Dear Dis'ers,
I am so distraught I don't know where to turn, except to the Lord and prayer. My DD was raised in the church and gave her life to Christ when she was 14. She is a sweet, quiet, very pretty girl with a big heart. She became involved with drugs after she graduated from HS, but was able to turn it around. She graduated from an outpatient drug rehab when she was 20. But it wasn't long until she started to lie, steal, and behave badly. DH and I tried everything we could, and finally decided to give her the final ultimatum. She chose to leave the house immediately, with very poor impulse control. She met up with a 49 yo AA man at her NA meeting. He sweet talked her into believing that he was going to save her, care for her, and that no one would love her like he did, not her parents or anyone. He was a known drug dealer and addict who is from PHiladelphia. We tried to talk her into coming home, even forcing her to come home, but she was addicted to crack and dependent on him for her drug habit. They were homeless, staying with various people. I gave her a cell phone so that if she ever neeeded me, I was a phone call away I tried to keep communication open, fearing that he might take her away from the area. We had not heard from DD since Aug, when we had a discussion that she had her whole life ahead of her, and she became biligerent, saying she wanted her own life, not ours. The phone we gave her was in someone else's posession. DH and I finally tracked down leads and discovered that he had taken DD to Phila, without money or clothes, or anywhere to go. He viewed her as his property, and began to pimp her. They were both arrested twice for pimping and prostitution, but let go. DD was staying in variious homeless shelters in Phila. We have made many trips to North Phila roaming the streets looking for her. People say they know her and have seen her. I found out that in Nov, he owed money to drug dealers and they caught up with him. They held a gun to his head and told him that if he made any noise, that he was dead. They then proceeded to rape my DD. They pistol whipped him and he disappeared, admitted himself to a facility, leaving DD stranded in North Phila.
We still cannot find DD, although she did leave a voice message for us in Feb telling us that she heard we were looking for her, not to worry, she is ok, she loves us, and will see us soon.
She then called late one night and was very remorseful, crying saying she wanted to come home but couldn't. SHe said she was so sorry for all she has put us through and she had been through hell and back. We offered to leave immediately (about a 90 min drive) to pick her up, but she said she would call in the am and come home. Of course, she never called.
Please pray for God's love to penetrate her heart and know that God loves her and will forgive her, and that only His love will heal her. My DH has become physically ill from the stress, and I am barely hanging on. My heart aches for her, and what she has been through, and I cannot imagine the pain she has in her heart. She is listed as a missing person now, so if she is picked up, we will be notified immediately. We continue to walk the streets late at night looking for her in the most horrible violent area of Phila.
I praise God that He has helped her to survive. Please help me in praying.
Thank you very much,
a very sad mama