But I bet a lot less worn out than you would have been a year ago!
Glynis, you (and Elin and Julie) have inspired me to get back on track with my eating and exercising. Now, I just started Monday, so it's not like I've done much yet.
I may have already shared this story. If so, shake your head at my turning into my grandfather and skip on. I have been overweight my entire adult life. Actually, that is an understatement. I think the term "morbidly obese" describes most of my life. In September 2001, I started going to Weight Watchers. In a year, I lost more than 100 pounds! I was down to a size 6-8. I ate very healthy foods and exercised (even started running). Fast forward to now, and I have re-gained most of the weight I lost, I eat terribly, and I am extremely out of shape. I have felt like such a failure for so long. Even when I was at my lowest weight, and everyone was telling me that I looked great, all I could focus on was the fact that I wasn't low enough to be at the top of the Weight Watcher range for my height. I thought I'd made a lifestyle change, but slowly I slipped back into my old lifestyle. I can't believe that I allowed myself to regain so much weight. I feel stupid and foolish and like a failure. I keep thinking that I'm going to be so fat when we go to Disney this summer no matter what I do. Well, it's time to turn that around. I can wallow in my failure and keep myself miserable, or I can pull myself up by my bootstraps (is that a new phrase to you, Clare?) and get back to where I was. I have three choices for our Disney trip: I can be this weight, I can be even heavier, or I can be at least a little lighter. That last option is definitely the best! Also, this time I'll take a size 6-8 and not worry about what Weight Watchers says that I should weigh. It's going to be a long journey, but I've done it before, and I can do it again.
Why am I sharing all of this with you? Because I need to get it all out in the open. I need to admit that I failed but also tell myself that I am not a failure. Because it's the first step to getting myself back in line and will give me accountability. Because I feel like you are family.
Beth