Not All Treasure Is Silver And Gold, Mate - *Update 9-17* P60

[pooh'smate]

I just wanted to say thanks for dropping by my ptr.

 

[TarzansKat]

I just wanted to say thanks for dropping by my ptr.

 

[TarzansKat]

Hey, folks.

Otherwise known as whoever hasn't hit unsubscribe yet.

I'm pretty sure that I have at least one more chapter of this trip report pre-written, and when I have some time while Nemo is at kindergarten today, I'll try to get it posted.

I'm not sure how much further I'll continue after that.

With losing Mom, it's just that I'm not sure how much more of these memories I'm up for sharing right now, although there are some good ones left, that's for sure.

It's just that this is now the last family trip I took with her, our absolute last trip being our girls trip in January (which I am super grateful for).

So in between having a baby 7 weeks ago, and getting the five year old off to kindergarten, and trying to be mom and wife while still having time to grieve, it's been pretty busy in the TK household.

Just wanted to say hi, and I haven't forgotten everyone.

 

[Tinkerbellarella]

 

[Charleston Princess]

Big hugs and I totally understand!

 

[TarzansKat]

Big hugs and I totally understand!

Thank you both.

 

[TarzansKat]

It's actually sort of funny. I wrote this post so long ago, but the sentiment at the very end has applied so keenly this week, as I'm sure it will for a long time.

This next tale is shortly told. After the fireworks, we had plans for an official DIS meet, involving 2Excited2Sleep, JenJolt, MRYPPNS, and ILuvCrush. Did I get all your screen names right? See, in my head, I'm thinking Christine, Jen, Heidi, and Paula, but my brain is trying to write the DIS names. It doesn't always work that way. LOL

Anyway, we had plans to ride on Pirates of the Caribbean. I'm not sure exactly how it started. If we look back at the PTRs of the various participants, I'm sure we could figure out the initial train of thought, but it was basically something along these lines.

"I want to ride Pirates with you, TK!" And I was extremely flattered. And then another, and then another, until eventually we had ourselves a little DIS meet going. And my basic memory of the event is this. DS was sleeping, and Nana graciously offered to stay with him while myself, DH, Mom, FIL, and my DIS friends made our way to ride on Pirates. Truly, there's not much better than this kind of a meet. It's my favorite ride in the MK, and it was wonderful to share it with all of you.

Little did you know what you were in for, savvy?

We loaded up into a boat, with Christine, Jen, and Paula in the row in front of myself, DH, and Heidi, did you sit next to me? I'm almost positive you did, and somewhere in there was my mom and father in law. Perhaps behind us.

At any rate, Christine, Jen, and Paula got a firsthand taste of why it's so important to never sit in front of my husband on a ride.

For as we prepared to enjoy the ride, made way, and teetered precariously on the edge of that spooky drop, my DH gently, slowly, reached out, and just as we were falling, goosed Christine, Jen, and Paula in the back, screaming, "AH!!!!" while he did it.

Normally I don't prefer him to engage in these kind of antics with people he's met for all of, oh...five minutes, shall we say, but I was in the Halloween spirit, and thought, why not? They'll certainly never forget the ride now!

And, you know, I didn't. It means so much to me that you were all there, that you were part of that ride with me, my DH, Mom, and FIL. I don't have to explain why, I'm sure, but I feel this special connection over something so simple as a ride at Disney World. And I guess that's why we're all part of the DIS, isn't it? Because we're a group of people that "gets it."

My Mom was one of those people. I never had to explain it to her. She always got it, and she was always up for a trip to Disney, one more ride, one more time, "We have to go before you have the baby because you won't have the time afterwards."

How was I supposed to know that it would be my mother, not me, who wouldn't have the time? You know, it still doesn't make sense to me. No matter how many times I try to wrap my brain around it, I just can't. No matter what I've learned, no matter how my whole perspective on life has changed, and how grateful I am for that, I still want her back. I think as I write this of how our very last ride in January was on Pirates. Of how on our last day, we woke up early, and ate breakfast before our designated ADR time and just wanted that one more taste of the Magic Kingdom. So we added a day to my pass, and got on the monorail one more time to soak up some more magic.

How could I have known that would have been the last time?

How could I have known that this would have been the last family trip?

You never know. You never will. For a group of hardcore planners, such as we all are, I think one of the most mind boggling things about a sudden loss is that you didn't plan for this. You weren't expecting it, you didn't want it, and no matter how hard you try, you can't change it.

You are forced to deal with your new reality, forced to live in a world without your loved one. And though you know her spirit is with you, though you know your children will have the best guardian angel in the world, nothing compares to having her here.

By your side.

Riding on Pirates one last time.

 

[Tinkerbellarella]

After the fireworks, we had plans for an official DIS meet, involving 2Excited2Sleep, JenJolt, MRYPPNS, and ILuvCrush. Did I get all your screen names right? See, in my head, I'm thinking Christine, Jen, Heidi, and Paula, but my brain is trying to write the DIS names.

Well carp. There's a whole lotta Tinkerbellarella missing from this post. How I wish I could've been there.

And on everything else, well and you know where I stand on all that.

Right next to you.

 

[TarzansKat]

Well carp. There's a whole lotta Tinkerbellarella missing from this post. How I wish I could've been there.

Me, too!

And on everything else, well and you know where I stand on all that.

Right next to you.

Oh, god bless you. Really. You're a calming presence, you know that?

 

[If U Had Wings]

What a wonderful experience getting to enjoy that ride with such a special group of people. Those are memories that you'll never lose. And such reminder that we enjoy those moments as much as we can with our loved ones.

 

[TarzansKat]

What a wonderful experience getting to enjoy that ride with such a special group of people. Those are memories that you'll never lose. And such reminder that we enjoy those moments as much as we can with our loved ones.

If losing my mom has taught me anything, it's that you do it now.

Whatever "it" may be, do it now. Don't wait. Don't worry, don't stress, just do it.

Like the Nike ad says.

 

[Tinkerbellarella]

Whatever "it" may be, do it now. Don't wait. Don't worry, don't stress, just do it.

Like the Nike ad says.

Hm. Maybe if you get a little Nike swoosh tattooed on you somewhere they'll have to start paying you advertising fees.

 

[TarzansKat]

Hm. Maybe if you get a little Nike swoosh tattooed on you somewhere they'll have to start paying you advertising fees.

You know I've been seriously thinking about a tattoo? Not a Nike swoosh, however.

 

[eandesmom]

Ah TK,

What a great story. I had not heard about that part of the ride! Snippets in time like that are amazing little nuggets.

Your ability to let us in, to feel the laughter, the happiness, the bewilderment, the grief, the loss and yet still leave feeling blessed to have been part of it, I am sure, comes from your mom.

She is so very clearly by your side. Inside.

We aren't going anywhere and too, stand my your side, whether you see us, read us or not. Take care of you and your beautiful family.

 

[mickeyfan1973]

I have just found your TR and I just wanted to say thank you for writing this trip report. It brings to light the fact that it's not the number of rides you ride, how many characters you meet or where you eat that are important but the memories you make along the way.

I have only been to DW twice...once on my honeymoon and once last year with my kids to help celebrate my DD 5th birthday. Those memories will last a lifetime, not only for me but I know for my kids too. That's what's important.

My mom has never been, and was recently diagnosed with Lupus...I want to take her so badly (she's never been). I want to make those memories with her too...I want to remember good times like that with her. I want her to have memories of her grandchildren having a blast.

My condolences on the passing of your mom....and my congratulations on the birth of your son. Each visit you take from now on will relive the memories you once had and create even new ones to enjoy. And your mom will be by you side on pirates just as before...you'll know she's there...you'll feel her.

Thanks again....

 

[MRYPPNS]

I have a horrible memory (Hello Dory!) but I very clearly remember that moment in time....pee your pants funny if you weren't sitting in front of Kat's DH, pee your pants in surprise if you were!!!

I also remember hanging out in the dump shop with you and you pointing out things from the movie(s) that were sort of "hidden" in there for me.

 

[that's nice]

Wow.... I mean, it could of been any one of us riding POTC with you that day. I feel like I could of been with you or watching from a distance. I think we forget how important the little things are with the everyday hustle, and spending the last day of the trip with your mom- adding a day to passes just to spend a little more time doing something that you both enjoy- will never be forgotten.

There are so many things in life that cannot be explained, and why He decided it was your Moms time no one will ever know. But I can imagine that your mom is watching you and her grandsons with much joy and some day you will be reunited with her and Him.

 

[brookelizabeth]

Carp! I just ran out of Kleenex!!!

Seriously girl...tears all over - nose running, the whole bit.

Wonderfully said - and what a fun memory!!!

 

[TarzansKat]

Ah TK,

What a great story. I had not heard about that part of the ride! Snippets in time like that are amazing little nuggets.

Your ability to let us in, to feel the laughter, the happiness, the bewilderment, the grief, the loss and yet still leave feeling blessed to have been part of it, I am sure, comes from your mom.

She is so very clearly by your side. Inside.

We aren't going anywhere and too, stand my your side, whether you see us, read us or not. Take care of you and your beautiful family.

There's so much of me that's her. It's a blessing, but it's hard right now. I look in the mirror and see so much in likeness, never mind mannerisms and values.

Thank you so much for your kind words.

I have just found your TR and I just wanted to say thank you for writing this trip report. It brings to light the fact that it's not the number of rides you ride, how many characters you meet or where you eat that are important but the memories you make along the way.

What can I say but thank you for your kind compliment.

I have only been to DW twice...once on my honeymoon and once last year with my kids to help celebrate my DD 5th birthday. Those memories will last a lifetime, not only for me but I know for my kids too. That's what's important.

My mom has never been, and was recently diagnosed with Lupus...I want to take her so badly (she's never been). I want to make those memories with her too...I want to remember good times like that with her. I want her to have memories of her grandchildren having a blast.

It sounds like you've made some wonderful memories. It's times like those that I am now trying to cherish despite my grief.

I am sorry to hear about your mom, I have heard that is a tough disease. I hope that you'll be able to go together, and that you'll get those quality times and memories you're looking for.

My condolences on the passing of your mom....and my congratulations on the birth of your son. Each visit you take from now on will relive the memories you once had and create even new ones to enjoy. And your mom will be by you side on pirates just as before...you'll know she's there...you'll feel her.

Thanks again....

Thank you very much. Isn't it strange to offer sympathy and congratulations all in one sentence? That's just how mixed we feel right now, so overjoyed over the birth of our son, and so saddened at the fact that she's not here but in spirit.

You're welcome, and thank you for taking the time to post with such kind words.

I have a horrible memory (Hello Dory!) but I very clearly remember that moment in time....pee your pants funny if you weren't sitting in front of Kat's DH, pee your pants in surprise if you were!!!

I like to call the horrible memory "mommy brain."

I also remember hanging out in the dump shop with you and you pointing out things from the movie(s) that were sort of "hidden" in there for me.

I forgot about that! Thank you for bringing back that memory for me. I'm such a Pirates geek, if there is such a thing.

Wow.... I mean, it could of been any one of us riding POTC with you that day. I feel like I could of been with you or watching from a distance. I think we forget how important the little things are with the everyday hustle, and spending the last day of the trip with your mom- adding a day to passes just to spend a little more time doing something that you both enjoy- will never be forgotten.

It is the little things. Why is it always the small moments on our Disney trips that are the best, you know?

There are so many things in life that cannot be explained, and why He decided it was your Moms time no one will ever know. But I can imagine that your mom is watching you and her grandsons with much joy and some day you will be reunited with her and Him.

I'll never understand it, and there are still some days where I'm angry about it. Mostly sad, but sometimes, I have a lot of rage.

Perhaps it's time to start working out again.

Anyway, thank you for your beautiful words. I think one of the hardest parts is even though I believe in heaven, and even though I know she's at peace and watching down on us with nothing but love, I know from her personality here on earth that she'd have been pissed she didn't get more time but glad she had the quality of time that she did, if that makes sense.

Carp! I just ran out of Kleenex!!!

Seriously girl...tears all over - nose running, the whole bit.

Wonderfully said - and what a fun memory!!!

Thank you, hon. Didn't mean to induce a snot fest.

 

[TarzansKat]

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