Okay, so I'm having a really bad time today

[6_Time_Momma]

This afternoon I started wrapping some of the Christmas presents for the kids. I came across a bag of bottles, bibs, and undershirts that I had bought. I am now only three weeks away from what would have been Gabrielle's due date and seeing that stuff hit me HARD.

I have been pretty much crying non-stop since then. I also realize that I will never be completely okay again. As many have said, the crying, sad times will become less frequent, but they will always be. I don't beleive I will ever have a day that I don't think of her at least once (at least I haven't yet).

It is sooooooo hard to talk to people I know who were due around the same time I was knowing that I won't have a big announcement to make like they will in January.

I'm sooooo sorry for the wallowing in self-pity post, but this is probably one of the hardest days that I have had since things began to return to "normal" and I just wanted to vent/release/whatever.

 

[Dan Murphy]

Kristy, you are always more than welcome to come here to your DIS family for a shoulder or two to lean on. We seem to do well at that. I think I can understand a little how you feel, certainly not totally, but a little, yes. My continued best wishes, Kristy, along with a big {hug}.

Dan

 

[JC2]

Please don't feel the need to apologize.
{{Hugs}} to you! Know that people care.

 

[Serena]

{{{hugs}}}

We're here when you need us.

 

[Briar Rose 7457]

{hugs} Kristy. I know it must be rough.

 

[Boots]

Kristy, I am sure this must be so very very hard for you. We are all here for you anytime you need us!! {{{{HUGS}}}} and prayers always.

 

[Kitty 34]

{{{{{HUGS}}}}} Kristy.

 

[BWVDenise]

 

[paras4ri]

Kristy,
I haven't posted to you often but you're often in my thoughts. I know it's a difficult time for you. Please remember many, many people have you in your prayers.
Gail

 

[EROS]

Sorry to read that you're having such a hard time .

Peace be with you.........

Time will heal.................

 

[Eeyore2U]

Kristy,

I wish I could make it better.

 

[worm761]

{{HUGS}} i lost a baby girl several years ago that was due this time of year. i always remember her this time especially. it does get easier with time. take some time for you. it may help. {{HUGS}}

 

[luv2nascar]

You have been through so much
allow yourself to cry if that's what you need you deserve to
no one but another mother can understand the love of your child
the loss is something no parent should have to endure
God bless. I am praying God will help you find the peace you deserve.

 

[helenabear]

{{hugs}} Kristy... I wish I knew how to make it all feel better.

 

[nativetxn]

I don't think you are wallowing in self pity. You are grieving and I think you are a very strong person to handle things the way you have. I admire your strength.

I'm sorry that you are feeling so sad today. We are always here if you need to talk and you don't have to apologize for your feelings.

{{{HUGS}}} sweetie. I hope tomorrow is a better day.

 

[lisajl]

I agree...give yourself time to grieve.

{{{Hugs}}}

Lisajl

 

[DopeyRN]

{{{{Hugs}}}}

 

[DisMNagain]

Please PLEASE don't think I'm being cruel....but...

have you thought about donating the sweet little baby things you've got to a local womans shelter or to someone who might be desperately need some baby stuff?

I wonder if that would help your healing to be able to reach out to others and give a gift that's so preciously close to your own heart...and to give something that MAY be especially welcome by someone at this time of year.

Just a simple thought....from this simple mind.

 

[snowwhitemom]

I think it is nice that you remember her in your heart each day, you deal with this the way you see fit, hugs and love to you.

 

[Kermit]

{{{Hugs}}} I think about you, and pray for you, all the time. I'm sure this is a very hard time for you. Don't feel bad about coming here for comfort. It's healthy for you to be sad, and it's good for you to be able to talk about it.