hi everyone. I just wanted to first express my grattitude for the wonderful words and encouragement that everyone said. Susan and Garry you expressed your points so beautifully, and to sit hear and read *everyones* heartfelt words, well lets say an emotion girl became even more so.
The update is, I was holding on to small hope that a good Samaritan had my wallet and was trying to get intouch with me. That glimmer of hope was gone, after I called my CC companies. Apparantly the cash was not enough for the thieves. They used my CCs that day!!! The more I think about it, the more convinced I am that I was pick pocketed. We all know how crammed a subway can get, and I am the type that if someone bumps into me, I am the first to say sorry thinking it was my fault. Not even thinking that someone could be out to harm me. In that way I am very naive. I never realize or stop to think that there are people out there, whose sole intent is to cause damage to others.
My husband has been awesome thru this. He tells me that what is done is done, and I cant undo it. Yes, he is disappointed about the amount lost but he, like you all,says that it was just money and there are worse things that can happen. I love this man, he is my rock and I am blessed with him.
I think I am my own worst critic, and if I can just forgive myself it will be okay. I went and had my license replaced yesterday. That was actually alot easier and faster than I ever imagined ti would be. On the way back to work, I started feeling sorry for myself again, and a business had a sign up that read " Stop and take joy in the fact taht you are loved" ....WOW It pulled me out of my funk rather quickly!
I also neglected to to you all in my OP about the experience I had on the day I first noticed my wallet missing. On my 4th trip back to the subway, when I was looking in the trash cans around the subway, I had an interesting experience that still brings me to tears as I typr this. One of the trash cans was at a bus stop. There was a homeless man there who had asked me how my day was going. Normally, I side step unknown people because I work in Downtown Columbus and you can never be to sure about safety. Well on this day, obviously I was distraught. I told him what was going on. He asked if I had been back to Subway, and I told him I was on my way back. When I left Subway again, he asked if I had any luck. I told him no. He looked at as sincere as can be and said "Listen sugar, A nice Christian fellow up the road just gave me $15. I cant give it all to you, but I can give you $5." Here this fellow was with **NOTHING*** absoulutely nothing....and he offered to give me $5!!!!!!To him $5 hurt as much as what I lost hurt me. It touched me so much. I declined and told him I appreciated his offer. I told him it meant a lot to me, but that luckily I had people I could go to for help, and I was thankful for that. I asked his name. He said "JEFF" and that he just moved to Columbus a few months ago and had fallen on hard times. Then he said, I get $$ from the Army once a month, if you still need help on the 1st of the month I can give $100! OMG I almost lost it all over again. I thanked him for his kindess, again declined and told him I had better keep looking for my belongings. He said, " If you change your mind, see those trees up there? about 3 blocks? I have been sleeping under those trees for the past coupla weeks, and that is where I will be on the 1st" ...
Now I dont know if that story touches you all as much as it has me, but if you could keep this kind soul in your prayers I would appreciate it. Everytime I get upset with myself about how much I lost I think about Jeff.
My co worker thinks that was a message from God. I believe she is right. I try to remember this. It is not easy. So sorry to babble on, I jsut thought I would share, because I think of this man with nothing. offering $5 to a stranger when he has nothing. Well I just dont know how to end this so I will stop now. Something to think aobut though eh?