Fishbone†
<font color=blue>Does strange things while sleepin
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- May 31, 2001
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Forgive my small pity party...... I've come here to play, but need a moment to release.
I had a super long week consisting mostly of co-coordinating an Annual Sales Convention (early mornings, late nights, lots of pressure in between), and then playing catch-up and keep up at work afterwards. I'm super tired which may be the cause of my sensitivity, but none-the-less.......
First, I had it in my mind that despite my fatigue, I really wanted to do something tonight. I have met this guy, and we've been hanging out a bit, and I thought maybe he'd want to check out the County Fair tonight....... ahhhh, men, who can figure them. Last night when I had an errand to run, HE wanted to do something, so he ran the errand with me. He was going to call me when he got off work today....... no, I'm not surprised that his off the cuff intentions to call would be carved deeper for me than they were for him, but somehow when he didn't call I was frustrated. Maybe it's because I wanted to go to the County Fair, and rather than to call my best friend or make other arrangements, I waited for his call until it was too late to make other plans. When I called him, he was on his way to his brother's to play golf...... now in no way does this reflect on him or how I feel..... he didn't make plans with me..... I made plans with me. I'm not mad that he played golf with his brother, just sad that I banked on plans all day. It's my own fault......
So, to top it off, I had concocted a second plan for this weekend.... see, I have this sweet little niece (and her two sisters
) whom I haven't seen for over a month. I got a new picture of her this week and put it on my screensaver hence creating an intense need to spend some time with her (and her sisters ). I called my brother to see if I could have them this weekend, left my work phone number with him, and never heard back. That, would be because he called my mom for my cell phone number..... HELLO!!! I may have possibly had some sort of silly unexplainable reason for leaving MY WORK PHONE!!! 
Anyway, after a bunch of back and forth calling trying to connect with him, he calls at 8:00 tonight. Apparently the older girls have a bunch of things to get ready for their fair, and are too busy to come this weekend...... understandable..... "Can I have Chloe?"..... she's three, and therefore doesn't participate in fair entries...... He laughed.... why? Because "she is so fun to be with"..... Yes, I know, that's why I asked...... "But I would miss her"..... "But you get her all the time"..... "If you take the fun one, you have to take the 'brats'" (he's kidding by the way)..........."I would take them, but you won't let me"......"Let me check with DW, I'll call you back". He calls back..... "We're going to have to pass.... the girls just have too much to get ready for the fair". I've finally hit my sensitivity / over-tired limit..... I hold the tears of disappointment back...... "Yeah, okay"...... I think he may have heard my voice crack..... Ahhhhh, I guess that's the way it goes.... such is life. Apparently I was meant to come play with you guys..... who, by the way, are always here ready to play..... why didn't I think of you guys first??
Thanks for letting me babble.... even if no one reads it, it's therapeutic anyway......
*sigh*
I had a super long week consisting mostly of co-coordinating an Annual Sales Convention (early mornings, late nights, lots of pressure in between), and then playing catch-up and keep up at work afterwards. I'm super tired which may be the cause of my sensitivity, but none-the-less.......
First, I had it in my mind that despite my fatigue, I really wanted to do something tonight. I have met this guy, and we've been hanging out a bit, and I thought maybe he'd want to check out the County Fair tonight....... ahhhh, men, who can figure them. Last night when I had an errand to run, HE wanted to do something, so he ran the errand with me. He was going to call me when he got off work today....... no, I'm not surprised that his off the cuff intentions to call would be carved deeper for me than they were for him, but somehow when he didn't call I was frustrated. Maybe it's because I wanted to go to the County Fair, and rather than to call my best friend or make other arrangements, I waited for his call until it was too late to make other plans. When I called him, he was on his way to his brother's to play golf...... now in no way does this reflect on him or how I feel..... he didn't make plans with me..... I made plans with me. I'm not mad that he played golf with his brother, just sad that I banked on plans all day. It's my own fault......
So, to top it off, I had concocted a second plan for this weekend.... see, I have this sweet little niece (and her two sisters
) whom I haven't seen for over a month. I got a new picture of her this week and put it on my screensaver hence creating an intense need to spend some time with her (and her sisters ). I called my brother to see if I could have them this weekend, left my work phone number with him, and never heard back. That, would be because he called my mom for my cell phone number..... HELLO!!! I may have possibly had some sort of silly unexplainable reason for leaving MY WORK PHONE!!! Anyway, after a bunch of back and forth calling trying to connect with him, he calls at 8:00 tonight. Apparently the older girls have a bunch of things to get ready for their fair, and are too busy to come this weekend...... understandable..... "Can I have Chloe?"..... she's three, and therefore doesn't participate in fair entries...... He laughed.... why? Because "she is so fun to be with"..... Yes, I know, that's why I asked...... "But I would miss her"..... "But you get her all the time"..... "If you take the fun one, you have to take the 'brats'" (he's kidding by the way)..........."I would take them, but you won't let me"......"Let me check with DW, I'll call you back". He calls back..... "We're going to have to pass.... the girls just have too much to get ready for the fair". I've finally hit my sensitivity / over-tired limit..... I hold the tears of disappointment back...... "Yeah, okay"...... I think he may have heard my voice crack..... Ahhhhh, I guess that's the way it goes.... such is life. Apparently I was meant to come play with you guys..... who, by the way, are always here ready to play..... why didn't I think of you guys first??Thanks for letting me babble.... even if no one reads it, it's therapeutic anyway......
*sigh*
