String's Atkin's Journal (Please Comment)

[toystoryduo]

Hi Beth,

I am glad to hear that Won and his brother made it home safely. 5:45 a.m., huh? Do I see a nap in your future?

You are doing a great job Beth! Keep up the good work!


Have a great day!

Tracy

 

[Strings]

Thanks guys. A1, I am so glad you are back. Tera, you deserve a prize if you made it through my journal,.Panfan, when I started, I could barely make it through a 1mile WATP. Kristin, thanks for stopping by. You made me smile. Tracey, anyone whoi saw my house right now would think I need serious mental health help, or a maid. Hi Tracy, thanks for the prayers.

On to today, meals have been OP. Breakfast a left over burger. and lunch is a salad. Dinner will be chicken with rosemary and garlic, mashed cauliflower, and salad. I should be right at 20 carbs, but will have to watch my portion of cauliflower.

I went to the Y today. 65 minutes on the treaddie/ 4.5 miles. I can't believe that. I haven't been able to do that since 2 a day practices in high school. My hamastrings are really tight despite the stretching, so I will have to do some major stretching before bed. I found out that the Y will be closed Saturday- Monday. I work Fri/Sat/Sun. Monday I am going to have Won drop me off 13 miles from my house. I want to know what time I am working with at the half marathon. I am insane when you take into account that I am not going.

Katie is going to my parents house for the weekend. I love her to death, but these early mornings are killing me. 6am today. It is good for school days, but I would like at least 7 on regular days. I am driving Kate out to my rents tomorrow as soon as school is out. I may be able to get a 1 hour nap before I head to work. Saturday, I don't go in until 1130, so I might have a date with my husband.

Plan for the rest of the day...
Laundry . Make dinner. Do some cleaning.(I'll do more this weekend without my "helper") Pack for Katie. Do journals. I probably will get to journals after Kate goes to bed. Actually, that will be the norm most days now. Know that I am sending to everyone.

Take care,
Beth

 

[Strings]

Just a quick post before I am out the door. Weighed in today. 214. That is another 1.5 dwon, and only.5 from the 55 clippie. This clippie is months in the making. I am hoping next week to claim it.

I won't get to journals today unless work is slow. I will update my journal, but probably won't get to journals until Sunday. Please know I am sending to all.
Beth

 

[DoeWDW]

Beth, another 1.5 pounds gone!!! WOW!!! You are so inspiring to me. There is NO ONE that works harder for each pound lost than you! Your exercise is amazing and your discipline in sticking with it - YOU ROCK!!

Please make sure you have a cell phone on your 13 mile walk, and don't hesitate to use it if the walk seems like too much. We don't want you on the injured list! Wish you were closer because I'd love to walk with you!

Glad to hear Katie will have a weekend with Grandma & Grandpa! You can use the time to recharge the batteries and catch up on your sleep. Best wishes for easy shifts at work.

 

[Tera]

Way to go Beth!!! I know you can do it and 55 pounds is a HUGE accomplishment. I can only hope and pray that I can be as strong as you and lose that much. Keep up the great work

 

[wilderness01]

Congrats on the loss. Hope your weekend flies by, work that is.

 

[lulu201]

Aw, geez, Beth. . .now I have to worry about you! Please, please, PLEASE be careful walking home--13 miles!!!! Beth, you'll have water or something (and the cell like Doreen said), won't you?

Enjoy your time with Won. You two need some quality time together. Let the happy grandparents get up in the morning with your Cutie Pie!

You are amazing with your exercise program; congratulations on you 1.5 lb. loss. You are so determined and so focused and SO CONSISTENT! If I only had half of your consistency and ability to follow through with your goals, I'd be a happy--and skinnier! --woman!

Thanks for your kind words and support in my journal. Your friendship means a lot to me. Take care.

Erin

 

[LAinSEA]

Beth:

I hope that you have a very calm holdiay weekend at work - I'm tagged to work Labor Day and I'm not looking forward to one less weekend day to catch up on home, school and the freelance graphics gig.

Katie sounds like she really is enjoying school. I'm so happy to hear that you are supportive of education and are willing to fight for funding. So many parents just don't care.

A big congrats on another 1.5 gone! All that effort in the gym and counting those carbs is really paying off.

-Laurie

 

[Strings]

Ok, I need to vent. PG was laying low. I knew it was too good to be true. Apparently, Won's mom called him yesterday. His aunt is in town and wans to see Katie. He said FIL and Aunt could come to a lunch, but pg isn't to see Katie. Well, he didn't warn me about this. PG shows up at preschool at 10AM saying that Won was in a car accident, and she needs to get Katie. They took her to the office, and called me. We ended up getting campus police and AHPD involved. I had to make a statement, and they have arrested PG. She was released to FIL, and we make a court appearance on Wednesday. Katie stayed with her teachers and knows nothing. My parents came and got her and she will be with them until Tuesday morning. I am at work, stressed, but it is slow. I brought only OP food, and no $, so I won't misbehave. I did get a venti coffee on my way in though. Won is devastated. There is nothing I can do for him. I am hoping the judge will force her into therapy. We'll see.

I promise if I go for that walk(it is supposed to rain) I will have my cell phone. I will have a 1 liter bottle of water with me that I can refill at my friends house. She is expecting me. I think the alone time will help me. When I am walking outside, I am able to do alot of thinking. I really need that right now.

If I don't manage to get to all journals, I'm sorry.
Beth

 

[CruisingCA2005]

Beth:
I'm so sorry you have to deal with all of the stress with PG. I hope she gets the help that she needs to get better.

You should feel proud of yourself that you're sticking OP during such a stressful time. Keep up the good work with your exercise & food choices.

Take care!

 

[toystoryduo]

Beth,

Oh my goodness! What is wrong with PG? I can not believe that she would do that. Thank God that Katie stayed with her teachers and knows nothing about what happened. Oh, Beth... sending major your way.

I hope that this latest incident proves to your FIL that he needs to get her some help. I still can't believe that she would say her son was in a car accident to get her granddaughter. I pray that this motivates someone (FIL or the courts) to get her some help.

I am so proud of you that you are staying OP during this stressful time. Please take some time today to relax and find some time for you. Don't worry about getting to journals. Please take care of you today.

You and your family are in our thoughts and prayers.

Tracy

 

[wilderness01]

Beth. I feel so bad for you and Katie. Was she arrested on attempted kidnapping? Take it easy this weekend. Don't let her get to you anymore than she already has. Good job on staying OP. I would have eaten a cheesecake myself and probably smoked a cig despite my asthma! Hopefully since her husband is obviously not able to control her, the courts will. Take care.

 

[LAinSEA]

Beth:

There has to a bright side to this situation. You know that your preparation and the school's security policies work. Parents should feel very good about their children attending school at this great facility. The most important thing is that Katie was not harmed by this incident.

Of course Won feels terrible - she is his mother - and family is important. The arrest was most likely the best thing that could have happened. Hopefully counseling will help this situation and it is something that she needed to be doing all along. Be prepared for the judge to order some kind of "family" counseling as well though.

I hope that you have a very peaceful walk - you are so right, it really help you to think and feel and find some solace to walk a long distance. I know you will be fine - and I will be sending some warm thoughts and prayers your way.

-Laurie

 

[lulu201]

s to you, Beth. You and Won and Katie--and FIL and MIL for that matter--are in my thoughts and prayers. I agree with Laurie--the arrest was probably a very good thing. It's time, no it's way PAST time, to get that woman some help. Shame on FIL (the Dr.!) who couldn't see to it that his ill wife got help!

You all need some extra support and TLC. Whether it comes from each other, family, friends, church, or professionals, seek comfort with those who understand. And you know, honey, you've always got all of your WISH buddies here in your corner.

I'm glad you're walking with water. My outdoor walks do wonders for my attitude and perspective.

I'm thinking about you, Beth. Stay strong.

Love,
Erin

 

[Strings]

Thanks for all af the support everyone. I so appreciate all of my firends at WISH. Your support has quite honestly kept me sane this last year. When things happen, the good and bad, this is where I turn. Thank you.

Won's dad called, and wants to meet with Won today. I quite honestly do not know if he will go or not. I have known Won for 14 years, today actually is the anniversary of the day we met. I have never seen him like this. When his mom is mentioned, he shuts down. All he has is anger, and quite possibly hate left. He is feeling so betrayed. Even if PG gets the help she needs, it may be too late. I don't know that he can forgive her. I know he will never forget. I will abide by his decisions on this matter, and I won't try to sway him one way or another. (rare for me)..Both of his brothers have called, and I don't know what has been said. I believe they are supportive of us, but really want us to drop all charges. The holidays should be fun this year.

Won and I went on a date last night. We went out to dinner at Mountain Jack's. We made a decision to enjoy our meal, and not mention family. It was fun. It is good to know that we can be together, and our conversation was about the 2 of us. Katie wasn't even mentioned. We still have so much in common that I don't think we will end up as empty nesters without anything to say to each other. That is so good to know, We even managed to laugh.

Work was very busy, but it was a good busy. I actually felt like I made a differance last night. I also had a good talk with one of my bosses about sometning that going on in the unit right now. I wasn't hungry when I took my break, so I took a walk instead. I am up to 280 minutes for the exercise challenge.

I decided not to participate in any more challenges with a pound #attatched. I am losing at a very slow rate, and I am starting to be able to handle that. I don't want to not make another challenge goal, and beat myself up about it. When I don't make that goal, I feel like I have broken a promise to myself. I think it is best for me not to join the Thanksgiving Challenge. THere is nothing more I can do to lose the weight, so slow and steady is my new motto.


Well, I've rambled forever. I think I will be able to do some journals tonight. No proo.


Well, I've rambled forever. I think I will be able to do some journals tonight. No promises though.

Have a good Sunday,
Beth

 

[DoeWDW]

Dearest Beth, my thoughts and prayers are with you and your family as always. I'm doubly glad that Katie had a grandparent weekend planned with your parents to give you time to process this latest PG development. If Won's brothers had been through what you and Won have been through, worrying about Katie's safety and PG's stalking, they would never ask for charges to be dropped.

I'm so glad you and Won had a good evening together too! So often, these kinds of difficulties can wreak havoc on a marriage. You and Won are doing all you can to stay connected and keep your marriage strong - bravo!!

Take good care of you, Beth - you're definitely worth it!!

 

[toystoryduo]

Good morning Beth,

I am so glad that the two of you had a wonderful date night last night! I think that is exactly what you needed to take your mind off of the situation and what better way than to sit, have a nice meal, and enjoy some time with your spouse? Good for you, Beth and Won!

Beth, please know that you and your family are in our thoughts and prayers. We will be sending some extra prayers Won's way as well. I can't even imagine how difficult this is for him.

Take good care of you,

Tracy

 

[wilderness01]

Hey Beth,

Wishing you a good rest of the weekend. I'm glad you and your husband enjoyed a nice date night. Take care of each other. No one knows exactly what you are going through and it is up to the two of you to make your own decisions. His brothers hopefully will respect that. PG is sick and dangerous period. Nothing more needs to be said. Now the court can handle it. Good luck.

 

[Strings]

Well, I am back from my own 1/2 marathon. I did it in 217. That is 9 minutes off race pace after an 8 hr shift. Not bad. I wasn't sure I would be able to do this. I ended up meeting a friend for her to take me home. This way won could sleep. I devised a route to a local diner where Michelle would meet me. I did warn her that I would not be fresh smelling, but she is a nurse and didn't seem to care.

Observations

1.) Wear cool max gear. Mine is all in the laundry, so I wore a tshirt and was way too wearm an sticky.

2.) I didn't put enough bathroom stops in my route. I didn't think about having to pee. I almost didn't make it to Riverside park.


3.) Bring extra batteries for my MP3 player next time. I ran out of juice qith about 3 miles to go.

4.) Most important. Wear your favorite underwear. There is nothing worse than a wedgie for 13 miles.

Sorry if those were too personal and tmi. I didn't really do much of a cool down or stretching because Michelle was waiting for me for breakfast. I did end up cramping up a bit. I was also nauseated after, so I nibbled on dry whole wheat toast and water. Michelle on the other hand had eggs, toast, hash browns, and pancakes. She is a size 4 and doesn't exercise. There is just no justice in the world.

I am off to bed. We are going to a concert tonight, so I might not make it to journals today. I am sending to all.

Have a good Labor Day,
Beth

 

[Tera]

Great job Beth! I wish I could do that.... maybe one day

Enjoy the rest of your day