Julie's continual struggle (WW thread - comments VERY welcome!!)

[goldcupmom]

Went to fencing, dropped DD off so I could run and meet DS to help him buy Green Day concert tickets. Got about a mile away and she called. She forgot to bring fencing shoes, so no fencing tonight which means we may need to go Thurs when I need to be setting up my GSale. Oh well....

Did get a quick WalMart grocery run in and stopped at Sam's for milk. DS was done with gym and hungry so talked me into buying a 2 1/2 lb block of chipotle cheddar cheese, some chicken jalapeno salsa sausages (these I might be able to try, 2 pts eacha and they are bigger than a hot dog) and a tray of shrimp cocktail. DD and I had stopped at Keva and I had a smoothie (4) and then had 5 shrimp with DS (2). I still have 4 pts and I'm not sure what I want. I found some SF Rice pudding cups at WM so might have one of those (2) and the best news.....

SAMS now has individual bags of BAKED LAYS!!!!!!! YIPPEE!!!!!!!! I was dancin in the aisles! 2 pts a bag and they are my fav

I'm gonna get some sleep tonight even if I have to take some benadryl to do it.

Talked to DSis today and she is starting to lose her hair. Said she cried this morning, but is better tonight. She's off work tomorrow and going to get a very short cut. Said her white count is low so they're giving her antibiotics until next Chemo a week from tomorrow. Not real low, just a little. Other than that she's doing well. Not really been tired or anything. She can't look at it as 14wks to go she is just telling herself 5 more times. soon 4 more.

Lots to do tomorrow so best get today's list done.

 

[goldcupmom]

Today is my liquid day and I'm afraid it's not going to be easy. Last night was a bit better sleep, but still only about 5 hours. Got up, stepped on the scale and all was good, still the same, double checked and the same. Less than 30 min later stepped on again before I showered and was UP FOUR POUNDS!!!! I HATE my body! I feel really ick today so MAYBE there will finally be TOM.

REALLY depressing as WI is tomorrow. I missed last week and the week before I was up .4.

I'm exercising , eating all my points, drinking my water and nothing seems to be happening. I tried on clothes yesterday and can't see a difference in any. I will keep going, but at this moment in time, a big binge on sweets then anything I can find sounds really good. I won't tho. I just can't.

I have 38 days until we get on the train. I REALLY REALLY want to hit my WW 10% by then. Officially on their scale 167.6. That is likely 167 or a bit less on my scale. Seems like FOREVER away at this moment. I'm not sure I can even make that realistically. When I started WISH I had 94 days to go. In 56 days I've lost a whopping 2.8 lbs. UGH!!! That is SO SLOW!!!!! About a pound a month.

I'm having my decaf w/ ff creamer now. Later I'll have a Kashi for breakfast. Today will be a mixture of Kashi & Keva until I've used my 22 pts. I can have a total of 5 + my revival soy. Just need to space them so I don't get hungry and binge.

OK, time to get off my pity party and get things done. As long as I don't chew today I'll stay on track.

 

[goldcupmom]

Did my 3 mi WATP, got in my water, had 2 Kashi(8), 1 Keva(5), 1 starbucks decaf nonfat (6) and 2 slices lt bread 2 turkey (2).

Tonight the scale was better. I'm hoping it will be for WI tomorrow. At least let me lost the .4 I gained 2 wks ago. I've been totally cheat free, exercising 6x/wk. Something has to go eventually, doesn't it????

 

[pearlieq]

Sending your way--can't wait to hear how your weigh-in goes!

It sounds like you're making an honest effort to be healthier, whether or not the scale cooperates. Are you feeling any other signs--extra energy, looser clothes? Anything to take the focus of that darn scale!

I hope things go well for you--have a great day!

 

[goldcupmom]

Just back from WI. I was in such a hurry as I've got so much to do before I pick DD up at school that I'm 99.9% certain I forgot to take my shoes off. It hit me when I was half way home. I've never weighed w/ shoes before.

According to their scale I'm down 1 lb. Not a lot, but something. It took me 3 wks to take of .6, but at least it's off, not on.

Their scale is usually about .6 higher than mine, but I actually saw for a fleeting moment 169.5 this morning. Really was 170 unclothed, 170.5 dressed for WW and there 172. I'm pretty certain shoes were involved, so hopefully will be a change next week. I need a pound a week to make my 10% by our trip. Doesn't sound like much, but it is for me.

Just having breakfast - kashi & yogurt 4. Today is DD last day of school and I'm picking her up at noon and going out to lunch, then home to work on GSale for tomorrow. Not sure where she will want to go, but I'm thinking Zio's. I love their salad with artichoke & shrimp. It's 10 pts if I ate it all, but I can't do that at once, so will be lunch & dinner if I win the choice.

Off to package ebay stuff. I'll do the 3 mi WATP sometime today. I was going to do Walk Kick but decided it was only 30 min and I need shorter tomorrow.

 

[pearlieq]

Yay! Congrats on your loss! Every pound helps!!!

Hope you have a great lunch!

 

[calena]

Congrats on the loss. It is hard when it goes slow, but remember, a loss is a loss.

 

[goldcupmom]

Today was NOT as planned. Picked DD up at school and she thought we were going to the zoo. After much cajoling, I agreed to a QUICK zoo trip. Went to mail my pkgs, grabbed a subway wrap. Got to the zoo about 12:30. Told her we had to be leaving by 3. Walked out of the zoo at 2:45 and my bug wouldn't start. Tried to first, then silence. I figured I was locked out of the security key. Called the dealer, no. Called the roadside assist and they called popalock to jump me. They arrived at 4. Didn't work. Called back, they called a tow truck which arrived at 6. Meantime the zoo closed. We sat outside with my water jug and a small bag of sunchips we shared. Fortunately the tow driver could take us with him to the dealer. w/ traffic arrived at the dealer at 6:50- they closed at 7. By the time we finished paperwork was almost 7:30. Their last shuttle leaves at 5 p.m. Called DS19 and he was able to get us as DH is in phoenix and we had no way to get home. Walked to Cracker barrel across the interstate to get food to go. Promised DS19 food and $5 gas money. all DD had all day was the sub, a cookie and chips, + water. I had my breakfast, wrap and cookie, so wasn't doing much better.

Finally made it home about 8:15, inhaled way more food than I needed - pepper jack chicken, hash brown casserole, green beans, carrots and even a biscuit. But at this point, I really don't care. I've done NOTHING to get my Garage Sale set up and won't til morning. I'm sunburned. Sat outside - it was almost 90 today. There was shade, but not much. We did walk for about 2 hours at the zoo, but I didn't do any other exercise. Oh well......

Tomorrow has to be better. I don't know what all the food will do to my weight, but it can't be too bad. If it is, today I don't care anyway.

It's still almost 85 in my house and DH hasn't yet hooked up our swamp cooler, so no way to cool off. I had DS15 get my window fan out. Hopefully it will help. I'm gonna go take a cold shower and SLEEP!!

 

[goldcupmom]

Worked on the garage sale from about 5:30a.m. and it is ready for tomorrow, the real day. Stayed open today til about noon, but it is 93 here and nearly that in my house.

Breakfast was 2 burritos w/ wheat tortillas and egg beaters w/ a smidge of salsa(4). ( I made poor DS15 ride his cycle to Albertson's at 8 this morning to buy me egg beaters so I could have them - what a good kid) Lunch a roll up w/ the flat out low carb bread (4) and a bag of baked lays (2). And 2 caffeine free, diet mountain dew.

My ice maker in the fridge just can't keep up with my demand today. And my car won't be done til at least Monday. They won't even get to look at it til late today or Mon. So, DD and I are stranded here til DH gets home about midnight. Not sure what dinner will be. It's too hot to eat, but don't have any cool foods like salad, melon, etc (or ICE CREAM) in the house. I'd love for DS15 to be able to bring us something cold, but I just can't imagine ice cream in his backpack on the cycle. Oh well..... Hope this heat wave passes soon. I usually don't turn my swamp cooler on til mid june and I sure would today if it were hooked up!

TOM finally arrived. Only 3+ weeks late. Gee, I love mid life!

DD and I watched Phantom this afternoon and lazed around. HAve a bit more to dig out tonight for the sale and hopefully early to bed if we can sleep in the heat. We need to be out at the sale around 6 a.m. I've got to have DH find our misters and hang by the garage. Tomorrow is supposed to be even hotter.

Have a great weekend guys! I'm off to try to convince myself that I CAN exercise even when the thermostat in my house just passed 95. UGH!!!!!

9 p.m.

Well I did my 3 mi WATP and the temp passed 100 in the house. I kept an ice block like for the cooler with me and kept putting it on my back held by my waistband and holding it on my neck. I just about melted.

Had a pretzel(6 for dinner) then some chips & meringue cookies(2).

I got brave enough to add up the crackerbarrel from yesterday. YIKES!!! I was 12 pts over. But since I don't use my flex pts and have 35/week, I'm not going to sweat it.

I feel really huge tonight. The heat is taking it's toll in water retention despite my having 128 oz water and 24 oz caffeine free diet pop, plus a cup of decaf coffee this morning. I'm afraid I'm gonna be up all night in the bathroom.

It's still 81 out and the thermostat finally dipped below 95 in here.

Gotta get up EARLY for the GSale. I think I'll go buy ice and some donuts so DD can sell pop and donuts tomorrow. I'll have to go REALLY early tho. And I can't imagine eating donuts in the heat, I think I'd rather have something that will stick with my instead of sugar..... hopefully my resolve will last.

More tomorrow if I have the energy.

 

[goldcupmom]

GSale is over. Ok, not great, but I made about $168 for FL, so not bad. I'm sitting here on my computer watching the temp climb. When I sat down less than 10 min ago it was 88, it's now 94 and climbing (this is the official school weatherbug from up the hill about 4 blocks)

DH is home, exhausted from his trip - sat in class from 9 - 4 then off to eat & the bar. Oh well. He slept til noon when DD woke him to take her to the amusement park w/ her cousin. He's finally getting our swamp cooler up and running. Praise the Lord!!!

I probably won't exercise today as I really don't feel like dealing with the criticism. I need to run to the grocery and I'm going to bed early tonight.

I gave in to the donut (5), had a small muffin (3) and then the realtor sponsoring the sales (67 in my neighborhood) brought homemade chocolate chip cookies(4). I had one. Other than that I've had water.

I'm going to buy some salad stuff and have that w/ grilled chicken for dinner. I think.

This heat is supposed to break by Tues and be in the mid 70's by next weekend. Thank goodness!

 

[goldcupmom]

Ran to costco, ate 2 rollups on the way home (6). Decided to take a bath and just got in when DD called and DH left to get her so I decided I needed to be good and exercise instead. Did the WATP walk kick.

Not sure what else I'll have tonight. probably salad as it's really hot!

 

[goldcupmom]

Not sure what today will bring. Breakfast was Kashi & yogurt(4). Not sure about lunch or dinner. Today is my 23 anniversary. We might go out to eat toinght. DH hasn't said anything yet.

I need to clean out my garage and get things done in the house. Now I can really begin my FL countdown and start getting ready. 34 days to go. Exercise is doubtful, but I will if I get the chance.

Lunch was flat out bread with ff chz and peach mango salsa (4)

Still no idea about dinner. I'm almost done with laundry and need to go start cleaning up the garage. I'm still VERY tired. I had hoped to go to bed early, but when I wanted to at about 8:30 DH complained and said 'if you go to bed who will take care of the animals and kids'. So he went to bed at 8:45 and I at 10:30. I was up at 5:30, he at 8, then he went back to bed at 9:30 and got up at noon. Since he has a job for pay and I don't, I guess I don't need sleep. Oh well.....

 

[pearlieq]

Hi!

Happy anniversary! I hope you two have a wonderful night. Congrats on 23 years!!!

Your lunch sounds so yummy! I'll have to try something like that...

 

[goldcupmom]

Went to Asado for dinner. A brazilian grill. I'm not a meat person, but it was good. Big salad bar then they bring like 20 kinds of meats on skewers and slice you off a piece of whatever you want. I tried turkey w/ rosemary - didn't like so had a small taste. Chicken, took the skin off - maybe an ounce. Pork w/ parmesan. too dry - just a taste. Filet in bacon. Ate 2 pieces about 1 oz each. Bottom sirloin. Just a taste - too rich - more like a prime rib. DH tried everything. Then he needed ice cream. Coldstone creamery was next door. I had a small sinless sugar & fat free sweet cream w/ blueberries. He had a Large full of everything with strawberries. Don't know how he could hold it. Tracking my points I had 13 @ dinner. So within my points for the day. No exercise other than disassembling the garage sale. Had to count for something.

tomorrow I will let DD sleep in, but starting Tues we will walk every morning. Last summer we used to get up and walk in the desert - not something either of us should do alone. It's about a 4 mile path we take. I want to do it a couple times a week at least.

Time for sleep!

 

[joelyfaithsmommy]

Hi Julie,

First I wanted to say THANK YOU for making me feel so very welcome here! I was reading your journal and through reading it I realized my life isnt' as stressed as I think...other people have stresses too, and this is a boost to me...so thank you again

Moreover, I'm so impressed with your overall attitude to your life, your diet, and your goals...and still you find encouragement for others...amazing!

You are truly a woman to be looked up to, and I thank you for being here and sharing your life with all of us, but more so, I thank you for sharing a piece of yourself...your journal was so very personal, and to me, that's what made it so encouraging, and energizing!

I hope to continue to get to know you and call you my friend!

**looking up to Julie because she's the bomb!**

~Jen

 

[goldcupmom]

You're too sweet, Jen!

Breakfast was Kashi & yogurt again(4). Just a cool breakfast when it's so hot. Almost like ice cream!

Lunch I've gotta have another flat out w/ ff chz and the mango peach salsa(4). it is SO good I'll have to make a special trip across town to Costco to buy more.

Not sure about dinner as I'm doing the fencing run tonight and probably taking Mia to Yappy Hour.

Just did the 4 Mi WATP for the first time. It wasn't near as bad as I thought it would be. Now I can mix up my workouts. 55 min is more than I have time for most days, but the 3 mi is 46+ min, so not that much more.

Off to have lunch and run errands. Today I'm going to officially start packing for FL. YIPPEE!!!

DD and I leave in 33 days ( and hopefully I'll have my new clippie soon and my WW 10% by the time we go!)

 

[goldcupmom]

Today promises to be interesting......

Got the bug back yesterday... FINALLY ....they said 3 things in my electrical system had failed, plus they did 2 recalls. Took DD to fencing, came out, and the little button I depress on my shifter was GONE!! Finally found it, got it in place so I could drive home, by the time I got home it had fallen out again and I couldn't put it into park. Called DH from the driveway and he brought a flashlight and finally got it in place so we could park. Then we found a greasy board on the leather seat in back, 2 rubber caps to somewhere and a plastic plate/cap thing with a cord attached and numbers on it. HMMMMM.........I can't WAIT to call the dealer!!

My washing machine is leaking - from the tub. Noticed water this weekend, just a bit, had DH move it out and it has apparently been leaking a while. The floor is COVERED with goo, mold, etc. Fortunately it's at the lower level, so concrete floors under the tile. It's a Maytag and only 10 yrs old, but I'd bet it's a goner. My home warranty people can't come out til Wed morn. At least whatever the problem is, even if replaced, it will only cost me $45.

Had Keva on the way to fencing last night and a roll up from Costco when I got home at 9, so under by 1 pt yesterday.

Tomorrow is my liquid day, so I'l likely have a lot of protein today, not positive, but I am having burritos for breakfast (4). I'm sure if there is any peach mango salsa left I"ll have to have that with something for lunch.

Need to cancel DD's dentist appt for Wed as it is at fencing time. Off to chew some VW butt!

 

[joelyfaithsmommy]

Wow, sounds like one of my days! LOL

Well, hang in there, it can only get better, RIGHT?

So, what is this peach salsa you keep talking about??? Sounds INTERESTING!

 

[goldcupmom]

Well, that was fun........NOT!!

Took the bug back to the dealer. As i parked the shifter button fell off again. Handed it to the service guy. The head of service came out, sat in the car, shoved the button in, then again REALLY HARD. Got it STUCK!!! So no hope of getting the car into park. Could turn in off in neutral, but key won't come out. Got the head service guy who said he could fix it. BROKE it off trying. So they decided I needed a rental car, fine. Took me to Enterprise and dropped DD and I off. They had NO cars. Went to lunch across the street at Sweet Tomatoes (11 pts) dilly dallied around, went back. Still no cars and they were 36 cars short. Said we could sit for another couple of hours and maybe something would show up. Called VW again. They got us took us back to the dealer. An hour later someone returned their VW rental and we got it. So, another 5+ hours gone with the car saga. They have no idea how long it will take to get an entire shift assembly in. Such is life. As long as I have transportation and it's covered by warranty, I really don't care.

Need to exercise and catch up on Ebay tonight. Won't get anything else done. Not sure what dinner will be, but not a lot - I have 8 pts left but am stuffed.

Had almost 2x my normal water, so far. DD is timing me and says I'm now in the bathroom every 7 minutes Oh well.....

 

[joelyfaithsmommy]

sorry about your bug

super about the water intake though!

it'll get better! it always does

hugzzz
jen