I NEEEEEEEEEEEEED a 'down weekend"!

Been one of those days here.
Got some bad news, My cousin who was a year older than me passed away. We never got along, and I always stayed Faaaaaaaaaaaaaar away from him. He had many problems.
I feel bad for my aunt. She also buried her other son 19 years ago.
Now here is the scary thing ...out of all my male cousins.....NONE made it to 50!!!!!!!
Guess who is the oldest male cousin now???????
I had 4 older male cousins, one died @ 38, one @ 42, One @ 31 and one @ 49!
So should I start freakin or what!!!!

I figure I have 31 more years till I hit 50!
However I am a

compared to them. At least I think so!!!!!