Hi Andrea !
First of all...deep breath!
Cut yourself some slack, and realize that everything you are feeling, and all of the questions you have are completly reasonable. It does NOT mean that you can't or shouldn't do this!
I was totally against homeschooling in the beginning! My DH was the first one to bring it up. My DD was in Private school..K5. She was doing well, we liked the school, but DH was so intrigued by the idea I thought I'd do some research.
What I found was amazing! I never knew how many resorces there were out there! I started to get really excited about it.By the end of her K5 year, we thought we'd at least give it a try one year, so that we could make a comparison between traditional school and homeschool.
We never went back! It just felt sooo right!
From my experience only, I can tell you that without a doubt there
will be times when you feel burnt out. There will be times when you will worry you made the right choice, and there may even be times you want to quit!
I've been there...lots of times, but it
always passes! The good, and I'd even say
GREAT days far out number the bad!
As far as time for myself goes....well, I take a lot of VERY loooong baths!
Hmmmm, I'd say I felt 1000% sure I was doing that right thing the first time DD or DS got a new concept! It has been
amazing to be part of that! It's like seeing them take their first step, or say their first word. I love every minute of it. It just makes my heart so full.
Of course there are all the little things..not having to send them out in horrible weather. Not having to worry about keeping them home when they don't feel well.
No need to conform themselves to fit into their peer group. They are who they truly are, and not who they pretend to be so they "fit" in.
As far as support goes, there are wonderful homeschool groups out there! Of course there is always the Dis!
Though it's not exactly face to face, you might be surprised what a lift you can get just from cyber chatting with other homeschooling moms here!
If you're really that worried about having trascripts for college, there are lots of options out there that would provide you with traditional transcripts. This is actually the route we have taken with DD and DS, and with both of the programs we use,they have records kept on them, they receive report cards, and at any time we want to transfer them to a "real" school, or college,all we have to do is contact them, and they will forward their transcripts.
All of that is NOT necessary to get into college, but it's what we felt comfortable with. In know there are at least a few moms on here who have children in college that were homeschooled, so maybe someone else can explain that process.
To be honest, there have been times when I
wasn't the best teacher for the job! DD was having trouble reading, and nothing I was doing was working. We got "outside" help with private tutoring, and within 2 months she was reading like crazy!
I think part of having a sucessful homeschooling experience is realizing your limitations, and doing whatever is needed. Just because you don't know how to teach something doesn't mean you shouldn't homeschool! Sometimes you just have to expand your horizons a bit!
To be honest, some of the curriculum can be expensive. I know all of the ones we have used have payment plan options. Don't know if that would help you or not. I'm sure there are lots of homeschoolers here that may be able to point you in the direction of some less expensive options.
I know I probably haven't answered all of your questions, but this is getting pretty looong!
I do have tend to ramble...especially when it comes to subjects I like to talk about!
Please ask all the questions you want!