Why does God hate me?

[disnygoof]

Why? I started this whole journey at my highest weight ever. 269.4. I joined WW and lost a lot, initially, but then for the last 2 months on WW I was at a stall. So I decided to low carb again and go on Atkins. It had worked for me in the past and I knew it could work for me now. On my scale at home I showed 227 when I first started on 11/12. I WI on Weds. and for the first two weeks I only lost 2.4 (down to 224.6). I was thinking TOM since I just had my little friend visit this week. But I weighed in this morning and I am up to 226.6 again! And I've been on INDUCTION?!?!?!

Something's wrong - Everyone tries to find an excuse as to why I'm not doing as well as I should. TOM (well that's not an excuse now...) so they say "Not enough water?" but I drink at least 64 oz a day. I wasn't bad at Turkey Day at all really. And I've been excercising more and more each day. Then people say "measure yourself." I do. Nothing's moving. My pants aren't tight persay, but they certainly aren't getting smaller at all. I'm on Zoloft for depression but not a very high dosage (50mg). I know it's a plateau, but I think going from WW to Atkins would've shocked my metabolism a bit to kick it into higher gear. Obviously God wants me to be this way and maybe this is just a hint.

I know it's not right to feel sorry for myself, but this is my life's battle and I can't seem to get anywhere anymore. Trying to put my make up on this morning, I was crying (which wasn't good when I was trying to put on mascara). I just don't want to be fat anymore! I don't know what to do.

Anyway, thanks for listening. I don't know what advice anyone could give me that I haven't already told myself or been told, but it helps a teeny bit to write it all down.

Christiana

 

[DoeWDW]

Christiana, I wish I had the answer.

A1A1 is having the same problem - eating Atkins Induction and gaining instead of losing.

At this point, all I can do is send you a . Don't give up just yet. I'll do some digging around to see if I can find any information.

Hang in there!

 

[LAinSEA]

Christiana!

More important than losing weight is for you to FEEL BETTER both physically and emotionally.

I've struggled with my weight all my life - my mother and sister are tiny tiny tiny (mom 5'1" 98 lbs, sister 5'3" 126 lbs, me 5'3" 180 lbs, dad 5'8" 300 lbs). My metabolism is just like my dad's. It's hard to hear my mom and sister comment on my weight and every suggestion for losing it.

I started Atkins (again) mid-November but put off full-on induction until after Thanksgiving. I know from experience that 20 carbs per day is high for me - I need to be well under that and make sure they come from nothing but salad greens and high-fat content cheese!

My suggestion - be very careful about the carbs you take in, stay under 20 carbs longer than the 2-week induction diet says. Stick with salad greens and very high fat, low or non-carb cheese for these carbs. Do 10 minutes of exercise 4 to 5 times a day. Two of these should be with weights or strength training. More muscle in your body will up your metabolism. (I have asthma and a very tight work schedule and don't have any more than 10 minutes at a time to exercise - although I try to walk for 30-45 minutes at a time on my days off - so I get my exercise in when I can.)

Talk to your doctor both about your medication and if you can take chromium as a supplement. (The one piece of good advice my mother furnished was about chromium - it really does help your metabolism.)

Water - you could try upping your water intake to 80 oz. - but I find that I don't count my water - I just refill my glass when it gets close to empty and drink when I'm thirsty. I find putting a small bit of fresh lemon in the water improves the taste and the increasing the amount I drink.

More importantly don't give up - and don't be afraid to demand that your doctor check you blood work for low thyroid and other problems. (My thyroid level is low but still barely in the "normal" range - so no medication for it for now.)

You can do it - I know you can!

-Laurie

 

[ZerasPride]

It must be very frustrating to do all you can to take off the weight and want to take it off so badly but the scale doesn't move. I know that I can and probably will face that eventuality somewhere on this weight loss journey of my own and frankly it scares me. I'm not sure how I will feel about it but reading experiences like yours does help prepare me. All the women in my family are thin except me. I've got 6 sisters so I can understand what you are talking about. The whole family is buzzing about my new way of eating and making comments some encouraging, some not so encouraging but that's okay. Really it is.

I weighed myself for the first time in a long while on Monday and wasn't really that surprised that the scale read 282.5. I've got a long way to go but I am trying to look at this as a lifestyle change. I didn't stop eating ice cream and cookies even though they were making me fatter and fatter so I'm going to try not to stop eating healthy even if I don't get the results I want (and need to see) as fast as I'd like. As everyone else has said, please hang in there!!!!! I keep thinking to myself, what's the alternative? I really don't like the answer my mind comes up with (300+pounds) so I plan to keep moving forward even if the scale doesn't move down like I want it to. Take care!!!

 

[antmaril]

It is so frustrating. I have been dieting for five weeks now. Not Atkins, not WW, just doing my own thing. No junk food and watching my portions. I joined Curves and have been going three times a week. I have lost three pounds total. It is very hard to stay motivated. I lose weight VERY slowly - obviously. I keep telling myself that I may not lose much weight, but I will be healthier.

I don't have the answer. I don't want to do Atkins. I know that I could probably lose weight faster, but I know I can't live that way. It's just too hard. I want to have a normal diet. I want to eat a little of everything - moderation is key. I keep telling myself that this has to work over the long haul, but it is hard to stick with it at times.

I feel your pain, I really do. I know it's so hard to keep your chin up. Just know that there are many of us out there who have the same problem.

Good luck!

 

[Miss Jasmine]

Christiana,
You need to learn to love yourself where you are at. We come in all shapes and sizes and there is no "ideal", even if the media wants us to believe that. I think it's so great that you keep trying, and you know what, even if the weight isn't coming off as you would like, you are making yourself a healthier person, and that is what matters most.


Come on girl, look in the mirror and see how much you have already done. Great job.

I am so sorry you are feeling so down. But thank you for sharing your feelings here. It really helps to write things down. Perhaps you should journal as you go through this, it really helps a lot.

 

[StitchGirl88]

thats what i say why does he hate me why did he make me heavy cause i was always skinny and i can't lose my weight either i only gain it anf it made me made so you are not the onlt one who asks that question and my prarys are with you to lose weight as i pray for my self too.

 

[JessicaR]

Very frustrating when we dont see results that are as large as we like. However dont count the 2 lbs as a gain cause it probably is water. You are getting healthier, that is a plus. Are you doing any form of exercise? If not, start! Even if its a short walk every other day. If you are increase it a bit, doesnt have to be major just a bit more. It is probably taking your body some time to adjust from WW to Atkins since they are so opposite.

Induction for me the first 2 weeks was productive but come the third week (I stayed on induction) I gained 4 lbs. I learned that by writing every single thing I put in my mouth daily helped me see what changed. I started eating atkins bars and I added nuts. So this week I eliminated the nuts and the bars and went back to basics. Everything I am now eating is in its purest form. Meat, eggs, fish, cheese, salad greens, butter, mayo and a daily vegetable like asparagus or green beans. No more breakfast bars. I also now watch the sodium in processed meats and limit that too. One morning I woke up and was so swollen. I think it was from eating ham and bacon. I cut out my snacking on walnuts and even though I felt I was drinking enough water I increased that as well. I exercise every other day and never 2 days in a row so my body has a day of rest for muscle to grow.

I have not been back on the scale yet but I do know I am back on track with losing, I can feel it! Dont get discouraged because caving in to failure produces further failures and worse frustration. Be so very proud of yourself for your accomplishments!! Think how you would be feeling if those lbs lost were lbs gained. Thats a great reason to smile!!!

So start a food diary so you can "see" if there are any changes, no matter how small that you can make. Have you had your thyroid checked? Thats sometimes the culprit. Good luck to you and dont be so hard on yourself you are doing terrific!!!

 

[TigH]

All I can offer is a great big hug and a gitsey (PM me if you need to know what a gitsey is) and some hope. You know you are living a healthier lifestyle than you previously were. The scale isn't always the best way to measure a loss. Sometimes we can retain fluids that mess with our heads when we step on the scale.

You have to ask yourself how your body is feeling lately. Are you sleeping better? Do you feel better about the foods you are eating? Do you feel less guilt? Do you feel like you are eating meals that satisfy your hunger? Do you have more energy?

There is more to getting healthy than losing weight. It's a matter of your well being too. Take good care of yourself. Applaud your accomplishments. If you do any type of exercise that you didn't do before, or if it's your intention to exercise and you haven't, then feel good about that.

Don't let the scale make or break your day. I have pants that I use as my guage because my scale was making me crazy! And my weigh fluctuates so much every week depending on what time of the month it is!!!!!!!!

Please don't be so hard on yourself. Make this more about feeling good about your choices than about losing pounds. You could be getting smaller without realizing it based on what the scale says.

Good luck and keep a positive attitude. It really makes all the difference.

 

[A1A1]

I feel your pain. I am having the same problem. I did Atkins about two years ago, and lost weight so quickly that I also lost alot of hair. I felt great.Went back to my old eating habits and put half the weight back on.

Tried Atkins again, and lost 6 pounds in the first 10-14 days. Since then, I have gained about a half pound a day. I have never been so shocked about dieting. I swear that I am not cheating, and trying so hard. I was so frustrated and down tonight that I almost ordered a pizza. I didn't, but really wanted to.

I don't know what to do now. I feel like my last hope for dieting is gone. Maybe I need the stomach surgery. Or wire my jaw shut.

 

[saturday97]

You might think about talking to a nutritionist. They can help you with an eating plan that's appropriate for your body's needs, and they offer alot of great info about how the body works. Sometimes when you know what's going on it's easier to get throught the rough periods. Hang in there!

 

[robinb]

Originally posted by disnygoof
Obviously God wants me to be this way and maybe this is just a hint.

I think it's your body telling you that Atkins in not for you. Unfortunately, it's not for everybody . Choose a more balanced diet or go back to WW where you had you sucess. {{hugs}} and good luck.

 

[disnygoof]

Thank you everyone so much for your replies and support! It really means a lot to me

I'm still going to stay w/Atkins b/c I DO feel healthier -- more energy, less tired in the AM. I think you're right, my body is kind of shocked from going to WW (MAJOR carb intake) to Atkins (little or NO carbs).

So I'm going to keep at it and keep exercising b/c I think EVENTUALLY, the scale will catch up with me. That darn scale! I was just really down all day until I got home and read all of the wonderful support from my WISH pals.


Thanks again all

 

[Miss Jasmine]

I am so happy to see that you are feeling better! Now how about getting those frowns out of your siggy. Look forward, not back.

 

[ZerasPride]

I'm so happy to hear that you're feeling better about all this. We all want to see results from our scales and it can be such a downer if it doesn't cooperate.

Just wanted to say "hi" and hope your day is going well. Take care!

 

[MelanieC]

(((HUGS))) Christiana,

First of all, God doesn't hate you.

Sorry to hear you are down in the dumps. You were so excited when you started Atkins, and I really thought this would jump start your loss again.

Hang in there, it's tough sometimes. Give your body a chance to figure out that you are starting a new program. You can do it.

Melanie

 

[disnygoof]

Oh Mel, you're such a great friend! I know God doesn't hate me, but I get so down in the dumps sometimes, I feel that way. I'm just going to give it more time instead of being so impatient. As long as I feel better, that's the #1 thing. The weight will come off soon enough.

Again, thank you all for your great words - I love my WISH friends!!

Christiana

 

[Tiggerlover91]

Christina~~~Just know this.....GOD HATES NO ONE! That's just something we humans put into our mindsets and it's garbage! GOD does not make junk!

He made you the way you are for a reason. Think of it this way, when those pounds come off, you're going to be a great testimony for someone struggling just as you are now!! I was skinny for about the first 20 years of my life and then when DH and I moved off to Alaska, I put the pounds on. My heaviest was 245!! I am now 209! I'm 34 years old and don't remember the last time I weighed so little. I put back on a couple of pounds at Thanksgiving, but I'm okay with that. I have myself back on induction for about a week and I'm going to see how I do next Tuesday when I weigh myself.

Just stay positive and always remember you could be one of those we see on talk shows daily who can't get one single pound off and have to have surgery or they're going to die. I saw one on Maury the other day that just bought tears to my eyes. He was about 800lbs and knew that if he didn't get the weight off soon, he wasn't going to make it to 30.....30!!!! He said food was his addicition and would sometimes eat 3 meals before noon. So just remember sweetie, you are one of the blessed ones!

I showed my "fat picture" to a guest at my job the other day, I work at Ruby Tuesdays and she told me, I was a great source of motivation for someone coming in having trouble on their diet. Everytime I show the picture, EVERYONE says it looks nothing like me and for me, THAT'S the compliment in itself.

Just know this, I struggled with my weight for years and finally with encouragement from DH and DM, I went on Atkins! I was very slow in the loss at first and once I got to 20 pounds it just started falling off. I want to be at 199 by Christmas, but being up 2 pounds might stall that for me. However, if I make it by December 31st, then I will be just thrilled, coz my true goal was to be 199 pounds by the new year. From there, I will only have 11 pounds to go til I reach goal.

Hang in there sweetie and PM me anytime you need a lift. GOD loves you and is ALWAYS there for you. He already knows what you need and even though you don't see it or feel it, he's already given you exactly what you need.

Best to you always,
Denise

 

[tiggerlover]

I am sorry to read that you are struggling so much with your weight loss efforts, I know how frustrating that can be, I have walked in those shoes. I do not know anything about Atkins, so I have no advice what so ever on that, sorry.

I do want to say that I am glad you know God does not hate you, as Tiggerlover91 said, it is just something we humans put into our mindsets, I think this is true because we are looking to place blame. God gave us our bodies when we were given life, we have only ourselves to blame for what we have done to our bodies to make them overweight (and I am not placing blame here, because I include myself in this as well). During the course of my weight loss journey I have come to realize that being overweight may have been God's way of teaching me some lessons. I over ate and got fat for a reason, and over the last 9 months I have been getting an education on health and fitness, it is information that has been out there for ages, but I finally was at a point in my life to listen and accept responsibility for being fat and to do something about it. I also believe there was a reason I found WISH when I did, because if I hadn't found WISH I don't think I would be where I am today. I didn't pray to God to make me skinny, I just asked Him to show me the way, to help guide me and I think He has.

I would hang in there a little longer and see if things start to change, if they do that is wonderful, but if they don't maybe you need to try a different approach. Because as I have found out not all changes in lifestyles work for all people, some folks are very successful at Atkins, some are not. Some are successful with WW, some are not, you just have to explore your options and find works best for you.

{{{HUGS}}}

 

[Castillo Mom]

Christiana, do you have the book on Atkins? If so, go to the section that talks about metabolic resistance and the section that explains the fat fast. You may be able to find a solution there. If you don't have the book, don't forget Atkins.com. It contains pretty much the same info. Hang in there and don't give up, ok?