to still go or not to still go

[trainboyjon]

First off, thank all of you for you kind words and thoughts. It have been a rough time, and will continue to be for a while. What started off as a postponement, has gone to it's off and us walking our separate ways, not a plan that I had for myself at this point in time. While it's hard, I've got to begin to make myself move on for a while and let time take the wheel of this ride. Hit me like a freight train. So time is what it takes, time is what I'll give it for now.

As far as the trip goes, I've decided to go down for sure. Leave Sunday. There are still a lot of friends going on their trips, and a lot of friends who will for sure be around me all the time. The hardest day will be on Friday the 11th for sure, but they have all told me they will be there to help rip off the band-aid together that day. Prob get together for some sort of a photo on that day and a drink or two. I hear a tequila bar calling. two places to avoid at all costs, the WP and then the living seas.. reception was to be in the VIP lounge upstairs there. But all will be OK I think. A trip full of friends and fun, with I'm sure some sad moments from time to time, but still full of fun.

Thank you all again for your kind words and thoughts. It is comforting to know I'm not the first to go through something like this, and I'm sure not the last. I just keep telling myself that this feeling will go away and get better with every passing day. Thank you all again for any and all words and advice..