Thank you all! Why is cancer such a devastating diagnosis. When my dad had an abdominal aortic aneurysum rupture and they told us he had a 15% chance to ever come out of ICU.....my faith never waivered......I started praying scripture and claiming scripture for healing.....never doubting. He now spends many hours taking care of my mom.
With mom's cancer diagnosis (2nd time) it just feels different. Not that I doubt my faith and I do know that God could at any one time take the cancer away if it was within His will to do so...........but the verses just don't feel the same this time.......not that God's word has changed or His power. It's just different........it's hard for me to even pray it sometimes......I guess that is sort of what the part of scripture talks about that when we don't even know what to say the Holy Spirit inside us makes intercession. It just feels like there is a death sentence hanging over and there is no getting out of it's shadow.
Her oncologist has said that he doesn't think she could withstand any radiation or chemo so there doesn't seem to be any options medically.....other than keeping her comfortable.
She asks questions that I don't know how to answer, like "why is Jesus mad at me?" "why doesn't He love me" "why doesn't He heal me?" I mean I know the answer that Jesus does love her and he does indeed hear her and when He takes her home she will be completely healed......but I don't know what to say here and now to comfort her......I have said everything I can think of and shared scripture with her, etc.
Part of me feels guilty and I beat myself up for doubting God's power to heal her but the other part of me tells me I need to face the reality of the fact that she isn't going to get better................
Sorry to ramble on and on. Thanks for listening.
Cristy
Its extremely difficult to watch a parent suffer. I know how you feel. Hugs to you and your mom.
