Like the others, I can so relate to your pain. I am so sorry.
My Mom passed away 2 years ago on Sept 5th. She was my "pain in the butt" and my best friend in the whole world.
You NEVER really lose a Mother. She is with you through every illness, every decision, every choice. She speaks when we speak, she is always with us. I know it's hard to see now but KNOW that your Mom will always be your angel, watching over you.
Thank her for all she's done and know that she needs her "baby" to be alright.
God bless,
Robinrs