Just don't know any more.

[DizFan101]

I just don't know any more.

I thought I had a good relationship with my parents but now it's like they are against me all of a sudden. My mom is now like "It's what you wear that is making you not able to have friends." "its all about what you wear." I don't agree with this and i am now confused about life.

I don't enjoy any thing any more even though there is a small spark of Disney left but I honestly think there is more to life than disney (no offense).

I just for some reason started tthinking about whether or not i was successful in life and don't know why. I just don't know. My parents threw me out of the house because they fail to understand what I am going through. THey just think it's an excuse not to do something.

Every time I look @ an object like my Mickey Mouse lens cleaner I just remember vividly the backstory of it and actually see everything like it is happening now. I also vividly see how i used to be and everything. Like I was walking home yesterday and i just see us walking to hte back yard after going to the fireworks display @ my grandma's. I just wish these images / memories would just stop so I can just get on with my life and be the old me.

my parents think I don't WANT to have fun. The fact is that I don't know how to have fun w/o thinkin g people are juding me.

Even if i do go out in the end, I still feel like I do nothing all day... I just don't know why i feel like this. Everything agitates me and I just don't know any more. I guess it started when I found forums that I no longer can tell emotions of what people say/mean. I don't trust any body any more and really don't believe in science or religion. I mean things are always changing in science. The dr's on "the Dr's" say now that having 8 glasses of water is bad for you! I just am sooo confused I don't know who to believe any more. I don't even believe in me...

I just remember all the memories of Disney with my mom of going every year since high school which was in 2005. I just want the memories to stop so I can enjoy things again. but it's the fact that my parents are getting older and i'm the same....but worse.

My brother moved across the country because he stated he couldn't take the way I am. I have no idea. I have always been nice to him but he's the one that actually starts stuff. But then in my mind, I just feel like he moved away so he wouldn't have to deal with my parents when they get older. I don't know why my mind went to this.

I know you guys can only listen. I am trying to get back on my feet with therapist who acts like a freaking stuck up teenager.....

 

[smitch425]

I just don't know any more.

I thought I had a good relationship with my parents but now it's like they are against me all of a sudden. My mom is now like "It's what you wear that is making you not able to have friends." "its all about what you wear." I don't agree with this and i am now confused about life.

I don't enjoy any thing any more even though there is a small spark of Disney left but I honestly think there is more to life than disney (no offense).

I just for some reason started tthinking about whether or not i was successful in life and don't know why. I just don't know. My parents threw me out of the house because they fail to understand what I am going through. THey just think it's an excuse not to do something.

Every time I look @ an object like my Mickey Mouse lens cleaner I just remember vividly the backstory of it and actually see everything like it is happening now. I also vividly see how i used to be and everything. Like I was walking home yesterday and i just see us walking to hte back yard after going to the fireworks display @ my grandma's. I just wish these images / memories would just stop so I can just get on with my life and be the old me.

my parents think I don't WANT to have fun. The fact is that I don't know how to have fun w/o thinkin g people are juding me.

Even if i do go out in the end, I still feel like I do nothing all day... I just don't know why i feel like this. Everything agitates me and I just don't know any more. I guess it started when I found forums that I no longer can tell emotions of what people say/mean. I don't trust any body any more and really don't believe in science or religion. I mean things are always changing in science. The dr's on "the Dr's" say now that having 8 glasses of water is bad for you! I just am sooo confused I don't know who to believe any more. I don't even believe in me...

I just remember all the memories of Disney with my mom of going every year since high school which was in 2005. I just want the memories to stop so I can enjoy things again. but it's the fact that my parents are getting older and i'm the same....but worse.

My brother moved across the country because he stated he couldn't take the way I am. I have no idea. I have always been nice to him but he's the one that actually starts stuff. But then in my mind, I just feel like he moved away so he wouldn't have to deal with my parents when they get older. I don't know why my mind went to this.

I know you guys can only listen. I am trying to get back on my feet with therapist who acts like a freaking stuck up teenager.....

I am sorry you are still so down. I have a suggestion for you, though. Try volunteering at a soup kitchen or maybe even do some work with the Big Brothers, Big Sisters program in your area. I think being around other people who are facing tough times of their own might help you to put things in perspective. I find that doing volunteer work is very beneficial to those I am helping and gives me a great feeling to know I could help someone out. Sometimes you have to just wake up and say "Today is going to be different. I control my own destiny." Even though you might not be able to change what is going on around you, you CAN change how you choose to respond to it.

 

[mommasita]

to you.

I am sorry for everything you are going through. I have not idea if you have or are interested in a third (unbiased) party. Perhaps they would give you some honest input, being removed from the situation? I would ask my GP for a referral.