Dawn, your post brings tears to my eyes. I know this is a tough situation. I've dealt with similar issues (although not cancer) with mine through the years. I had a pony with liver failure that we struggled so hard with,
and a horse that I sat in the rain all day with holding an umbrella over her head while we waited to see if she was going to make it (she didn't). Along with that, there have been health issues with my dogs and cats.
It is sooo hard watching and trying everything you know to do but still feeling so helpless at the same time. All I can offer you, your family, and Jude is my prayers and best wishes, but you do have those...