Kim's WISH journal (feel free to comment)

[SnowWhite1985]

ok. so its been 2 weeks sinse i swore i'd stick to my wish plan. so far so good. I had enrolled in a body toning class that takes place 2 days a week, and on top of that I said that i would go on the elliptical about 30 min a day. i was keeping up with the elliptal schedule until this past week and i only went on twice because of my heavy schedule, but hopefully i will be able to get back on track this week. i have also decided to eat much healthier. i was always eating fast food, which made me gain my weight, so i cut that out completely and i've started eating a lot of spinach salad. i am a vegetarian, so i don't have to worry about meat, but i've always been a big carb lover. italian food is amazing, and pizza..wow do i love it. i've tried to cut down on the carbs, but i still sneak some in here and there. to be honest, i'm more strict about the exercize than the diet. i'm going to try and work on my diet a little more. i think that i should start to plan my meals out. the problem is that i have a boyfriend that loves to eat junk and never gains an ounce, so the temptation is fierce, but i'm proud of myself so far. My goal was to lose about 30-35 pounds, and ..drum roll please.....i've lost 5 pounds in these 2 weeks. i'm a big dreamer, so i was a little dissapointed to hear that it was this low, but this is the first time that i've ever really tried to lose weight, so i don't know the normal, healthy way of losing. my mother said that it was good and healthy, so i'll listen to her and continue to be proud . i'm right on track with my plan..i'm going to disney mid july and was hoping to lose before that, and so far i'm feeling good about it. i have about 17 weeks and 30 pounds to go which means i only have to lose about 2 pounds a week. i would like to thank everyone on wish for giving me the determination everyone else keep up the good work!

 

[pearlieq]

Wow! 5lbs! That's awesome!

Keep up the good work!

 

[SnowWhite1985]

Thank you for your support. This is the start of week 3, and I am extremely discouraged. I was so proud of myself for losing the 5 pounds, and I guess I exptected results every week, but this morning when i weighed myself I hadn't moved from last week. I am so dissapointed with myself I felt like I was doing so well, and then I threw it out the window. I was eating much better than I was in the past, and I went on the eliptical every other day for 30 min. I also did not drink any soda thinking that it would help. I hope that everyone else is having better luck than I am.

 

[pearlieq]

I know what a bummer it is to get all excited by a big first-week loss and then have the scale refuse to budge. It can be hard to stay motivated, but you can do it! The changes you're making are helping you to be a healthier, happier person and that means more than what any old scale says!

There could be a million things that kept the scale from going down this week--don't feel bad or guilty, just keep at it! Change will come!

Congrats for keeping up with your exercise--maybe you built up some muscle from your workouts!

Best wishes for Week 3!

 

[SnowWhite1985]

I really appreciate the kind words. Yesterday I was in a bad mood, but today I feel better. It is true, ever since I've been eating healthier, I've felt much better. Let's see what is in store this week


Edit: You are never going to believe this..I didn't so I had to check about 4 times..I use the scale at work, and its not digital. It has this little knob in the back to adjust it..I checked my weight again this morning and it turns out someone had moved the knob. i never checked if it was on zero when i weighed in yesterday, which is why it said that i didnt lose weight.. and when i rebalanced it out to zero..it said that I lost another 2 pounds..which means i'm down to 168..i don't know why i was so careless..i guess i was just excited to see if my hard work paid off..and then when it read that it didn't, i got really discouraged..but either way.. ok..7 pounds down ..

 

[SnowWhite1985]

I realize that I had just posted, but I'm bored and I didn't give any background, so I thought I'd add this in. I am 19 years old and I live on Long Island. I commute to college, and once I started college about 2 years ago, I started gaining weight. I was always relatively thin, but never appreciated it until i gained weight. At my thinnest I was 132, and I'm 5'8, and now I am about 168. Like I had said before, I found this wonderful boyfriend, but unfortunately his body doesn't know how to gain weight. He can eat whatever he wants, and he still stays very thin..i envy him. So I have been with him for a year and a half, and he loves to eat junk food and fast food (really the same thing) in front of me..which kills me sometimes. Most of my friends are guys, which does not help at all. They love to eat, especially when they are bored. In a nut shell, before I decided enough was enough, I was eating a lot of junk even when I was not hungry. The sad part is, they would tease me not knowing that I was getting hurt. They would say things like "Hey Kim..are you gaining weight?" and stuff like that. I was like one of the guys, so they saw nothing wrong with this. That was my wake up call.. So here I am, finally doing something

 

[SnowWhite1985]

Ok..so I'm feeling pretty good today. In the morning I always have Instant Breakfast because I do not like milk, and it gets me to drink milk. I also feel a little sick if I eat too early, so this helps me out on days I have class. My mother made sure to buy the "diet" instant break. for me Then I had class until about 10:30 and I came home to get a little time in on the eliptical. I did about 25 min, and I'm off to class again. When I get back around 2:00 I will go either back onto the eliptical or onto the bike..it has been a while since I've been on the bike. Maybe I'll even walk into town if it doesn't rain again. If only the weather matched my mood ..but other than that..I guess I'm off to class again. Hope everyone has a great day

 

[SnowWhite1985]

so today i got on the scale..and it def didn't move..but this time i'm not discouraged. I kept up with my exercise and i'm very proud that i did. i went to my body toning class 2 days, and i went on the eliptical 4 days this week for 25 min a day. i did cheat a little with my diet, because with nobody else on a diet in my house, its hard to stay away from pizza . o well. my mother said that when she goes on a diet, she will lose a little, and then it will just stop, but then after a little it just starts coming off faster than before. i hope that is what happens to me, but in the mean time, i'm acting healthier than before. 16 weeks until florida, so i think that i'm doing ok. hope every1 else is doing good, as well.

 

[SnowWhite1985]

what a disaster week! thinking back, i want to cry ! it was spring break, so i was home all week, and sinse my body toning class is a gym class for school, i missed that. wed was my anniversary with my bf, and he was home, so we hung out. he said that since it was our anniversary i could cheat a little so i had pizza hut. i woke up around 1:30, so i had no breakfast, then no lunch and finally pizza hut for dinner. then later on i felt like i had to have chocolate so i ate candy from easter (which was another disaster, but it was easter so i'm not too upset about that). i woke up late everyday, missed breakfast, ate something crummy for lunch or dinner and then ate candy all week! plus i didn't go on the eliptical at all! i did do a little walking, but nothing like i usually do. i don't know why i let this happen but i'm disgusted with myself! and of course this weekend they are going to be waxing the floors at work, and they hid the scale somewhere, so i can't check my weight. maybe its a good thing, because i know i would have gotten that much more disgusted if i did see the scale. i gotta shape up! school starts in again on monday, and i'm much more strict on myself when i have a schedule and have to wake up for something. i can't let this past week repeat itself..i won't let myself fall into that slump. being unhealthy just causes more stress, and thats the last thing i need now. i hope everyone else is doing better than me. have a great weekend!

 

[Lesli54]

It sounds like you are doing pretty good. My week after Easter was a little off as well, but now things are back on track. That is the important part, to just keep moving ahead. Sure you maybe a little upset with yourself, but you have to let it go. Think about this, when you were eating right and exercising your mood was probably good and you had energy. Now that you have had a down week, you probably noticed that along with lack of exercise and poor food choices your energy is zapped and you are more likely to get frustrated with yourself. Soooooooo, now you know how to pick yourself back up and stop feeling down, just grab something healthy and take a walk!

Here is a great way to get in the milk. 1 c. lowfat milk and 1 frozen banana (or strawberries or any other fruit you like). Throw it in a blender to make a smoothie. They are really good and the fruit covers the taste of the milk. If you make sure your fruit is frozen then you don't need ice to make.

Keep up the good work.

 

[SnowWhite1985]

thanks for the great tip! i ran out of fruit, so i have to go shopping so i can try this. unfortunately, i had gotten bored at work, so i went snooping around for the scale..and i found it. i'm up 1 pound..back to 169..but thats still 6 pounds lower than i was when i started, and i figured so much. i can't say that i'm not a little dissapointed, but i won't let it discourage me. i'm just going to have to work extra hard to stick to my plan in the coming weeks! so only about 3 months to go till my vacation, and i'm a little nervous. i keep looking back on pictures of our last trip august 04..and i can't believe how chubby i look in them! i used to be able to wear a bikini without feeling self conscious..but the pictures not only let me look back on good times, but they are a little push in the right direction. i know that i want to look better this year! one thing that bothers me is that i had lost 7 pounds, and the scale told me that..but i didn't see any difference. my boyfriend did tell me that i looked like i lost weight which got him a kiss , but i think he was just being nice. the problem is i had never measured myself before i had started my plan. anyway, happy losing everyone

 

[Lesli54]

Your doing fine. Go measure yourself now and take it from there. So far I have lost 6.5 lbs and DH says that he can tell a difference in my face and my behind. The clothes feel a little looser, but when I look in the mirror, it still looks too big to me. So, I am trusting DH on this one. Listen to your boyfriend, men notice more than we think and we are always too critical of ourselves. Keep up the good work.

 

[SnowWhite1985]

ok so still haven't found time to find to measure myself! but i will def do that tomorrow. ok so today was the first day back after my long week of NOTHING..and it felt great! i went to class, came home and went straight to that eliptical! i only did 20 min today, but then later on i took my little sister out for a walk. it was relatively warm, and she was itching to get out of the house, so we walked for about 45 min. for some reason i haven't been feeling very good, so i didn't really want to eat, but for lunch believe it or not i wanted corn..so i had a bowl of corn. yes..sounds strange..but it was good. then dinner came around and i wasn't hungry..of course my dad brings home pizza (only lately..now that i can't eat it). it smelled soo good..but i resisted. a little later on i started to feel a little hungry..but i was studying for a music test and was too lazy to make myself a salad so i just had some left over corn. hopefully tomorrow i feel a little better so i can eat a little better. i have to admit..when the boyfriend came home from work, he came over and had some pizza..and i kind of had his crust..i couldn't help myself! despite the odd eating schedule for today, it felt good to get up and work out for a little. i have to get some sleep if i want to feel any better tomorrow..tomorrow i have class all day ..but my last class is body toning which i am looking foward to . i hope every1 has a nice night

 

[Lesli54]

It's hard to stay on track when you don't feel well. Things will be better in a few days.

 

[SnowWhite1985]

hey everyone . i'm at work which means time to weigh myself..that is a little weird now that i think about it weighing in at work..i work in a traffic company..not a doctor's office what a beautiful weekend! i'm starting to feel a little better. i don't know what was wrong with me..i wasn't sick, i just felt crummy. but the is out and i'm in a good mood. i'm down to 167 which means i've lost 2 pounds so since i've started this, i've lost 8 pounds and i think i've noticed my waist getting a little smaller. i'm so mad at myself, though! i just remembered that i was going to measure! o well i'll have to write myself a note..you'd think that i would remember to since i'm so concerned about losing weight. friday was my younger sisters birthday, and we were at the mall for 5 hours with a bunch of 13 year old girls! they had so much energy! lots of walking! but there was also cake and she went to fridays so i cheated one day..o well. today is supposed to go almost up to 70 degrees and i'm stuck inside (sigh). maybe tonight i'll make the boyfriend take a walk with me down into town by the water. i know i could sure use the exersize! anyway..i guess thats all i have to say for now. have a great weekend (whatever is left of it). enjoy the beautiful weather!

 

[Lesli54]

I am glad to hear that you are feeling better!

Congrats on the 2 lbs. lost!!! Keep working on it little by little and soon you will be where you want to be.

Enjoy your walk tonight.

 

[pettyone]

Pizza seems to pop up everyone around you!! I soooo love pizza & it's hard to give up a good one...ahhhh, well...

You're doing well!! Congrats on the two pounds! Keep up with the elliptical, it WILL slim you down!!

LOTS OF LUCK FOR A GREAT WEEK!!!

 

[SnowWhite1985]

thanks so much for all of the supportive comments you guys are great! today was an "eh" kind of day. i missed breakfast, then had class. i ate some broccoli for lunch, snuck in only 15 min of the eliptical, and was called in for work. then when there was nothing to eat, andrew brought me to wendys so i could try that fruit bowl. i have to say that i was a little skeptical about it, coming from wendys and all, but it was good. although i had hardly exercised today, i felt good about what i ate. it is unbelievable how i've changed. never in my life have i craved broccoli before! hahah well its a good thing . again, thanks for the support, and i hope everyone has a great week!

 

[Lesli54]

Isn't it amazing how you can retrain your body to crave different foods. At least broccoli is much better than a bag of snack food.

Hope tomorrow is better than an "eh" day.

 

[SnowWhite1985]

hey everyone! today is way better than yesterday . i had some instant breakfast before classes, and today is tuesday so i had body toning. today was hard!! 40 min of the hardest workout i've had so far. as hard as it was, i feel great right now. i came home and had about 1 1/2 cups of left over brown rice, and i'm really in the mood for broccoli again, so i'm in the process of convincing everyone else they want chinese food. it is strange how you can train your body to crave things. but i'm not complaining! anyway, i feel like going on the eliptical, so i'm off to do that. maybe i'll post again a little later on tonight. have a great day everyone!