 15 years ago. The pain never goes away, but believe it or not, it does get better. When I think of my mother now, I don't think of her and feel sad, I actually laugh alot at all the funny things she did and all the great things she taught me and my siblings. Good luck to you, and I hope you feel better soon.

 

[Nite0wl71]

CathrynRose I know exactly how you are feeling. The grief process is different for everyone. My mom passed away Jan 8, 2005 so I have just passed the 1 year mark. Looking back I see I was in a depression for about the last 6 months, I am just now starting to come around. I still have boxes of hers that I haven't gone through.

I still want to call her, something will happen and I'll say to myself "wait until I tell mom". I wear her favorite sweater every day at work.

I am glad you were with your mom and got to say good-bye. My mom had a sudden heart attack and was at work when it happened. She was gone in an hour and none of us knew.

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