Kathy's Journey to Better Self Image (Comments Welcome

[Purrrrfecta]

Hi Kathy,

I know what you mean about the self image thingy. That is why I asked you how it was coming along. Like I am always told the only thing you can do is reinforce with positive mental notations.

Well, don't worry if you eat something you are not supposed to, and do not exercise. You will. Remember, you are worth it!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Connie

 

[jay-nee]

Hope things are going ok. I know your work schedule is crazy right now...

Try to stay focused and eat healthy and regularly too. Drink H2O! Have you been on the bike lately? Try to sneak some exercise in, for sanity's sake, ok?

Happy Friday!

 

[Zela]

Hey Kathy

Just stopped by to say Hi. Hope your day is going well!

 

[NYcpa]

Finally home

After a trip like today's, I wonder why I love the work I do down on Long Island. DD2 and i left the hotel at 1 pm, stopped for a late lunch/supper for 1/2 hour and got home at 11 PM. It should have only taken about 6 hours not 10. It took us 3 hours to go 10 mile last Sunday night trying to get across the GW bridge and onto the Island. There has to be an easier way.

Have been MIA. When DD2 goes with me, the internet is hooked to her computer. I get to use it for about 45 min each night while she goes to the hot tub and takes a shower upon returning. Even though they advertise high speed interntet, it takes forever for the pages to come up. I also have to change the log in and that takes forever also. I tried to post Wed night and accidently hit return and my post evaporated.

DD2 has suggested I start the SB diet while I am home recuperating from shoulder surgery. She will have to do the cooking as I am very right handed and the surgery is on my right shoulder. It gives tme th opportunity to be home for 2 weeks solid.

I am currently scheduled to be home for 1 week and 1 day. I will drive back to the Island on July 26 after dropping both DD's at the airport. DD1 is taking DD2 to WDW for 5 days to celebrate her 19th birthday. I was invited but have too much work to do. (Will it ever slow down?)

Eating and exercise the last three weeks have been terrible. I have been in a mental slump with the attitude, what difference will it make. I know in my heart I will think much better of myself and my looks if I lose the weight, but keek losing sight of that fact. My schedule is getting the best of me. I am actually looking forward to the surgery to force me into a little downtime. Kind of a perverted way of looking at it, but I need all the help I can get.

Will try to get some exercise in and eat better this coming week.

 

[goldcupmom]

Kathy -

I'm just catching up after being gone. Here's hoping you are having a good weekend. You've been thru a LOT and have more to deal with. Just take one day at a time. You CAN do this, your DD's are there for you and you are worth the effort.

Keep your chin up and keep moving on!

 

[NYcpa]

Today is a new day and the humidity level is finally reasonable (for today at least).

Goals for today:
Water - 60 oz
Food - as healthy as possible (depending on where DD2 wants to eat for her 19th birthday dinner)
Exercise - walk 3 miles or ride bike 12 miles
Soda - no more than 20 oz.

The last 2 days hve been good eating days except the trip to Coldstone Creamery last night. Soda consumption has been limited to 1 per day and water has been adequate. Being in the office and having really water available helps. I put a water bottle in the freezer when I get home an leave it there until it starts to freeze. I like my water cold.

Have been feeling somewhat depressed. I like being home and having alot of choices for eating, but I hate going into the office. I like the work I do there but the secretary's attitude I can do without. She is the boss's daughter, has been there longer than I have (25 yrs compared to my 18) and is jealous of my coming and going whenever I want. I had to go to her father to get a new adding machine ordered because she told me I could use the old one on the extra desk. Mine seems to miss digits in the numbers so i couldn't really tell the totals. She ordered a new machine for herself even though she rarely uses one. I use mine constantly, when not on the computer. She has been very cool to me because I went over her to get the new machine. The problem is there are only the3 of us in the office.

Erin is excited about her birthday but apprehensive about meeting her dad for lunch. He tells her a time and if he shows up within 45 min he feels he is on time. He can be such a jerk at times. I sometimes have to make her see her father. It stems from him ignoring her while she was growing up. Now that we are divorced, he thinks she should jump everytime he wants to see her. He lives 2.5 hrs away and feels she should drive back there to see him. I think the road goes both ways.

Have to . Have a 7:30 meeting with my favorite counselor. Talking to her always puts me in a better frame of mind.

 

[Cruise04]

I just wanted to tell you that I'm glad you are sticking with checking and trying to keep on task. That is a very good thing to do even though it's hard.

Keep on
Chris

 

[NYcpa]

Goals for today:
Water - 60 oz (actually drank about 80 oz)
Food - as healthy as possible (depending on where DD2 wants to eat for her 19th birthday dinner)
Exercise - walk 3 miles or ride bike 12 miles (didn't do anything)
Soda - no more than 20 oz. (only 16 oz)

Food :
Breakfast - APEX oatmeal raisin meal bar, banana
AM snack - SB 100 cal wheat thins
Lunch - chix ceasar salad w/light dressing and no croutons
PM snack - Nabisco 100 cal oreo crisps
Supper - Thai noodles with chix & veggies, rice custard dessert

Had a massage this afternoon. She went deep on the tissues and my back is now hurting. It should feel better by tomorrow.

Still need to get motivated at work. Have alot of things to accomplish before heading back to Long Island next Tuesday. I have good intentions to get lots done but other things seem to get in the way. I will probably work Sat am. It will be quiet and there will be no interruptions. I can get more accomplished in 4 hours on a Sat morning than I can in 8 hours during the week.

DD1 will be home from Texas Saturday night. She has been gone since June 13. She will be at Disney from July 26-30. I will be heading back to Long Island on the 31st and she will be heading back to Maine on August 1. I will get to spend about 2 days with her before she has to go back to school.

 

[NYcpa]

DD1 is coming home today (a day early). She has been in Texas since June 13 for OBC. It will be good to see her again.

Will be heading back to mom's tomorrow. Need to go up to my sisters. My BIL would like to see the girls before the head back to college. He as an aortic anurism (sp) which is growing so it appears his time is limited. He has had it for quite a few years but the doctor's said it would kill him if they tried to operate. He is a double amputee and has had numerous heart surgeries. He has been a walking time bomb for too long. Not looking forward to the trip.

Depression and anxeity are rearing thier ugly heads. Need to stay focused and keep them from hitting full blast. I decided last night not to take one of my medications. I appears to have been a stupid move. Didn't sleep much.

Need to get a lot of work done today. Have to have it done before going back to Long Island Tuesday AM (after dropping DD's at airport for their trip to WDW). They are going to spend some sister time together for DD2's belated birthday trip.

Should consider getting ready for work. Can get more accomplished before secretary comes in at 8:30 than the rest of the day (it seems). The more I can get done today, the less I will have to work tomorrow (and maybe not at all).

 

[NYcpa]

Not much accomplished at work. Hopefully 4 hrs tomorrow will be enough. I didn't work an 8 hour shift one day this week. i need an attitude adjustment when I am here.

Today was a stellar eating day also.
Breakfast - oatmeal w/tablespoon of maple syrup (not bad)
Snack - Nabisco 100 cal honey grahams pack (not bad)
Lunch - diet pepsi, bag of potato chips (300 cals)
Snack - 2Hersheys take 5 candy bar (220 cals)
Supper - 3 pieces of Erin's left over pizza, diet soda

Calorie wise not bad, nutrition wise NOT THE BEST!!!

Picked my bike up tonight after getting longer seatpost and having shifters and brakes adjusted. Rode aroung block a couple of times for about 3 miles. Not much for exercise, but also helped daughter take her lofted bed apart and put up the lower bed. That caused the water to drip because of the humidity level.

Need to be at airport by 11-45 to pick up DD1. She won't get any releive from the heat and humidity. It probable was hotter in Texas, but more humid here.

 

[Cruise04]

Hope your dd's have a great time at WDW. It's hard to believe that it is almost time for kids to start heading back to school - good luck on their departure.

And good job on watching the calories, even if it wasn't the most nutritious!!!!

Keep on
Chris

 

[jay-nee]

Still busy, I see!

Good for you tote around on the bike and get it "upgraded" too. I've, personally, been lousy about my exercise and MUST make it a priority again. God, what keeps me from doing that? Argh!

Well, just wanted to stop by and say "hi!" Take care of yourself Kathy. Working out can help with the depression. Break a good sweat each day, ok?

Happy Sunday!

 

[NYcpa]

Goals for today:
Eat healthy
Ride my bike
Drink 64 oz of water
No soda.

Am home until Sunday early afternoon. The girls will be in about midnight tonight from their WDW trip.

Need to go into the office and complete clients tax return and financial statement. He has a prospective buyer for his business and need the stuff by Monday. Of course I am not scheduled to be back into the office until a week later. Should have completed it earlier (originally due March 15 but put it on extension until Sept 15)

 

[Cruise04]

Hope your girls had a good time and you'll be able to spend a bit of time with them tomorrow!!!!

Keep on
Chris

 

[NYcpa]

Today is day one of a new committment to daily exercise. It is the also my first post surgery day where I feel somewhat human. Pain meds are reduced and will hopefully stay that way.

Heat and humidity have made life miserable. Tomorrow, the thick bandage comes off so I can see how many stitches are across the top of my shoulder. Surgery could not be done with scope.

Goals for today -
1. Get Erin enrolled in community college.
2. 60 0z of water
3. 20 min walk
4. Eat healthy.

I somehow managed to add weight while hardly eating since last Wed. Have tried drinking lots of fluids but my body has been absorbing them like a sponge.

Off to geet started. Check in again later.

 

[lajones81]

I hope you have a great day!

 

[Cruise04]

Hope your surgery went well and that the recovery goes good for you. My dad had gained quite a bit of weight after his surgery last fall and a lot of it was, even though he was drinking, he wasn't able to do a lot of moving for a few weeks and all that water sat there. So I hope that doesn't happen but I'll be that's some of it. It will come off after you are able to start really moving around again!!!!

Good luck
Keep on
Chris

 

[jay-nee]

So, why aren't you posting to your journal anymore? Life crazy? Yeah, I know your life is crazy - all those jobs!

Well, I hope you are well. Talk soon!

Happy Tuesday!

 

[NYcpa]

Since I haven't been eating as healthy as I should, I decided to try journaling again. Yesterday I ate about 2/3 of a bag of tootsie roll midgees, 3 peanut butter pumpkins and a batty peppermint patty. If I keep eating like that I will undo everything I have worked hard to lose.

Today was much better eating. I put the remainder of the tootsie rolls in a glass candy jar and placed them on the file cabinet in the farthest corner from my desk. Knowing i was going to fess up to what I ate today, I only had 3.

Food consumed today:
Breakfast - dannon yogurt w/granola
Snack - healthy heart oatmeal raisin bar
Lunch - Chicken Ceasar salad with minimal dressing, diet caffeine free pepsi
Snack - peanut butter pumpkin, 3 tootsie roll midgees
Supper - garlic pasta w/ vegetables, diet caffeine free pepsi

Water consumed today was about 48 oz.

The only thing I have been consistent with is not eating after 8 pm. I am exercising as my back and hip allows following the Marathon for Mortals walk the half marathon program. I agravated my back by changing my gait because of blisters on my little toes while at WDW over Columbus Day weekend. The short vacation was weel worth the pain. I didn't do the cross training last night for 2 reasons, didn't get home until almost 7 and lower back was hurting.

Tomorrow is a 30 min walk at a moderate pace. I can usually walk without much pain. My chiropracter said my back and hip would straighten out faster if I didn't spend so much time sitting. To accomplish that, I would have to hang my desk from the ceiling.

 

[goldcupmom]

Hi, Kathy!

Glad you're getting back on track! I went on the 1 day vanilla tootsie roll diet last week. Tough to not do!

I just bought the Marathoning book, can't wait to start reading it.

Hope you have a GREAT week!!