People make me sick.

[Ms.Squeakers]

Sometimes I feel like I may crack and go looney toons.
I really do.

I feel like im in prison.
Do you ever get that?

I'm pretty sure...everything's wrong.

For example :

Earlier this year I got pneumonia.
So my "friends" (AKA : the ones that weren't taken from me, the ones that are my age) were talking about this concert we did (but i didnt get to go since i was sick) and they were laughing and I said "what?" and they said "Oh you wouldnt get it, its from that time you werent here" "yeah, i had pneumonia" "HA-HA" (and it wasnt a friendly "HA.HA" it was a cold harsh mean one)

and..
i get that every.day.

Wheres the compassion?
Why does no one care anymore?
When someone falls...shouldn't you help them back up?

If someone tripped and fell (even if it was someone i dont talk to or dont like)...I'd still help them up and ask them if they were okay.


I thought that was basic manners, and...being a good person. Not "HAHA, THIS POOR SUCKER FELL, LETS STEP ON HIM WHILE WE WALK BY!" type attitude.


I mean..i feel like im in prison.
Every man for himself.

but I'm tired of that!

We learn about community service in school all the time, but i feel its pretty pointless, if we dont have the feeling in our heart to first help those around us.

Am I wrong?

 

[Ms.Squeakers]

*bump*

 

[BabyPiglet]

I totally agree. Nobody seems to care about anyone else anymore. I just keep thinking back to Black Friday (the day after thanksgiving) where a couple people were TRAMPLED ON for sales!

Ridiculous. I try to help people as much as I can, & maybe they'll pay it forward.

 

[Ms.Squeakers]

Me too, i just want to know what parents are teaching their children these days...if anything.

Or they could be teaching them manors, but the kids dont listen?
I have no idea.

 

[tinkerbellbailey]

i know how u feel. i exploded on my best friend and i wasnt even mad at her!

 

[bananda]

Sometimes I feel like I may crack and go looney toons.
I really do.

I feel like im in prison.
Do you ever get that?

I'm pretty sure...everything's wrong.

For example :

Earlier this year I got pneumonia.
So my "friends" (AKA : the ones that weren't taken from me, the ones that are my age) were talking about this concert we did (but i didnt get to go since i was sick) and they were laughing and I said "what?" and they said "Oh you wouldnt get it, its from that time you werent here" "yeah, i had pneumonia" "HA-HA" (and it wasnt a friendly "HA.HA" it was a cold harsh mean one)

and..
i get that every.day.

Wheres the compassion?
Why does no one care anymore?
When someone falls...shouldn't you help them back up?

If someone tripped and fell (even if it was someone i dont talk to or dont like)...I'd still help them up and ask them if they were okay.


I thought that was basic manners, and...being a good person. Not "HAHA, THIS POOR SUCKER FELL, LETS STEP ON HIM WHILE WE WALK BY!" type attitude.


I mean..i feel like im in prison.
Every man for himself.

but I'm tired of that!

We learn about community service in school all the time, but i feel its pretty pointless, if we dont have the feeling in our heart to first help those around us.

Am I wrong?

people are jerks

 

[Babyjustrun]

My friends used to do that. If they had an advantage over me, it was 'HA-insertfunnypause-HA'
Specifically one friend. They'll outgrow it, hopefully.

But I do know what you mean. I've felt so lonely lately. I'm going through not such a great time lately, and I have no one to talk to. My best friend actually said one time when I told her everything 'Well now you know for next time, I'm glad it's not me making the mistake this time, like I always am.'
Such compassion, thanks, that basically means you're glad I'm in pain because it's not you.
My other best friend, I can't talk to about it. She's best friends with the problem, and I don't want that getting back. And she's leaving tomorrow.
Other best friend, well he's the problem lol, not going to talk to him about it. He'd probably be weirded out.
My close friend, well we don't talk about that sort of thing.

Rest of my friends, we talk, but not about our feelings, just stuff in our lives.
Billy is my confidant, and well we don't always get to talk, and I feel guilty for talking for a long time about myself...

But otherwise, I feel so damn alone. Nobody wants to listen, or can't listen. My family is busy with other stuff.

And I mean my best friend who has been the problem, is basically admitting he doesn't really listen half the time because 'Most of what you say is random, and I don't have an answer to it, and I don't care, so I don't listen.'
It hurts to hear that, because someday when you need them to listen, they won't. Especially when they don't know how much their words stay in your head. And that they think what you find interesting is boring to you.
It's very very hard to find someone who cares, and cares about you.

 

[BabyPiglet]

My friends used to do that. If they had an advantage over me, it was 'HA-insertfunnypause-HA'
Specifically one friend. They'll outgrow it, hopefully.

But I do know what you mean. I've felt so lonely lately. I'm going through not such a great time lately, and I have no one to talk to. My best friend actually said one time when I told her everything 'Well now you know for next time, I'm glad it's not me making the mistake this time, like I always am.'
Such compassion, thanks, that basically means you're glad I'm in pain because it's not you.
My other best friend, I can't talk to about it. She's best friends with the problem, and I don't want that getting back. And she's leaving tomorrow.
Other best friend, well he's the problem lol, not going to talk to him about it. He'd probably be weirded out.
My close friend, well we don't talk about that sort of thing.

Rest of my friends, we talk, but not about our feelings, just stuff in our lives.
Billy is my confidant, and well we don't always get to talk, and I feel guilty for talking for a long time about myself...

But otherwise, I feel so damn alone. Nobody wants to listen, or can't listen. My family is busy with other stuff.

And I mean my best friend who has been the problem, is basically admitting he doesn't really listen half the time because 'Most of what you say is random, and I don't have an answer to it, and I don't care, so I don't listen.'
It hurts to hear that, because someday when you need them to listen, they won't. Especially when they don't know how much their words stay in your head. And that they think what you find interesting is boring to you.
It's very very hard to find someone who cares, and cares about you.

I feel the same way. I mean, I have 'friends', but not really anyone I can spill my guts too. So I basically just push all my emotions back inside & try not to think about it.

 

[Sparx]

matt's pretty much my best friend. i spend all my days with him. my other friends and i aren't so close anymore. specifically one girl, who doesn't speak to me at all anymore.

i don't really mind, persay. actually, i don't mind at all. i'm moving out of this dead-end town in less than six months. its not like we were all going to keep in touch anyway. no one really does after highschool, contrary to what teen movies tell you.

 

[JarethDrakul]

Sadly there are people out there that are really unkind, it caused me years of not wanting to be around people if I could help it....and I could go days without speaking to anyone...but you must look on the bright side

(sort of related):
Compassion seems to have disappeared, my Grandmother fell over in town and no one helped her up and she had injured her leg and arm....then this time isn't exactly nice to people anyway (Everyone I've spoken to who has come here for one reason or another comment on how rude the people are compared to other towns and cities).

 

[marypops!]

People at my last school made me feel so bad, that I left early. Even the teachers made jokes about me...

About helping people, I guess it depends on the amount of people in the area, whether someone helps. Called the bystander effect, the more people in an area where something happens, the less chance someone will help because they think someone else will and don't want to get involved. An example is Kitty Genovese who was stabbed to death near her home. The attack happened over half an hour, and there were a dozen witnesses to the attack, but only 2 people phoned the police. Another example can be seen in this CCTV footage http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Pv2DfYIhoGY

You didn't really need to know all that, but it helps with my Psychology revision :-D

 

[Ms.Squeakers]

People at my last school made me feel so bad, that I left early. Even the teachers made jokes about me...

About helping people, I guess it depends on the amount of people in the area, whether someone helps. Called the bystander effect, the more people in an area where something happens, the less chance someone will help because they think someone else will and don't want to get involved. An example is Kitty Genovese who was stabbed to death near her home. The attack happened over half an hour, and there were a dozen witnesses to the attack, but only 2 people phoned the police. Another example can be seen in this CCTV footage http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Pv2DfYIhoGY

You didn't really need to know all that, but it helps with my Psychology revision :-D

Ah
I heard this case that my teacher called the "greens" case (or something like that)

and it was about a woman in new york and she lived in an apartment building

and she was being beaten outside of the building by these two men
and everyone was watching it from their windows, but no one called an ambulance because they all thought their neighbor was calling so she ended up dying because an ambulance never came.

 

[Babyjustrun]

I feel the same way. I mean, I have 'friends', but not really anyone I can spill my guts too. So I basically just push all my emotions back inside & try not to think about it.

And that's the hardest part.
Not thinking about it.
I have so much time to think about things, at school when I'm supposed to be working, at work when I'm doing mindless stuff so I have to think to keep myself amused.
I think of everything wrong and rethink everything I've ever thunk. I'm paranoid as heck, so it gives me more time to think up terrible situations.

 

[Ms.Squeakers]

Oh..
well something really terrible happened today (because it happens everyday) but today..it just pushed me way too far.

It would be okay if knew "well, thats just how people are" but thats not true.

I had these wonderful friends, who were just like me and we would help each other out..

Its not that im going to keep crying "No, my friends were taken from me" but its just the fact of knowing that they're out there, and people like me DO exist (so its not just my imagination).


I'm tired of being taken for granted, and most times i just feel like in order to fit in until the rest of the school year, that I should be doing these mean things with them

but then I realized this:

NO.
I WILL NOT.
I will NOT lower myself, in order to be accepted.
I dont HAVE to be accepted by you, or by anyone.
I am who I am, and if you dont like that, then thats your buisness.
I'm tired of always being the one to say "sorry" and "are you okay" its not that I mind doing that, because most times I do, but somedays i just wish i'd get the same respect back.

 

[StitchfansJr]

ITA Mouse.
My "friends" laugh at every single thing I say. Or sometimes I try talking to them and they just ignore me. For example:
Me: "Oh, guess what?"
Her: "What?"
Me: "My cat got hurt and she has to wear a cone."
Her:
Me: "She has to take medicine, too.."
Her:
Me: "What's so freaking funny?"
Her:

Drives me freaking insane!

 

[Ms.Squeakers]

ITA Mouse.
My "friends" laugh at every single thing I say. Or sometimes I try talking to them and they just ignore me. For example:
Me: "Oh, guess what?"
Her: "What?"
Me: "My cat got hurt and she has to wear a cone."
Her:
Me: "She has to take medicine, too.."
Her:
Me: "What's so freaking funny?"
Her:

Drives me freaking insane!

Ah.
See that would me too but maybe you'd be annoyed at me as well.


For example if you came up to me and said :

You: "Oh, guess what?"
Me: "What?"
You: "My cat got hurt and she has to wear a cone."
Me: Aww, I'm sorry.
You: "She has to take medicine, too.."
Me: Awwh, why what happened?
You: *answer what happened*
Me: I'm sorry... so does this mean I get to come over and put little bits of tin foil on her cone and make her look like she has an antenna?

type thing, but usually the conversation ALWAYS continues.

When someones concerned or in pain, you dont just laugh it off.
Although the above statement I just made might actually BE laughing it off, it wasnt in a way.
Obviously, i showed a bit of compassion too.

Not "XD YOU'RE CAT...GOT HURT LMAO" because that would be disturbing.