DollfieDreams
<font color=navy>...thinks riku is sexy<font color
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before you laugh at me and crown me queen of the losers...hear me out...
im having...male species problems...
yeah okay...laugh..
i am too...but i'll get serious for a moment.
theres this guy (big surprise there) that i see maybe every 3-4 months at the anime conventions i go to around florida. hes the sweetest guy ive ever met. i mean, hes so polite and practices chivalry which has been dead...since...forever. how i met him is a long story. but its 4:29 in the morning and ive got time.
(if you wanna get to the problem...skip that big rant of a paragraph you see below...)
we were on our way to miami last december when our van was in desperate need of oil and we had just recently gotten out of alligator alley so we had still a ways to go. we pulled over at a rest stop and began the "im cute and i need oil" begging routine around the parking lot. two guys (about my brothers age which was 20 at the time) came over and started talking to us because they noticed our van which was highly decorated in window chalk. people were taking...pictures. anyway, they started helping us find oil which yay! we did. but i dont quite remember his name but we call him oscar because he was wearing an oscar the grouch t-shirt, he invited us to meet him up at the con when we got there. so blah blah blah, drive drive drive.
my friend was walking around the dealers room when oscar noticed her and pulled her over to meet one of his friends (ding ding ding, yep..thats *him*) who works for a sword dealer. his name was andy and the first thing out of my friends mouth was "oh my god, my friend(me) would love your hair!"....i have a thing for long hair...1.he's asian and looks good in kimonos. 2. hes got long black hair. oh yes...anyway, he said he was flattered and that she should bring me to meet him. well...i had another friend, amber, whom "loves me to death" but also loves to make my life miserable, and was overhearing my friend, caitlin telling me about andy. she decided to meet him first, and he thought she was me. she got to play with his hair...yeah...that was the last straw for me...
to get to my problem, i really like him. no ones EVER been that kind to me and we barely even talk. i dont think he recognizes me half the time i see him because im always in different costumes with different colored hair. when we speak to him its usually my brother doing the talking, im too shy to ever say anything. i dont even think he knows my name. he just knows me as "josh's sister..." my friend caitlin had this joke with me about finding me a "husband" at one of the cons, and since everyone knows about my asian/long hair obsession, he was the perfect target to tease me with. amber, my other friend, hates it. she constantly makes up (well...we think they're made up) things that hes told her like "out of all of your friends, i think youre the most compatible with me" just to make me upset. shes cried over him before. and had the nerve to tell me "you just dont understand, youll never like him as much as i do!"...that breaks my heart.
i get to see him in some 20 odd days and she will be there too...its just heart-breaking to have to be in the same room with him. i dont know anything about him, but i feel like ive known him from somewhere before. i dont know what to do. i dont want to confront amber about it, i cant do that, because that wouldnt be being a friend, and theres no way i can talk to him.
ive never been the pretty girl, or the one that gets all the guys. im 16 and ive never had a boyfriend, been on a date, anything, and ive never had a "crush" like this before. im not ashamed about it, im just...picky. besides, guys usually dont like me. im the one thats nice to everyone...and in the end is the one alone. i dont know what to do.
any advice or laughs in my face will be taken to heart and im sorry for ranting so much. this is actually the first time ive told anyone about my little dilemma.
im having...male species problems...
yeah okay...laugh..
i am too...but i'll get serious for a moment.theres this guy (big surprise there) that i see maybe every 3-4 months at the anime conventions i go to around florida. hes the sweetest guy ive ever met. i mean, hes so polite and practices chivalry which has been dead...since...forever. how i met him is a long story. but its 4:29 in the morning and ive got time.
(if you wanna get to the problem...skip that big rant of a paragraph you see below...)we were on our way to miami last december when our van was in desperate need of oil and we had just recently gotten out of alligator alley so we had still a ways to go. we pulled over at a rest stop and began the "im cute and i need oil" begging routine around the parking lot. two guys (about my brothers age which was 20 at the time) came over and started talking to us because they noticed our van which was highly decorated in window chalk. people were taking...pictures. anyway, they started helping us find oil which yay! we did. but i dont quite remember his name but we call him oscar because he was wearing an oscar the grouch t-shirt, he invited us to meet him up at the con when we got there. so blah blah blah, drive drive drive.
my friend was walking around the dealers room when oscar noticed her and pulled her over to meet one of his friends (ding ding ding, yep..thats *him*) who works for a sword dealer. his name was andy and the first thing out of my friends mouth was "oh my god, my friend(me) would love your hair!"....i have a thing for long hair...1.he's asian and looks good in kimonos. 2. hes got long black hair. oh yes...anyway, he said he was flattered and that she should bring me to meet him. well...i had another friend, amber, whom "loves me to death" but also loves to make my life miserable, and was overhearing my friend, caitlin telling me about andy. she decided to meet him first, and he thought she was me. she got to play with his hair...yeah...that was the last straw for me...
to get to my problem, i really like him. no ones EVER been that kind to me and we barely even talk. i dont think he recognizes me half the time i see him because im always in different costumes with different colored hair. when we speak to him its usually my brother doing the talking, im too shy to ever say anything. i dont even think he knows my name. he just knows me as "josh's sister..." my friend caitlin had this joke with me about finding me a "husband" at one of the cons, and since everyone knows about my asian/long hair obsession, he was the perfect target to tease me with. amber, my other friend, hates it. she constantly makes up (well...we think they're made up) things that hes told her like "out of all of your friends, i think youre the most compatible with me" just to make me upset. shes cried over him before. and had the nerve to tell me "you just dont understand, youll never like him as much as i do!"...that breaks my heart.
i get to see him in some 20 odd days and she will be there too...its just heart-breaking to have to be in the same room with him. i dont know anything about him, but i feel like ive known him from somewhere before. i dont know what to do. i dont want to confront amber about it, i cant do that, because that wouldnt be being a friend, and theres no way i can talk to him.
ive never been the pretty girl, or the one that gets all the guys. im 16 and ive never had a boyfriend, been on a date, anything, and ive never had a "crush" like this before. im not ashamed about it, im just...picky. besides, guys usually dont like me. im the one thats nice to everyone...and in the end is the one alone. i dont know what to do.
any advice or laughs in my face will be taken to heart and im sorry for ranting so much. this is actually the first time ive told anyone about my little dilemma.
i'll TRY and talk to him...try...thats a very..big..word..
