I'm going to send out some {{{HUGS}}} but also some motherly advice, even though you didn't ask for it (I am a mom, it is something I have no control over):
Begging for a man to spend time with you? Never, ever, ever, ever....EVER lose your pride to the point where you are stooping to the level of begging. Seriously. This is basic stuff.
Hope things work out for you.