Team Goddess - Volume 11. Rocking 2012 Goddess Style!

[SeptemberGirl]

I read it all - commented on some! But I am caught up!

Long story short, what I thought was dehydration on marathon weekend was actually a combination of dehydration and a potential heart problem.

It's just disappointing that my life is put on hold-- even if it's for a good reason and only for a few months.

Please. Be smart. Chill. No guilt or stress about not exercising! This is your life! It's not on hold, it's just not what you thought it would be. Well, whose is, ever? You are not derailed - you are where you need to be, dealing with your health proactively! Woo! to that.

Down 1.2.

And I'm feeling strangely at peace.

Nice on the weight. Better on the peace.

Welcome Taryn.

It's such a surprise that you and Erika mesh. Kind of the same chip that would make someone dive into a lake - in freezing water of course - to get a screw that fell. I love that ridiculous chip.

YES! Welcome, Taryn. Good to see that you are also on the Crazy Train - oh my word, I have paid for races and not shown up - I dream about an injury that gets me out of it! Kidding. Sort of.

I'm the ONLY non-runner on here Taryn. But I love me a race.

Hi, when have I ever run? Well, back in 2009. Okay, then. I walk!

Is Liz on holidays? So British of me.

I was in Chicago last weekend visiting the fam, and Jo, and got home late Monday. Took me a week to catch up on life!

When I heard about it yesterday my first thought was to get a friend of ours to come do it with us. She's a SAHM and her husband abruptly quit his job this week. Their home is in turmoil. A leisurely jog would be good for her.

I need something to train for.

Your friend - she needs a race and maybe a good stiff drink afterwards! Oy to the vey.

Yes, I ALWAYS need something to train for - this is why my butt gets in gear for the Princess and slacks off after.

 

[PrincessRhi]

Please. Be smart. Chill. No guilt or stress about not exercising! This is your life! It's not on hold, it's just not what you thought it would be. Well, whose is, ever? You are not derailed - you are where you need to be, dealing with your health proactively! Woo! to that.

Yeah, I guess I did need to hear that perspective. I think I tend to get down on myself when my fitness/health plans go awry for lesser reasons (aka- boyfriend buys me a KitchenAid stand mixer for my birthday, so I spend all weekend baking the fattiest, butteriest things I can find in recipe books), so it feels like it's in the same boat-- even though it's not at all. So thank you for the reminder On a good note, I just got a ring from my doc and my chemicals/enzymes/hormones/whatever else he looked for are all OK.

Yes, I ALWAYS need something to train for - this is why my butt gets in gear for the Princess and slacks off after.

There has to be something mid-summer in a cooler climate that will be good to train for... Hmm... October is WAY too far away.

 

[AKASnowWhite]

Since my bladder is about the size of one of Mickey's pants buttons.... I stop a lot.

Hmmmm...I don't know anyone else who fits that description

Down 1.6 from last week, a total of 12.6.

Awesome Kat!

It's a bit ambitious, right? I noticed when writing it out I am not weight training - I would love to throw that in Friday or Saturday but although I know it would help the race, I think it has to wait until after!



Thanks, Nancy!

I am SO impressed that you have been off alcohol for 23 days!

Good luck with the dreadmill. No indoor track close? Can you put one in your pole barn? I do love the indoor track!

Weight training = super important for me. It's really hard to make it a priority though when training for these 1/2 marathons! There's only so much time every day that one can spend at the gym!

Alcohol. I don't even miss it right now. I adore a nice glass or two of wine but I think that once I broke the sugar habit, the alcohol was easy for me to break up with.

Pole barn . It's full of GOATS! No room for a indoor running track there. Although - we *did* buy an elliptical yesterday. Sole E35 (because I know you all want details!). It's about 90% assembled. We ran out of time yesterday because we went to see Mama Mia, which btw was fabulous!

TM - yep. I kicked it's a$$ this morning. 9 miles of pure fabulous! Seriously. I was so dreading it this morning, but it was awesome! I think I'm delusional

 

[AKASnowWhite]

Yes, I ALWAYS need something to train for - this is why my butt gets in gear for the Princess and slacks off after.

A bike ride maybe?

 

[SeptemberGirl]

A bike ride maybe?

That's a great idea - an EASY bike ride, by the beach! Wanna come down and do it with me? I promise to come up in Oct to play in the woods!

 

[SeptemberGirl]

On a good note, I just got a ring from my doc and my chemicals/enzymes/hormones/whatever else he looked for are all OK.

There has to be something mid-summer in a cooler climate that will be good to train for... Hmm... October is WAY too far away.

GREAT news - one thing down!

Yes, I need a May or June something - then Septmeber - then late Oct.

TM - yep. I kicked it's a$$ this morning. 9 miles of pure fabulous! Seriously. I was so dreading it this morning, but it was awesome! I think I'm delusional [/COLOR]

I hate to tell you this, Nancy, but....

(ducks!)

That's AWESOME on the 9 miles!!! So, is this really your last Princess? Cheer squad after this? And are you drinking with us down there? Not that I wouldn't love you sober!

 

[lisaviolet]

You know that she is named after Trinity from the Matrix, right?

Never seen the Matrix.

1. Lisa. LOVE what you wrote to me. Made me cry. And think. I read it to N. Please don't ever edit that because I will need it to go back to. Thank you, my friend. That meant so much.

2. We had a great trip to Chicago! Saw Jo! Woo! More on that later, unless she has already filled you in!

3. I am still tracking and exercising. My weigh in day is now Saturday - keeps me honest on Sat night! I've lost 7lbs since the beginning of January. I am very pleased with that. Very.

Exercise: Just did my 6 miles today!!!

Doing my long runs on Sunday mornings, yoga on Monday nights. Short run Tuesday, Zumba Wednesday evening; short run Thursday. Friday and Saturday rest. This is HUGE for me - to do two exercise classes at 6:30pm and leave dinner to DH, to take Em to the gym three days a week in childcare - huge. I do the Tuesday run after her piano class so it's a bit of rush to get her home, homework done, snack, change clothes, piano but I am trying. Thursdays I am going while she is in dance class - it's a tight schedule since we have her BFF that day, too, but I am trying also.

I have to be totally on top of housework and my food, since I have no break, no lunch, nothing in my 6 hour work day - so it's just a tight schedule all over. But again, I am doing my best - that's all I can do! I'm just impressed I HAVE a commitment to this!

Off to bed - I'll start catch up tomorrow!

You're welcome Liz. It will be great to look back on - and you know how far I've come - I realized mid-week that I never thought of editing. Too funny.

Wonderful on Chicago.

I was thinking this week that losing weight - getting to goal is FABULOUS. A given. No argument from me. But we also have remember that there are probably many people at goal hanging on for dear life - white knuckling. No one EVER talks about that until the weight comes back on. And I certainly have no interest in being in that place. I know some people would say "I would do anything to be at goal and be *skinny* and could care less if that's how they have to stay at goal. But not me. When it comes - and I'm not ignoring being focused and having setbacks - but it MUST come with peace. And I just was thinking this summer that you of all people are really set up for that peace. I mean look at the lessons you took in and took to heart. A big deal. And I wondered out loud whether you gave yourself that credit so VOILA.

The Warrior Roast isn't even the one that scares me! It's the wall. I'm totally and completely freaked at the thought of having to get over a wall! That and the repelling down the "steep ravine" I've never repelled before. There's still time to learn though. Plenty of time. right?

Yes plenty of time. I can imagine that repelling - once you get the hang of it - might be quite fun.

Or maybe I've watched one too many Amazing Race episodes. Speaking of which Jean and I always say that we would never make it to the airport on episode one without swearing at each other and totally LOSING IT.

Way faster than my little Ford Escape should be driving. I can't break the ****** Boston driver in me, especially when the drive is so... straight. I

Down 1.6 from last week, a total of 12.6.

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Fantastic Kat!!!

 

[PrincessRhi]

GREAT news - one thing down!

Yes, I need a May or June something - then Septmeber - then late Oct.

My future sister-in-law and I were trying to think of making up a Disney Quadrathlon. Just for fun, of course.

"Kayaking" would be Kali River Rapids
"Bicycling" will be a surrey ride (with margaritas in hand if we can find them) on some path.
"Running" will be one of the thrill rides
"Swimming" will be a lazy river at one of the water parks.

I really think we will be trying this at some point. Make t-shirts and "quadrathlon outfits" to wear that day. It should be good times.

 

[SeptemberGirl]

Okay, so I am a little silly. My DD's school has a race April 14th! That can be my new goal!

Then a bike ride. By the beach. On flat paved ground.

I was thinking this week that losing weight - getting to goal is FABULOUS. A given. No argument from me. But we also have remember that there are probably many people at goal hanging on for dear life - white knuckling. No one EVER talks about that until the weight comes back on. And I certainly have no interest in being in that place. I know some people would say "I would do anything to be at goal and be *skinny* and could care less if that's how they have to stay at goal. But no me. When it comes - and I'm not ignoring being focused and having setbacks - but it MUST come with peace. And I just was thinking this summer than you of all people are really set up for that peace. I mean look at the lessons you took in and took to heart. A big deal. And I wondered out loud whether you gave yourself that credit so VOILA.

I NEVER gave myself credit for it! Never.

Also, was never comfortable skinny. And whoa was I skinny.

I would say, yes white knuckling - not who I want to be. Not who I ever wanted to be. Who i would have become, I think.

There is a size 8 dress hanging in my closet - brand new, green. I don't know if I will ever wear it. It's very pretty but I may never be a size 8 again and that's okay - I am just not ready to let it go. It's there to remind me to make peace with myself, no matter what.

Easier said than done.

 

[lisaviolet]

GOOD GRIEF!
2. I had DH Tivo the GG. He will have to Tivo the Oscars, as these ladies never want to sit in the DVC and watch it! Imagine!!!! :scared1




I am going to BC in hmm 4 weeks! Thank you for the pm about it!



Lisa, I am glad kitty is better. And sad you cannot make it. One day, though. One day!

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I would have watched with you. Especially pre-show. I'm really into that.

You are going to British Columbia or you're going to the Beach Club?

Frankie is not better Liz. But thank you. That's my fault I've just been shutting up. He just had more tests this morning and it's come down to this. This week he'll either have an operation or be put to sleep because his death would be very ugly when it came.

Why?

They misdiagnosed for a bit because of extreme constipation. And he has bladder stones. Some bladder stones can be worked on. His type (urate) can't. BUT he has to be tested to see if he's healthy enough to live through the operation at his age - 14 this year. The type -urate stones are rare for cats and genetic and could be tied to liver disease.

I *thought* the decision if he was too sick for surgery - meaning the next decision if that happened - wouldn't have to made right now. That he could simply live out the rest of his life - maybe weeks/months but could be years and if he seemed partially blocked from the stones (which he has never been - it was false the stones have impacted nothing in his life so far - it was a mistake) THEN we could put him down immediately if he couldn't have an operation to save him from great pain. The stones can release and totally block urine flow. Very easy to do in a male cat especially because the ***** is narrow.

But I've since learned that there is too little of a window for clues whether any of the stones have actually dropped. This could happen in a minute or in YEARS. Sighing. We were told today that we could easily miss it by being at work or away. When they do a VERY painful death would come quickly and I just found out the same as Billie's in the end - acute kidney failure would come rapidly.

And I would live in anxiety daily leaving him alone. Since one could drop in a minute or years. They must come out if he is well enough besides the stones to do it.

So tomorrow we will know. This all is very common in cats (love to you Kat!) - however the type of stone isn't.

Hi, when have I ever run? Well, back in 2009. Okay, then. I walk!
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What?

What is going on with you little half marathoners? You didn't crawl it did you?

I CAN NOT AND WILL NOT call someone who finished a half marathon a NON- runner. Pointe Finale.

On a good note, I just got a ring from my doc and my chemicals/enzymes/hormones/whatever else he looked for are all OK.
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Fantastic news Rhianna.

Hmmmm...I don't know anyone else who fits that description


TM - yep. I kicked it's a$$ this morning. 9 miles of pure fabulous! Seriously. I was so dreading it this morning, but it was awesome! I think I'm delusional

Funny on the first.

And on the second - I guess you like running more than I ever realized. Truly. I was wrong.

GREAT news - one thing down!

Yes, I need a May or June something - then Septmeber - then late Oct.



I hate to tell you this, Nancy, but....

(ducks!)

That's AWESOME on the 9 miles!!! So, is this really your last Princess? Cheer squad after this? And are you drinking with us down there? Not that I wouldn't love you sober!

Of course she's drinking down there. Yes Nancy?

 

[lisaviolet]

Okay, so I am a little silly. My DD's school has a race April 14th! That can be my new goal!

Then a bike ride. By the beach. On flat paved ground.




I NEVER gave myself credit for it! Never.

Also, was never comfortable skinny. And whoa was I skinny.

I would say, yes white knuckling - not who I want to be. Not who I ever wanted to be. Who i would have become, I think.

There is a size 8 dress hanging in my closet - brand new, green. I don't know if I will ever wear it. It's very pretty but I may never be a size 8 again and that's okay - I am just not ready to let it go. It's there to remind me to make peace with myself, no matter what.

Easier said than done.

Absolutely easier said than done. BUT you have a huge bonus in your corner. I have never ever heard you HATE the bigger Liz. I have heard you frustrated for sure. But never hating *her*. And that's huge. I knew this from a very young age. I knew that women who couldn't look at their before picture without some ugly comment would never stay with the weight off and if they did they're not telling everyone how they are white knuckling.

And who knows where you're going to end up Liz. You could be in that dress for all we know. Because a *different* Liz is losing this time. So who knows. (And before I speak here - of course I know you still have issues here and there - don't we all and different ones come up as we get close to goal. ) BUT whether you are in that dress or not I'll say it again - because you love you and your life is grand and full - you're way ahead of the game. Some women never get there in the their lifetime (truly loving themselves - knowing their worth) and I think you've totally underestimated your gains - good ones I mean.

 

[lisaviolet]

You are going to British Columbia or you're going to the Beach Club?

BONNET CREEK.

DingDingDing we have a winner. Serves me right for reading too quickly.

 

[lisaviolet]

I have so many typos. So ???? MEANS WAY TOO STRESSED. Sighing.

 

[SeptemberGirl]

I would have watched with you. Especially pre-show. I'm really into that.

You are going to British Columbia or you're going to the Beach Club?

Frankie is not better Liz.


I CAN NOT AND WILL NOT call someone who finished a half marathon a NON- runner. Pointe Finale.

I ADORE pre-show. I would never trade the half weekend, but I sure miss my Oscar parties! That was big tradition with my friends.

I am going to Bonnet Creek! Ha! So many BC's!

Okay, I walked across that line! Endurance Athlete, yes. Runner? No.

 

[AKASnowWhite]

That's a great idea - an EASY bike ride, by the beach! Wanna come down and do it with me? I promise to come up in Oct to play in the woods!

YES!

That's AWESOME on the 9 miles!!! So, is this really your last Princess? Cheer squad after this? And are you drinking with us down there? Not that I wouldn't love you sober!

Last Princess? Well, it depends on how the hip cooperates. Perhaps the last running. As for drinking? Yum, yes indeed. That's a given

Never seen the Matrix.

<me either>

Yes plenty of time. I can imagine that repelling - once you get the hang of it - might be quite fun.

Or maybe I've watched one too many Amazing Race episodes. Speaking of which Jean and I always say that we would never make it to the airport on episode one without swearing at each other and totally LOSING IT.

yeah. I sorta blame/thank Amazing Race for making me feel like I can do these things I would be one of those people that viewers HATE I think. I get all cranky and potty-mouthed. And just a *tad* competitive, so. Yeah. Everyone would be wanting me to LOSE

My future sister-in-law and I were trying to think of making up a Disney Quadrathlon. Just for fun, of course.

"Kayaking" would be Kali River Rapids
"Bicycling" will be a surrey ride (with margaritas in hand if we can find them) on some path.
"Running" will be one of the thrill rides
"Swimming" will be a lazy river at one of the water parks.

I really think we will be trying this at some point. Make t-shirts and "quadrathlon outfits" to wear that day. It should be good times.

Now THAT would be a Quadrathlon I could handle!

Okay, so I am a little silly. My DD's school has a race April 14th! That can be my new goal!

DO IT! That's how I got started running in the first place. An event at my kids elementary school.


It's there to remind me to make peace with myself, no matter what.

Easier said than done.

word.

And on the second - I guess you like running more than I ever realized. Truly. I was wrong.

no. HATE running. Love the endorphines.

Of course she's drinking down there. Yes Nancy?

um, have you all met me?

BONNET CREEK.

DingDingDing we have a winner. Serves me right for reading too quickly.

Lisa, I'm so sorry to hear about Frankie. We've had to deal with similar with a couple of our male goats. Urninary Stones. (slightly different situation and graphically unncessary to describe here) And it is awful. Making the choice between quality of life and quantity of life is so, so hard. And heartbreaking. I try to look at it from the point of view that we are lucky that we CAN chose humanely for our pets. We give them a good life and, if necessary, love them enough to let them go comfortably

 

[PrincessRhi]

Also, was never comfortable skinny. And whoa was I skinny.

I feel like every time I have been skinny in my life, I've been so miserable. Trying to keep the skinny and trap the attention (which was all just the wrong attention anyhow) was just too much. But now that I think back on it, every time I've been skinny, I've been skinny for the wrong reasons.

This time, it's for me. I don't care if my abs are ever flat again or my arms still wave goodbye for me. It's for my health and well-being. I don't want to have an extra 60 pounds on my frame. I want to be able to run without feeling my saddlebags and stomach flop everywhere. I want to ride the Superman coaster without being worried that everyone in line behind me will see me removed from a ride because I can barely fit in to the seat-- that's a damn fun coaster that I am missing out on! The list goes on. But I really hate that I can't fit in a rollercoaster harness.

 

[PrincessRhi]

lisaviolet- I'm so sorry to hear about your kitty. Is there anything diet-induced that you could give him in the mean time that might help out? A friend's cat started kidney failure and has been sustaining health on a prescription kidney diet. I don't know if it's helping or prolonging the inevitable, but it's at least buying a little more time for a better diagnosis.

 

[HockeyKat]

Lisa, my cat's stones are not able to be worked on either. You either have them removed through surgery or they stay. In a girl cat, you don't run the risks that you are facing, though.

She also has a kidney stone that they can't remove. So far it has not caused any issue that we know of.

I hear you on the extreme constipation, too, we live through that one about once a year. We know how to recognize the signs and deal with it now without a vet visit.

Acute kidney failure - been there too. Overnight with fluids, then giving her fluids 3 times a week. Thought we would have to do it for the remainder of her life but had the vet retest her levels after 2 weeks with no fluids and she was fine again.

She is on vet food but a mixture due to her urine PH levels.

She is 11 now, but I imagine we will get to the point of the choices you face within the next few years. It will be heartbreaking and I just want to come hug you.

 

[SeptemberGirl]

I feel like every time I have been skinny in my life, I've been so miserable. Trying to keep the skinny and trap the attention (which was all just the wrong attention anyhow) was just too much. But now that I think back on it, every time I've been skinny, I've been skinny for the wrong reasons.

This time, it's for me. I don't care if my abs are ever flat again or my arms still wave goodbye for me. It's for my health and well-being. I don't want to have an extra 60 pounds on my frame. I want to be able to run without feeling my saddlebags and stomach flop everywhere. I want to ride the Superman coaster without being worried that everyone in line behind me will see me removed from a ride because I can barely fit in to the seat-- that's a damn fun coaster that I am missing out on! The list goes on. But I really hate that I can't fit in a rollercoaster harness.

Yeah, that sucks - the rollercoaster thing. I mean, I HATE going upside down but if you liked it that would suck. You know what I mean! I have things like that but not rollercoasters per se.

I think honestly, I was skinny for the right reasons - and I did exactly what I am doing now - only I didn't appreciate it in the same way. For one, I'd never dieted before, not seriously. Before Oct 2007 I'd never attended a weight loss meeting, went to a gym, discussed weight loss or exercise at ALL. With anyone. This was totally new to me. I dived in. I did it all very very well. I am good student - I follow rules - I do what I am told. Seriously, ask Erika or Nancy - they are rule benders and I am prim and proper! I have consulted my FIL about my moral obligations in very small rule bending!

Anyway, at some point, possibly right around the time you could see my clavicles prominently (my daughter said, "Mommy, what are those holes in your neck") I stopped losing to be fit and healthy. I started losing to lose. For praise - on here, at WW meetings, from people who'd run into me. I was the superstar, the example. I never stopped to check in with me and see if I wanted to lose more. I just kept going.

In part, we have a broken system. I look good at 185. I look thin at 175. But the minimum weight for me not to have an overweight BMI is 159. I'm 5' 7", at 159 I look skinny - my top is all pokey bones and stuff. I wore a size 8 dress and 10 jeans were big on me and I wore, out in PUBLIC a size medium vest from H&M, which is about a size 6 or 8...and nothing else. I was that freaking thin. Yet I wasn't at goal - I was barely not overweight. What the heck is that?

Flawed system produces flawed self image, flawed expectations, etc etc.

Never again. Not me. I was the teen who ripped out ads from Seventeen magazine because they made me want stuff I didn't really want - yes, I had enough self image to know that. I spent 33 years rejecting all that then about 8 months letting it consume me, then almost 3 years feeling bad that I didn't live up to an unrealistic image. Good grief.

Maybe I'll get a doctor to sign a note saying I can be 185 or whatever and at goal, so I don't have to pay for WW - maybe I'll just say who cares. I don't know yet. But I do know, in the immortal words of Fleetwood Mac, "I'm never going back again..."

 

[SeptemberGirl]

Lisa - poor Frankie! I have had lots of cats - we have paid ridiculous amounts for all kinds of surgeries - the boys and their issues and one poor one who I paid for chemo for. It's so hard and it's not just the money. In some cases I would do it again, in other cases, I would have put them to sleep sooner. But you don't know until you are right there.

I love these two new ones and they are the nicest cats, maybe I've ever had, but I made DH promise me - no extreme anything. It's too much in the medical up and downs and I get that plenty in my family.