It was one year ago today (July 2nd) that....

[Mishetta]

I lost my Mom to Bone Marrow Cancer. I can't believe it's been that long & yet it feels like I haven't heard her voice or touched her for at least 10 years. I miss her so very much.

Even after she passed on, I still sat next to her bedside & held her hand tightly (as if I could bring her back) for about 2 hours. My family made me leave shortly after that. She died looking at me & her eyes remained open. I don't think anyone could know the pain I'm in, unless they've lost their Mom. There are no words to describe the big hole in my heart & the deep pain or longing just to hear her voice again, or to have breakfast together again, like we did everyday for 43 years.

Be kind to your Mother. Call her & tell her you love her if there is distance between you (whether geographical or emotional) because one day she'll be gone. I'm so grateful for the closeness my Mom & I shared all our lives together. I hope I'll have that same relationship with my boys as they grow.

 

[tiggersmom2]

I'm sorry you are hurting I had my 10 year old son read your post - he told me he loved me.

 

[Dan Murphy]

's Rose

 

[Hillbeans]

I lost my mother to gallbladder cancer last August. She was 66.

I spent most of last summer at the hospital. I vividly remember last 4th of July in the Hospital and I remember how weird it was on such a great holiday to be so sad.

Try and think of the good times. I know it's hard some days when something happens and you want to pick up the phone to just talk to her about it, but that doesn't mean she's not here in spirit.

Your mother and you are in my thoughts and prayers.

 

[fantasymagic]

I am so sorry. I lost my mom 2 years ago, and I know it's the little memories that sneak up on you that hurt. Try to be comforted in knowing you were such a good daughter and your mother was blessed to have you.

 

[minniecarousel]

I am so grateful that my DM lives with DH & I. She had a triple by-pass 3 years ago at the age of 84. Sometimes we feel like she's living on "borrowed" time. We have a lot of fun together. I'm glad she's still up for some adventures!

 

[Lezah]

Hugs to you Rose, I know how hard that all the firsts are after a loved one passes, first birthday, first Thanksgiving, first Christmas, and first anniversary of the passing, etc. I'm so glad that you were able to be with her til the end. I hope that you can find solace in the loving memories of the closeness that you have with your Mom. My thoughts and prayers are with you on this difficult day.

 

[Lars624]

 

[snoopy]

I've been where you are, my friend.

I'm so sorry you are hurting. I can tell you it does get easier with time. We never stop missing our Moms, but it does get easier to concentrate on the happier memories.

I'm here if you need a shoulder, Mishetta.

 

[kimber79]

 

[cati]

I am sorry for your loss and that you are hurting. I wish there was something I could do.

 

[Robinrs]

Oh, Rose...

I cannot believe it's already been a year! How vividly I remember your website, your posts, you so complete love and reverance for your Mom.

God bless you,

You KNOW I KNOW....

Robinrs

 

[helenabear]

I know that pain... been over 10 years with my mom. They do live on in your heart though I can't believe it has already been a year for you, Rose. My heart goes out to you....

 

[Feralpeg]

I so understand. I lost my Mom when she was only 49 years old. I was just 23. Everytime I hear one of my DDs friends say something bad about their moms, I just think how lucky I was to have such a good relationship with my mom, even if it was for too short a time. Thank goodness, I have the same type of relationship with my darling daughter.

Please know that my thoughts are with you!

 

[Microcell]

I lost my mom when I was 16 and that hole is still so big almost 16 years later. I just told my Dh (whom I met when I was 16 just after she died) that I have had him longer than my own mom. It kind of makes me sad, but I would not have met him if she had not passed- everything happens for a reason.

 

[dizneenut]

I'm sorry your hurting, Rose. I can't believe its been a year already. I'm here if you ever need someone to talk to.

 

[chell]

 

[Micca]

I'm sure you'll get through this. I'm sorry it's so difficult.

 

[Pin Wizard]

Hugs for you, Rose!! Now I understand why you've been so quiet recently. I'm sorry you're hurting so much. You and your Mom were so close. My Mom is gone 10 years now and my Dad 13 years. I miss them so much. Blessings to you!!

 

[Mishetta]

Thank you all for your encouragement & hugs. I really appreciate it.

Robinrs ~ I still remember you wrote such a beautiful message on my Mom's funeral website (thru the funeral home). I printed them all out & will someday share with my children. I had many DIS friends who posted, but I especially remember your post.

Sherry & Sandy ~ I'll be in touch soon. It's just been difficult doing the easiest things lately.

Snoopy ~ I remember how comforting you were too during my most difficult time.

Dan ~ you are my hero. You were so sweet to pass on my sad news & to pass on the website info one year ago.

Also, I don't know if any of you remember, but I had such an incredible experience as my Mom was passing into eternity...that my Dad (who died in 1968) & my Mom both joined me in the corridor of the hallway & walked me (carried me) up to my Mom's room while she was taking her last few breaths & then my Mom & Dad stood in the corner of the room giving me the most serene feeling I've ever experienced, as she was pronounced dead. I know that was a gift from God. After that experience, I'm no longer afraid of dying as I know for a fact that there is an afterlife. I was a witness to it.