felt you weren't good enough for someone?
While I'm perfectly happy in my relationship at the moment, I feel upset about a boy.
My mother is a Jehovah's Witness, and there's a boy at her church that is...ideal, at least in her eyes. I mean, he's beautiful, caring, intelligent, and pure. I've always felt a little tug on my heart when I see him, just because of how loving he seems to be towards everyone. Well, I hadn't seen him in 2 or 3 years, and I saw him last Saturday night at a church thing. I saw him in the lobby, and I tried to avert my stare. He walked behind me, but he brushed against me, and we seemed to both inhale each other's scent (I know, weird right?).
I sat down because I happen to look around the room and realized I looked like a slut compared to everyone else. I hadn't had any clean bras to wear besides this push up bra my mom bought me as a joke (32DD girl here, no need for a push up bra), my fancy shirt shows a little cleavage, and I was wearing a skirt with a slit in the front, and boots. Everyone else was in light, spring colors, while I was in almost all black. My aunt leaned over to me and said, "That boy is staarrriinnggg at you!" and I'm like, "What boy?" and she's like, "The extremely handsome one in the white jacket!" I look up, and he's STARING at me.
So, I was feeling incredibly happy all night because, you know, it's always nice to feel wanted. Then, of course, my mother has to ruin everything for me. She basically tells me that he was looking at me because I'm a wild child and he could "break rules with me", because unlike the cuteness of every other girl that was there, I was sexy and dangerous.
It's not like I showed up in fish nets and hooker heels on my lover's motorcycle or anything! I just didn't realize that I was supposed to look like a 10 year old girl. I don't understand what looking "sexy" has anything to do with breaking rules with me. It's not like if we were in a room together I'd do him right then and there.
I know this is really specific, but I just feel like she's saying I'm not good enough for him because he's perfectly pure and I'm some wild wh*re.
While I'm perfectly happy in my relationship at the moment, I feel upset about a boy.
My mother is a Jehovah's Witness, and there's a boy at her church that is...ideal, at least in her eyes. I mean, he's beautiful, caring, intelligent, and pure. I've always felt a little tug on my heart when I see him, just because of how loving he seems to be towards everyone. Well, I hadn't seen him in 2 or 3 years, and I saw him last Saturday night at a church thing. I saw him in the lobby, and I tried to avert my stare. He walked behind me, but he brushed against me, and we seemed to both inhale each other's scent (I know, weird right?).
I sat down because I happen to look around the room and realized I looked like a slut compared to everyone else. I hadn't had any clean bras to wear besides this push up bra my mom bought me as a joke (32DD girl here, no need for a push up bra), my fancy shirt shows a little cleavage, and I was wearing a skirt with a slit in the front, and boots. Everyone else was in light, spring colors, while I was in almost all black. My aunt leaned over to me and said, "That boy is staarrriinnggg at you!" and I'm like, "What boy?" and she's like, "The extremely handsome one in the white jacket!" I look up, and he's STARING at me.
So, I was feeling incredibly happy all night because, you know, it's always nice to feel wanted. Then, of course, my mother has to ruin everything for me. She basically tells me that he was looking at me because I'm a wild child and he could "break rules with me", because unlike the cuteness of every other girl that was there, I was sexy and dangerous.
It's not like I showed up in fish nets and hooker heels on my lover's motorcycle or anything! I just didn't realize that I was supposed to look like a 10 year old girl. I don't understand what looking "sexy" has anything to do with breaking rules with me. It's not like if we were in a room together I'd do him right then and there.
I know this is really specific, but I just feel like she's saying I'm not good enough for him because he's perfectly pure and I'm some wild wh*re.
