hiya guys...feeling a little down tonight..

Just came home from school and on the last bulletin board before i walked out the door there it was...
...disney is coming to interview for internships at my school!! ohhh, it's made me wish i still lived at home and could go. i want to SO BAD. it's just not an option. there's no way i could pack up and leave steve and my kitty and house for five months. besides it not being financially possible, i'd feel like crap doing it! can't win either way...
plus, he wouldn't want to do it and even if we both moved to Orlando there's no way that i could go through the program and not have to pay to live in their version of 'dorms' -- even if i didn't live there. not to mention that they don't pay much. and even if he DID want to do it, we'd have to get married first, then there still wouldn't be a guarentee that we'd be together. bleh.
and i feel like poop because i love my life and the choices i've made...then this comes up and WACK..i'm upset about every decision i've made in the last 2 years. not fair.
anyways, i prolly won't be chatting much tonight....just needed to vent a little bit...thanks!