String's Atkin's Journal (Please Comment)

[LAinSEA]

Hurray for Beth's DH - Won the computer wizard!

We've got a houseful of other peoples' computers right now - my DH is fighting viruses, reloading operating systems and adding CD-ROM drives and memory...I'm all for Jeff making money but I'm starting to trip over systems!

So a camper pulled a fire alarm just to see the fire trucks - (not funny, I know, but I'm smiling anyway). I'm sure Katie's got a good story to tell after this one. She can probably locate every alarm in the building now. Yours will be the safest Y in the country!

-Laurie

 

[septbride2002]

Yeah Won! Way to go on fixing the computer. Me I just do this

~Amanda

 

[DoeWDW]

Hooray for Won!!! So glad you're connected to the Net again!!

Your walk yesterday sounds amazing - way to go!! You continue to inspire me with your dedication!

I'm throwing a WISH party on the healthy living road today - and you're invited!! We've got the music turned up and our dancing shoes on, lots of smiles and laughter and good WISH friends! I sure hope you'll join us!

"Celebrate good times, come on!!"

Thanks so much for all your words of support and wisdom yesterday, Beth - they meant a lot to me!

 

[Strings]

God I feel better.

I walked into the Y to pick up Katie. Standing by the window was PG watching Katie swim. I thought to myself how sad. I walked up to her, and she said, "I told you you couldn't keep me from seeing her. I will always win." I just said to her,"You call looking through glass winning. You can't hold her or talk to her. I doesn't matter how many times you drive by or how many hours you spend watching her, you can't know her until you get help. You lose. She is afraid of you. Know that I will do anything to protect my family. You hurt my daughter I will have no mercy. You need help, and I hope you get it. You are hurting your family, and yourself. Think about what an empty victory you just had watching your only grandchild through that glass." I walked away as she screamed b$^%*.

I can hear the finallys and about time from you. Yes it took me a long time to get to this place. I am no longer afraid of her. I pity her. I have done all I can to keep Katie safe. I can't put her in a bubble, she needs to live her life. So do I. I will not give her power over my thoughts, feelings, life any further. I feel at peace. If she tries anything, I will deal with it. She no longer exists as far as I am concerned.

I did my 3 weight circuits and 2 miles on the treaddie. I hope to take a walk tonight. I lept really well last night. I'll probably do another 2 miles.

I need to mow the lawn. I'll do journals after that.
Beth

 

[DoeWDW]

Beth, how brave of you to get up the courage to face PG and how insightful your words to her were! Bravo!! I hope and pray this is a turning point for her to get the help she needs. You got your point across and you did it in a compassionate way.

I've just started doing the weight circuit at my health club. I think it uses Cybex machines. Does your weight circuit consist of machine stations? I've only gone through once with a trainer to show me how each machine works. Tonight is the first night I will try it on my own. I only go around once - can't imagine doing more circuits! My hat is off to you!

Enjoy the rest of your day - so glad you have a sense of peace!

 

[KLH 1973]

Beth

I am so proud you kept your cool talking to the crazy PG. But am am suprised your ymca does not do more to keep her from even being there. You need to pass some of your athletics to me because omg woman do you stop working out LOL. Keep up the good work and talk soon.

Kristin

 

[vald1977]

Hi Beth,
I'm getting caught up on journals and I just wanted to stop by and offer my support. It sounds like you are in a really good place emotionally right now concerning PG. Katie is lucky to have such a strong, protective mom .

I still am in awe of your workouts, Beth. If I could just get motivated to do HALF of what you do, I would be proud of myself. You are a true inspiration.

I'm glad to hear that Won was able to fix your pc. I hate when I'm without mine.

Wishing you a fantastic day !

 

[wilderness01]

Good for you that you kept your cool. It is a sort of freeing feeling isn't it to not care anymore? Have a good night.

 

[Strings]

Just a quick post.

I weighed in today. 217.5. I am up 2 pounds. I can rationalize that I am in the middle of TOM, but I know that is just an excuse. I have been making poor food choices, and it shows. I have been using the stress PG has been causing as an excuse to emotioal eat and overeat. Well, no more.

I need to take Katie to the Y, and I will do 5 miles on the treadmill. I ended up doing 4 miles last night. We have a Teddy Bear picnic at camp, and Won is meeting us. I'll need to make a picnic after working out. I also work tonight, so I'll need to take a nap. I hope to hit some journals, but it will be hit or miss. I am sending for a great weekend to all.
Beth

 

[CheapMom]

Hi Beth,
Glad you are back online- the boards were painfully slow while you were offline so you didn't miss much.
The stress of your mother-in-law troubles is probably inhibiting weight loss. You seem to managing the situation as well as possible.
Does Won still see his mother? Father? If so, he should continue a subtle campaign to get her under a doctor's care and medicated. I would like, for Won's sake, to see some resolution. His heart must be broken- watching his mother suffer from dimensia must be so difficult.
Have a great weekend.
Mary

 

[lulu201]

Wow, Beth, you've come to a new place, haven't you? I think approaching PG was the right thing to do and may be the beginning of a healing for all of you. Of course, the woman is in desperate need of help, but maybe your words will help her to find the direction in which she needs to go.

You've had an emotionally intense experience with all of this and have handled it so amazingly well. Please recognize that and pat yourself on the back! The exercise you're doing is making you strong--good, healthy food choices are going to help you reach your goals, too. It sounds like you're ready to look at that aspect of your healthy living again.

I hope you have a good weekend, Beth. I'm sending lots of and and your way.

Erin

 

[wilderness01]

Thinking of you today. Hoping your shift goes smoothly tonight.

 

[Strings]

Just a quick update before I am out the door. PG was indeed at her post by the window this morning. I did all I could. I'm done now. Won sees his Dad everyother Friday. He Katie and FIL go to dinner, so Katie can still know her GF. We'll see what he says tonight.

I only did 3 miles on the treaddie today. The reason? The guy who jumped on the machine next to me had the worst BO, and I was getting nauseated. I didn't really feel like jumping on a different machine, so I stopped after 45 minutes. I'll take another walk tomorrow. I have been completely OP today, and since I'm working, i shouldn't have temptations, or at least ones that I can resist.

Have a great weekend.
Beth

 

[wilderness01]

I only did 3 miles on the treaddie today. The reason? The guy who jumped on the machine next to me had the worst BO, and I was getting nauseated.

I usually get nauseated and cut my workout short/move off the machine when one of the guys uses the towel to blow his nose into and then uses the SAME towel to wipe down the machine as they are exercising. It takes all I can not to puke!

P.S. This towel belongs to the gym, it is not his own personal towel. Guess what I NEVER use at the gym?

 

[Strings]

EWW Wilderness, that is just disgusting.

Well, I am at work. Our census is REALLY low, and I am bored. I hit most journals, but I am going to have to give up the computer in a minute. I have been OP. I even resisted the ice cream that was brought in for us. Hot Fudge cream puffs, and I said NO! I plan on going for a 20 minute walk on my break. I am going out to breakfast with some friends this morning, so I'll have an omelet. I hope to get a walk in this evening, but I think Won is going out with the guys. We'll see what happens. I will definately walk Sunday though. I haven't had a rest day, so it shouldn't hurt.

I hope all is well with everyone.
Beth

 

[lulu201]

Beth, I hope you have a good day. Way to go staying OP and passing up those goodies last night. It's what we gotta do.

Have a great Saturday, girlfriend.
Erin

PS Does Won know how lucky he is to have a wife that lets him go out with the guys?

 

[Desiree]

Way to resist that Ice Cream!!! Sounds like you've got a great plan for the weekend! WISHing you a happy and healthy day!

 

[KLH 1973]

Way to go. Just remember if the girls want a night out than the guys need a night out as well!!! Stupid question what does OP stand for I just can't figure it out.

Kristin

 

[wilderness01]

Good for you on the easy night at work. Those nights usually drag a bit but it is easy $. Have a good weekend.

 

[Princess Michelle]

You guys are making me super happy that I have my own exercise equipment!

Beth, you are making great progress, keep it up!

Kristin, OP stands for "On Plan".