If you need to talk, you can PM me. I'm always around.
I wish she would of told me this 6 months ago...instead of giving me the green light and letting me spend half my savings on infertility treatments
Oh well....what can i do about it now?? nothing! 
AFM LADIES.... I'm officially OUT. My doctor gave me the devastating news a few weeks ago that my leaky valves and some left side heart failure would make it very risky for me to proceed with concieving a child and carrying it full term. I could most likely die giving birth or shortly after because of the strain it would put on my heart.
So...where are we going to go from here? Back to the adoption option for us. We have been already approved...we registered with an agency a year ago...just in case I couldnt get pregnant. The program is the China Special Needs Program.....we had requested a child with a minor heart defect considering our extensive knowledge in that area. The program is quite fast...problem is coming up with all of the funds for it. But I think if we budget properly we can do it.
BUT...to add insult to injury...... I have 3 step-children who I love dearly....the middle child 14 years old is a 7 year cancer survivor....we found out 2 weeks ago she will be fighting the fight AGAIN. They found a Tumor in her sinus cavity ....the same place the last one was. The outcome looks very grim....since she has maxxed out on her radiation levels and surgery would be a nightmare considering its in her facial tissue. We are simply devastated. The thought of trying to go through this adoption at this time makes my stomach turn... I would not want to take anything away from the serious situation that has come up with my step-daughter. I ahve cried myself to sleep over this the past week . I cannot picture our family without her
So...I am asking myself...why?
Why does life have to be so complicated and why do bad things happen to good people???????
AFM LADIES.... I'm officially OUT. My doctor gave me the devastating news a few weeks ago that my leaky valves and some left side heart failure would make it very risky for me to proceed with concieving a child and carrying it full term. I could most likely die giving birth or shortly after because of the strain it would put on my heart.
So...where are we going to go from here? Back to the adoption option for us. We have been already approved...we registered with an agency a year ago...just in case I couldnt get pregnant. The program is the China Special Needs Program.....we had requested a child with a minor heart defect considering our extensive knowledge in that area. The program is quite fast...problem is coming up with all of the funds for it. But I think if we budget properly we can do it.
BUT...to add insult to injury...... I have 3 step-children who I love dearly....the middle child 14 years old is a 7 year cancer survivor....we found out 2 weeks ago she will be fighting the fight AGAIN. They found a Tumor in her sinus cavity ....the same place the last one was. The outcome looks very grim....since she has maxxed out on her radiation levels and surgery would be a nightmare considering its in her facial tissue. We are simply devastated. The thought of trying to go through this adoption at this time makes my stomach turn... I would not want to take anything away from the serious situation that has come up with my step-daughter. I ahve cried myself to sleep over this the past week . I cannot picture our family without her
So...I am asking myself...why?
Why does life have to be so complicated and why do bad things happen to good people???????
I will pray for her and your family.
