i am extremely sorry. but what sucks about suicide is that you dont know how many friends you have, or how many people loved you, or how many peoples lives you touched, untill its too late. there was a boy in the begining of the year that died in a plane crash, and not alot of people knew him that well, but it affected everyone on campus, and still does sometimes. it will eventually fade away(the pain) but you will never forget the person. if you need someone to talk to i am here, i kind of know what you are going through, not only has the boy died in my school, but my father died as well, and i have talked some of my friends out of comitting suicide themselves. But i am always here if you need to talk.