Shannon's Wish Journal-I'll Never Give Up!

[toystoryduo]

Hi Shannon,

Stopping by to WISH you a wonderful weekend ahead. Keep up the good work and remember.... baby steps are the key!

 

[CACruisin']

Hi Shannon. I just read your journal and I wanted to say that I think it is awesome that you and your son are doing this together! Congrats on an excellent first week WI also! Keep up the good work.

One of my best friends from college grew up in Canyon Country. Beautiful area!

 

[AmyBeth68]

Hi Shannon,

Stopping by to wish you a Great week!! I hope your DS had a fun weekend! And remind him that this is a process.....not to give up because of one slip-up! He should celebrate the victories and move past the mistakes quickly!!!

Good luck to you both this week.

 

[eeyore25]

Hi Shannon

Hope you and DS had a good weekend! You have a good plan for the munchies while DISing!!!

Be sure to tell your son if he was upset over the pizza that it's all good....today is a new day and he can start over. You both are doing a great job!!!

Keep up the great work you two!

Happy Monday

 

[DisnyMama]

Hi Eeyore25-Hope you had a great weekend! I did pretty good except for Sunday but I'm back on plan today. One big progression for me is to be able to get back on the wagon after falling off and not letting it get me down and blow my program all together. I feel really good today after my Sunday slip but I am ok about it. I am really proud of DS too.. after his weekend he got right back into it today also. Thank you for your support. It gets me through each day knowing that people like you are here to back us up.

Hi CACruisin'-Thank you so much for stopping in to visit my journal and offer your support. I love Canyon Country and just finally moved here from Chatsworth a year ago. I went from a "1" minute to a "60" minute commute to work but it was worth it.

Hi Amybeth68-Thank you for stopping by and for your support. That is why I came to the W.I.S.H. because I knew that there were really wonderful people like you folks here and that we all know what this process is about.

Even though I did not post over the weekend I did add a little more in the way of fruits and vegetables to my meals. Also, a little bit of protein here and there. I still have a huge, huge issue with my sweet tooth and carbs and I tend to use more points for these foods but I am working on this. It is going to take me some time as I can't change everything overnight. I know I can do this because I quit smoking just a few years ago and that was really tough. I thought I would never get past that hurdle but with the help of my doctor and Welbutrin I made it. However, in my case I think this is more difficult than quitting smoking. But, like my Journal reads-I'll never Give Up! I can't because my health and well being depend on it. I need to get off some of this medication. Ok, for todays food:

2 mini bagels w/ff cream cheese 4 pts
Turkey sandwich w/ ff bbq chips 5 pts
Skinnycow icecream sandwich 2 pts
applesauce 1 pt
LC Panini w/ BBQ ff chips 7 pts
Smart Ones Cheesecake 3 pts

I know I have pts left over but I am going to give them up due to Sunday and because tomorrow is WI. It may not make a difference and there may not be any loss or I hope no gain as I never know with my body but all I can do is hope for the best. I'll write back tomorrow night.

Have a great Tuesday!
Shannon

 

[toystoryduo]

Hi Shannon~

You are doing a great job! Hope weigh-in goes well for you tomorrow.

Have a great Tuesday!

 

[eeyore25]

Hi Shannon!!!

You are doing a great job! I think there was something in the air on Sunday!!!!

Hope your WI goes well tomorrow!!!
Keep it up!

Happy Tuesday

 

[CACruisin']

Hi Shannon,

Great job getting back on track! There was definitely something in the air on Sunday for me too The fact that I know I have WISH here for me has been great though.

You have been really doing well. Good Luck with your WI tomorrow and have a great Tuesday!

 

[keenercam]

Hi, Shannon!
Your food journal looks so great for the past few entries. So many more "real food" points that will give you fuel. Hopefully you are feeling so great and proud of what you are accomplishing.
I hope your DS was able to get right back on track after treating himself to pizza. That is always a hard skill to incorporate and we all go through that struggle.
I hope weigh in goes well for both of you.
Have a great night!

 

[DisnyMama]

Hi there Toystoryduo, Eeyore25 and CACruisin'!! Glad to here from you all today. I'm glad it wasn't just me on Sunday even though I would never wish "misery loves company" on anyone else-if ya no what I mean. We want to go to the Tuesday evening WW meetings because we like the meeting leader so much better than Wed. night but last week and this week we have to go Wed. due to schedule conflicts but next week we plan to go back to Tues. night WI's. Thanks you guys for being here with me. Take care and have a great day tomorrow.

Hi Cam! I hope to read all about the "Minnie" on your journal soon-I look forward to it. DS is doing GREAT after his weekend of indulgence at his friends house. Social situations can be really tough. I have been watching how you deal with them for quite a while and I truly believe that you have to plan ahead as much as possible. I tried to do that with him before he left - help him with options if they went out to eat (which they always do), discuss the portion sizes....... But, for a teenage boy I understand how difficult that must have been. I am very proud of him though for getting right back into his program the moment he came back home. I hope your WI was positive. Have a great Wednesday.

Another Good day today except I am going on day 5 of a recurring Migraine that is really messing with me. Food journal for today:

Cereal w/ skim milk 4 pts
banana nut muffin 3 pts
turkey sandwich w/ff bbq chips 5 pts
go tart 3 pts
applesauce 1 pts
SmartOnes meatloaf 5 pts
Corn 2 pts
smart ones keylime pie 4 pts

I have to be honest here, I still haven't began any excercise yet. Need to get my lazy &%#@ off the couch and out the door!!! I know that my weight loss will really kick in if I get moving because it always has in the past. My body responds well to excercise but it's just getting me to do it that's the challenge. My initital plan when I started was to just get my eating under control for the 1st two weeks then add the excercise. Ok, now I'm at two weeks. Time to get moving!!

Happy Wednesday Everyone!!
Shannon

 

[toystoryduo]

Hi Shannon,

It sounds like you are doing a great job! I do hope that your migraine goes away. I've had a few of those in my lifetime and they are not fun. Hope you are feeling better soon!

The exercise will come.... Just remember, baby steps are the key.Maybe set a goal for yourself that you will take a 15 minute walk after dinner. You can even have your DS join you and talk about the day! That will make time go by even faster!

You are doing a great job, Shannon! Keep up the good work!

 

[eeyore25]

Hi Shannon,

Tracy is right, baby steps are the key...the exercise will come. That is a great idea to get out after dinner with DS and walk and talk about the day!!!

Keep up the good work! You are doing great!

Happy Wednesday!

 

[DisnyMama]

Hey Tracy and Jamie! Happy to hear from you guys. You are right about the baby steps. Taking a walk with DS after dinner is exactly what I have in mind (just as soon as my mind gets up off the couch) I can't believe I just laughed about something since I am having a pretty tough night tonight. I lost my job today after 10 1/2 years. I'm still in shock.
I tear up just typing about it so here's my food journal for today:

Toast with just a scrape of margerine and jelly 6 pts
1/ cup of pears 1 pt
turkey sandwich w/ BBQ ff chips 5 pts
Go Tart 3 pts
1/2 LC Panini w/BBQ ff chips 4 pts
Mickey cookie 4 pts

Not much of an appetite today. Oh yeah, I almost forgot to tell you about our WI tonight. It went really well for both DS and I. DS lost 1.6 and I lost 4.2. Yeah, something to get excited about.

I'll talk to ya all tomorrow night. Have a Happy Thursday!
Shannon

 

[disneydude91]

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[toystoryduo]

Oh Shannon,

First of all, I want to give you a gentle . I am so sorry to hear about your job. Did they give you a reason why? I am so very sorry.

Congratulations to you and your DS on your respective weight losses! Keep up the good work!

Please be sure and take extra special, good care of you this weekend.

 

[CACruisin']

Shannon, I am so sorry about your job Here's prayers and pixie dust that opportunity will "open a window" for you.

Congrats on your WI loss!! Way to go!!!

Thank you so much for stopping by my journal. I really appreciate it.

Take care of yourself this weekend!

 

[DisnyMama]

Hi Anna and Tracy. Thanks for the hugs and support. The company I worked for was family owned and I had been there since 9/95. I had always gotten along really, really well with the owner and he treated me pretty well. Over the past 5 years his son and daughter graduated college and came to work at the company. I have/had been the manager of the consumer support/retail division since 1997. He is real big on loyalty and as long as you are 100% loyal and I mean to the point of being a kiss &@* you are well liked by him. Two years ago his daugter took my department and separated it from the company and made it a company on it's own. Gave it a different name, tried to change everything to the new name. There are six of us that work in the department that got screwed. We had to go with a lesser medical and dental plan because we were no longer part of a company with alot of employees, and no longer had a 401K. However they still looked at us as still part of the big company when it came to rules and everything else. The change was just done for bookeeping purposes but we got screwed. The daughter keeps telling me we are no longer "A company" and that we are "B company"....but, our orders, checks, bills, even the checking account is listed as dba of the original company. Ok this is just the back story. They new we were not happy and her and I have never really hit it off and I have always had the feeling that she has wanted me out of there so she can move someone else in that she can pay less because she is very, very cheap. She has already done this in other areas of the other company. Now move forward to last October, we had a flood in our bathroom which flooded the entire office area. The carpet remained soaking wet for over a month. I reported it to the owner and they just rented a carpet cleaner 3 different times over the course of a month to try to get rid of the smell and dampness and nothing worked. The carpet was growing mildew under some of the desks and under the plastic chair pads at all the desks. I took pictures of all the white meldew spots that were all over the place. Anyway, In November the Operations manager at "A company" who was my immediate supervisor calls me and says that they got a call from CAL OSHA that someone in my department reported wet, smelly, moldy carpet for over a month and the company was doing nothing about it and that it was causing this person to have headaches. She tells me that the owner thinks I reported it because of my problem with migraines. I tell her that it wasn't me and she is just letting me know that know matter what he (owner) thinks it is me and I tell her again, I swear I did not contact them but she is letting me know in a round about way that even though she believes me that he will still think I did it and see me as disloyal. And, she was right. He began treating me differently and I knew I was sunk. Also, I knew that she would never admit to anyone to telling me what she knew to protect her job. Now we move to March 17. I missed a couple days of work a few days prior due to a migraine which they have in my file a doctors note stating that I am under a doctors care for the treatment of migraines. The daughter wrote me up stating that I had hardly worked at all since the 1st of the year (she says how many days, I have to get a copy) but I was off work from 12/26 through 1/9 due to Hypertension (I had to see a doctor while we were at WDW on 12/16 who told me to see my doctor when I returned home in which I did on 1/9. My doctor then put me on disability til 2/26 for Hypertension, stress and anxiety. He has been telling me for a couple of years that I need to find a new job. So basically the write up is repremanding me for all the time I missed while I was on disability. I faxed them doctors notes while I was gone and I know they got them. The write up stated that I was to not have any incidences of abscences for the next 30 days and then basically this would be a closed matter. Now you must know that this is the 1st time I have ever been issued anykind of write up. I have never been verbally warned, talked to or anything prior to this-ever. Ok, Thurs. 5/4 I begin the 1st day of a really bad migraine and I call in to both locations at 6:00 am just like I have always done for 10 years, again on Friday. I don't here anything from work. The problem with these headaches is they are the worse during the night and morning and they ease up in the late evening. I went through this all weekend with the nausea also. Monday and Tuesday the same then on Wednesday I recieve my termination by overnight courier. I have just realized that I possibly should have been offered FMLA leave but they probably would have tried to argue that we only have 6 employees but I feel that there are too many ties to the "A company" that has over 100 employees that should qualify us. The daughter stated that I was being terminated for failure to perform my work at an acceptable level. This is so untrue. My work has always been topnotch and exceptional. I have excellent customer service skills and as of that last Thursday all my work was up to date. My annual reviews have always been very, very positive. She doesn't even work in the same building or know what I do. She has never seen any of my work. She also states that I did not attempt to contact her to report my absences which demonstrates a lack of concern for my job. 1st. I have never been told that I had to contact her when I was going to be out-EVER. The procedure has always been for the last 10 years was to call in to Sherrie and then call your own department which I did. This entails me calling two different phone numbers. I have called the phone company and although they are not long distance they are zone 3 which is local toll but I have that zone included in my phone plan so we do not have to pay extra for those calls due to DS calling his friend. They are trying to get me a record of those dates but they can't promise that they can do this for me. I sure hope so because I definately want to be able to prove to that woman that I did indeed call and do have concern for my job. I feel that she needed to make up more substance than just absences to terminate me. Considering that I had never been written up before and that was my 1st write up was basically due to being on disability and considering how long I have been with the company I just can't believe that they let me go so quickly and yet I do believe it because I think they have wanted me gone for a while. What gets me is I have written up one of the ladies in my department at least 4 times due to substandard work and attitude. She was also issued a written warning directly from HR for opening someone elses personal mail. I wanted her gone years ago and they would not let me because they said we have to see if she does something again and if she does then we write her up again and if she does it again then we can let her go. Then I just don't get it- how could they just let me go like this? I'm sorry, I am just rambling. I have been really, really upset. This kind of feels like a divorce and it is devastating. I know I will get through and thank goodness I have someplace to vent.
Regardless, I am doing well food wise-if you call having a lack of appetite for most of the day doing well. Here is todays food journal:

No breakfast-not hungry.
Grilled cheese w/ff bbq chips 6 pts
Go Tart 3 pts
LC Chicken Carbonara 6 pts
3 Mustateers bar 6 pts
1/2 Mounds bar 3 pts

I have 7 pts left.

Thanks for listening to my rambling and have a Nice Saturday. If I don't speak to any of you till next week, Please have a very Happy Mothers Day!
Shannon

 

[CACruisin']

Ramble away. It is definitely ok. Sounds like a bad deal all around at work. It might be worth it to talk to an employment attorney...

Great job on the food side too, especially with all you are going through!

Have a wonderful Mother's Day with your wonderful son!

 

[DisnyMama]

Hi Anna, Thanks for your support and well wishes. I have a bunch of notes written all over the place as I think about things that have happened since October. A few months ago when I got a bad feeling about things I started making photo copies of stuff that showed how company "B" was still tied to company "A" along with the pictures of the mildew, etc. However, I have always kept a very low profile at work. I have never made complaints to my superiors about anything except when something breaks or needs to be replaced. I just came to work and did my job and seeing as my department was the only one off sight, down the street from the main bldg. we were able to work without any other supervision other than myself in which I always did a really good job keeping everything in check. However, the owners daugher all of a sudden after the 1st of the year started making major changes that wood take our business in a whole new direction but was not telling me. I would find things out from customers by accident. I am now getting the feeling that she has been planning on making a complete change all along without me in the picture which includes new computers that they have been stalling to put in. They purchased months ago the most update mail order version of our mail order software but have not installed it. How I found this out is when I called tech support to help me with a problem and they thought I was using 5.4 and we were still using 4.3. Oh well, anyway-I have been thinking of contacting an employment attorney. Here's the funny thing, the last 3 people they terminated all sued the company for wrongful termination and received pretty good settlements. These people have a history of doing this kind of crap. I have never, ever been the law-suit happy type but this was almost 11 years that I worked for them and I just don't feel I was treated fairly. Ok, enough therapy for today.

To what's really important-my food journal for today....

Mini bagels with cream cheese 5 pts
steakw/noodles & green beans 12 pts
mocha cappuchino 1 pt

Thats it for today. Just not really hungry. My DS wanted to take me to Applebees for Mother's Day but I don't want him spending all his money. What I really, really want is a Carls Jr. Western bacon cheeseburger which I will alot for point wise tomorrow and won't be so hard on his wallet.

Happy Mother's Day to All!!
Shannon

 

[CACruisin']

Thanks for the Mother's Day wishes in my journal. I hope you had a great day with your son. Love the Western Bacon, but my favorite is In & Out cheeseburger & fries! When I was pregnant with my first DD, I had salt restrictions for the last 2 months (blood pressure issues). All I wanted after she was born was that burger and fries!