My best friend is getting married in October. This is the motivation for my weight loss. I went to the bridal store with the skinny bridesmaids and I couldn't try on the sample dresses because they wouldn't even fit over my hips if i tried. On my 2 hour trip back to Connecticut I cried almost the whole way home.
I have never had a problem with my body image. I have never had a problem being naked in front of my boyfriend. Sometimes I don't like the way I look in clothes, but i just put something else on and move on.
I went to the gyno in January and got weighed. 201... I wanted to die. My highest weight ever... Thinking about the feelings I was having now makes me want to cry. A couple of weeks ago I hit 209 and that was it. I wanted to cut off one of my big fat legs so I could lose and instant 50 pounds.
I started weight watchers 2 weeks ago at 207. Monday at my first weigh in I was 1 pound lighter. Not happy, but not killing myself over it.
Today is Thursday, April 20, 2006. I weight 206 pounds. I am leaving for Disney World in 3 days. I have never been happier about my life and sadder about my weight all at the same time.
I am working on the new me. I am hoping to keep the happy part and just lose some weight. I don't wish to weigh 110 pounds or anything. I think 150 will be just fine...
No one knows any of this. My boyfriend knows most of it, although he doesn't know the specific numbers or anything. I am afraid that if I told him the specific numbers he would look at me different. I know he loves me no matter what, I am just so ashamed of myself...
I have never had a problem with my body image. I have never had a problem being naked in front of my boyfriend. Sometimes I don't like the way I look in clothes, but i just put something else on and move on.
I went to the gyno in January and got weighed. 201... I wanted to die. My highest weight ever... Thinking about the feelings I was having now makes me want to cry. A couple of weeks ago I hit 209 and that was it. I wanted to cut off one of my big fat legs so I could lose and instant 50 pounds.
I started weight watchers 2 weeks ago at 207. Monday at my first weigh in I was 1 pound lighter. Not happy, but not killing myself over it.
Today is Thursday, April 20, 2006. I weight 206 pounds. I am leaving for Disney World in 3 days. I have never been happier about my life and sadder about my weight all at the same time.
I am working on the new me. I am hoping to keep the happy part and just lose some weight. I don't wish to weigh 110 pounds or anything. I think 150 will be just fine...
No one knows any of this. My boyfriend knows most of it, although he doesn't know the specific numbers or anything. I am afraid that if I told him the specific numbers he would look at me different. I know he loves me no matter what, I am just so ashamed of myself...
That's fantastic!!! 
We have something in common... my highest weight was 206... and my goal is 150ish-something too!!! I am down 35 lbs and most times it only comes off 1-2 lbs at a time, but those lbs all add up. I tried not to look at the big number that I had to lose... 55 lbs seemed so impossible... but I knew that I could lose 5 lbs, 11 times. You can do this!! 
You are going to look fabulous in that dress in October!! 
to WISH! You are definitely in the right place to find the support and motivation to start and continue your journey. I am so glad you are here because we understand what you are feeling. Sorry your dress excursion was not a happy experience, but just think of how wonderful you are going to look in October if you spend the next several months making good choices one at a time.
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