Is anyone else feeling 'out of sorts' right now?

[wovenwonder]

I am normally a VERY outwardly emotional person. I was really dreading how I was going to react once the war started. Coupled with the fact that I am terrified of terrorist attacks again -- I was really worried that I would curl up in a ball and lose it.

Last wednesday evening I went to bed at 9:30pm and was so greatful that I missed the 'announcement'. I woke up well rested and when I heard the news I just felt like I was in a fog. Like it was an out of body experience. I moved around like that for the rest of the week. Non emotional --- not at all like my normal self.

Sunday I headed to Kmart by myself -- and I was really looking forward to going. I was shopping for ME (something I don't normally do too much), the weather was beautiful. I cranked the music, put on the sunglasses and was ready to go. About half way there I felt a panic attack coming over me. I've never really had one before --- but all of a suddend I felt very panicked. I took some deep breaths and calmed myself down. I wasn't even thinking of anything unpleasent. It happened again and I had to pull over. On the way home it happened twice -- and the second time I couldn't calm myself down -- and called my DH to come pick me up.

You have to understand that I am a very confident, independent person -- and this is SO UNLIKE me! Finally on sunday night -- I broke down and cryed buckets. Last night I went to bed at 7pm (I've been feeling emotional/physical exhaustion). I feel much better today. BUT -- I haven't walked on my TM since last Wednesday. I never linked the start of the war with my desire to not excersize --- but it is probably all related.

I have the TV on in the LR (so I can hear if there is any breaking news) but I am not sitting in front of it in my office like I was last week. I need to get away from it -- for my own sanity!

I've been spending way to much time on these boards -- but have trouble getting inspired to do anything else! And it doesn't help that they boards have been rather slow lately (in posting) but maybe it just appears that way since I am visiting so much!



Is anyone else feeling 'different' the past week?

 

[nativetxn]

{{{HUGS}}} sweetie. I'm sorry this has you so upset. I felt like you describe (sans panic attacks) after 9/11/01 but for some reason I don't feel all that upset since last Wednesday.

I'm glad you've been on the DIS a lot

 

[Pin Wizard]

Yes, that pretty much sums it up. Only on my drive home from school today, I cried instead of panicked. I was up until 2:30 a.m. thanks to a racoon making noise on my roof. Then up at 6:00. A whopping 3.5 hours of sleep. I tend to stay up too late rather than hit the hay early. But I do feel out of sorts. I have a friend that is deployed, another friend who knew somone in one of the helicopter crashes. Then there's school, and I have zero concentration!

 

[bsnyder]

I had a bout with depression after 9/11, which is very unlike me. Thankfully, I've moved passed it, and I hope you can do the same with the panic attacks, wovenwonder. I do think keeping busy, staying with your normal routine, and keeping good exercize/sleep/eating habits do help a lot!

I'm defniitely one to obsess over the news when there are important events. I'll sit in front of the tv/computer for hours on end, reading and listening to ever word. But I've come to realize that it's not very healthy (for me, at least) and that I have to limit my exposure.

 

[Annie&Hallie'sMom]

"Out of Sorts" is the best way to describe it. Whenever I don't feel "right" and can't put my finger on exactly what's wrong, that's what I tell my husband.

I've been feeling that way on and off for the past week or so. Most times I'm my usual sunny self. But then there are times...I'm not depressed...I'm not sad...I'm slightly apprehensive...just not right.

You are not alone Wovenwonder. And remember you have friends to rely on when you're feeling bad.

 

[delswife]

Do you happen to be an artist?
Thats what people have been saying to me when I tell them how I have been feeling. "Your an artist, your overly emotional anyway"
I have my first panic attack in YEARS when this started. I believe alot of people are felling the same way. You are sooo not alone.
My DH was in the 82nd Airborne and when he's home the news is on constantly. My DS is still in tech school and when I speak to him and we talk about war, he keeps saying "9-11 mom, 9-11 never forget, thats why I'm here."
Now, let me tell you, I am one of "those" mothers who didnt allow thier kids to have hard candy until they were 13 yrs. old! Very over-protetive. And now my baby is in the military!!!!
Thank goodness for these boards! It helps me get through the day.

{{{{Hugs}}}} to you. We are in this together.

 

[Pembo]

Thanks for pointing me in this direction from my thread. I too have been feeling out of sorts. I have a lot going in my life but this war thing is really waying heavily on me. I'm glad I have my DIS friends to lean on!

 

[FantasticDisFamily]

That is a good way to describe it. I haven't had the panic attack but as my husband describes it, I've had a lot of "dust" in my eyes as I've listened to news reports. And I just can't seem to get things in gear - not accomplishing the things I should be.

Normally I'm really on top of things during the first week of a term. This time it is the basics and not much more, although I've been hanging out on the boards quite a bit!

Deb

 

[Hannosmom]

((((Hugs)))) to you Jody, I know how you feel. I can' t even listen to the news, I actually come on these boards to get news. Lol Reading the news without sound or pictures allows me to take all the awful stuff in without causing a total meltdown.

Sometimes a good cry really helps. Dan Murphy's thread with pictures and music really helped get rid of some of my pent up stress! (Thank-you, Dan)

So, whenever you can and as often as you can, turn off the tv, fix yourself something special to drink and go sit outside and listen to the birds.

Linda

 

[DStar4cup]

I know how everyone is feeling. I haven't had panic attacks but feel as if I have a severe case of the Blues. I make out list of things that I need to get done but can't seem to get focused on them. I did finally make it to the grocery store. I think mine is due to the war and also withdrawal from our trip.