Thank you guys for your positive and encouraging posts! I have to tell you what ultimately happened. The training stuff didn't work out too well. The trainer told me she was sick and we only saw each other twice. I, as well became overwhelmed with physical, mental exhaustion and psych symptoms, had to drive back a week and half early and be emergently hospitalized on my usual unit! I got out a few days ago. I'm glad that I went and I had fun getting those pics with Harrison, but I've learned my body and mind cannot handle me traveling solo at this point. From now on, I will always have to be accompanied due to my disabilities. I really should have known that, I can't really get by on my own here at home either, but I really wanted to do this. Hey, at least I tried!! Thank you guys again! <3