I'm not sure where else to post this, I hope this is the right place. I'm just sitting here thinking about how in 5 days I'll be heading off to WDW with my sister, our lifelong BFF, our godbrother & his wife. It'll be my 34th trip (I'm turning 33 next Wednesday so we average once a year since I was 3.) My mom died last November very suddenly, while on a cruise in South America with my dad. She was 61. It was due to pulmonary edema - she had a lot of respiratory problems and bad asthma, and woke up choking, fell off the bed, and was gone before the doctor could reach her. I was very, very close to her - she was my best friend as well as my mom. She and my sister were also very close. She was a wonderful, funny, silly person and she loved WDW as much as we do (obviously! she's the one who got us hooked.) The last time I went down with her was last August. It was a great trip, as it always is with Mom. She was so happy there with us. I think it always brought us back that feeling of being there with her as children and seeing the magic, so every time we come down a bit of that magic comes back to us. I'm sure you all know what I mean. I wrote this essay on my blog ten days after she died. I think it helps illustrate the complicated feelings I have about going back down to WDW. Everything there will bring back a flood of memories - happy ones, yes, but I can't help but feeling overwhelmed with sadness that she's not there anymore to share them with me. I just love her so, so much. I miss her every day. I'm looking forward to this trip, but I'm also scared that the sadness will overwhelm me. I'm glad I'll be going down with people who all loved her as much as I do. all of them (except Joanna, my godbrother's wife) have been there multiple times with our family and my mom. That will help, I think. Has anyone else had an experience like this? How was your first trip after your loved one was gone?