Doreen's New Way of Life (comments are welcome)

[A1A1]

So much to type. I am sorry that you aren't feeling quite yourself. I live in Western New York, not very far from you. I am in a state where I just want to sleep. I am chilled through to the bone, and want to curl up under my covers for a few days. Feel kind of like a bear that needs to hibernate. I get the "blues" or a feeling of being.......as you have said a "dishrag" every winter. I hate winter. It is too cold to go out, and the sun shines for such a short time if at all. I think I have that Seasonal Affective Disorder. Is this something that you think might affect you, too?

Good for you for resisting the EVM. There must be a hidden magnet or hypnotic device in some of them.

You sound mentally healthier than I think you know right now. You are right to just "give yourself a break" every once in a while. I think the whole world would be a better place if everyone did that or took a mental health day or two every month.

Take it easy. Get the rest your body and mind are telling you they need. You will feel shortly.

 

[DoeWDW]

Deb and A, thanks for the encouragement!

A, I may be impacted somewhat by SAD. My crash episodes seem to be throughout the year though. They are tied to the middle of my monthly cycle, somehow. I'm still doing research and trying to piece the puzzle together on this. I can relate to feeling frozen and unwilling to go out in the cold - I despise the cold weather! DH and I are committed to retiring to Florida - I cannot grow old in this climate!

I'd better journal my goals before I forget...
1. Meds taken, gotta remember vitamin at dinner...
2. Water - 36 oz at least, will work on more
3. Food - B = protein bar (2 carbs), no real lunch but I've been snacking when hungry, sunflower seeds (1 carb), organic trail mix (11 carbs), apple (24 carbs). Total so far = 38 carbs.
4. No exercise yet. Not sure if I'll do it today or not.....

I've been taking it easy today and am feeling better, more rested. My son turns 16 on Sunday and the family party is tomorrow night at my house. Fortunately, he wants pizza and subs, so I don't have to cook. But I do need to clean - UGH!! Guess I'll leave it for tomorrow and get the kids to help (whether they want to or not! ).

Edit: 8:30 PM
3. D = roasted chicken (0 carbs), lemon pepper green beans (3 carbs). I also forgot to put down earlier that over the course of the day I've had 4 pieces of Dove dark chocolate (14 carbs). Total for today = 55 carbs.

Another cheat free day - unbelievable! I really didn't think I'd make it this long. I'm quite proud of my cute little bear!!

 

[lulu201]

You're getting close to the two week mark, Doe-Doe. Can you believe it? Keep walking the walk--sometimes fast, some days slowly--and you'll be OK. Baby steps, one day at a time.

Get those kids helping out over there! Teen labor is the best!
All that youthful enthusiasm channelled (sp?) into something as worthwhile as cleanliness! (Oh, but if my DD asks, you never heard that from me!)

Be good to yourself. Stay warm. Eat right and drink lots of water. Find the joy in the moment.

,
Lulu

 

[septbride2002]

Thanks for helping me with my carb recipe dilema - I really appreciate it . I know today you are going to have a fabulous day and remember housework does count as exercise so don't over do it to much.

~Amanda

 

[DoeWDW]

I confess, I ate 5 more carbs last night before bed. That took me to my 60 carb limit, but I didn't go over!

I also confess that I did not exercise yesterday and I probably won't today, if I look at my day realistically. I'm disappointed in myself for letting this happen. I WILL be at the fitness center tomorrow - no matter what!

Goals today:
1. Meds taken, no vitamins yet
2. 12 oz water - gotta keep drinking
3. B = tuna salad on rye cracker (9 carbs), last of the organic trail mix (11 carbs). Total so far = 20 carbs. Not sure what lunch will be but dinner will be a low-carb Subway wrap. We're having my son's birthday party tonight (my family is coming over) so I'll have to be extra careful with the desserts! I do have lc ice cream in the freezer that I haven't tried yet and my dad is diabetic - maybe he and I will have that!
4. Exercise - lots of errands to run but no walk today. This makes me sad - guess I really have made exercise a habit I enjoy because I really do miss it when I don't do it. That's a new attitude for me!

I'm off to balance the checkbook and run all the errands and get things ready for the party. I think it's gonna be a good day!

 

[septbride2002]

Hiya Doreen! How do you make this Organic Trail mix? Or did you buy it from somewhere?

~Amanda

 

[Castillo Mom]

Hi Doreen! Looks like you had a couple of rough days but you got over the hump. I really admire your perserverence, I know it's not always easy to face the world on a daily basis when you're suffering from the blues. I've also had some bouts with depression, and it can be debilitating at times. I remember just letting things fall down around me which caused a vicous cycle. The only thing I could bring myself to do was the bare minimum. But you seem to have a handle on things and recognize when you're going into a low phase and you approach the situation head on. And yes, you should be very proud of your cute little brown bear, it's a symbol of all your hard work! Looks like you'll have a pretty busy today with your party. Hope everything turns out well. Have fun!

 

[DoeWDW]

Well, the checkbook got balanced - enough money to cover what had to be covered. The errands got run, despite wind chills below zero (why am I living in PA and not FL???). The party has come and gone - everything was wonderful AND I stayed within my carb limits.

Lunch was tuna salad on rye cracker (9 carbs) again - no time to make anything else, and 2 Dove dark chocolates (7 carbs). Dinner was a turkey bacon wrap from Subway (11 carbs) and 1/2 cup Breyers lc ice cream (5 carbs). Total for today = 52 carbs.

Another cheat free day for me!!

My dad also ate the Breyers lc ice cream. I was glad that I had something he could eat (diabetic) for dessert - it's hard to turn down all that carb-laden stuff when there's no alternative. He was eyeing the ice cream cake until I told him I had the lc ice cream - he looked relieved and happy.

I'm off to change my clippie and head to bed. Getting ready for and hosting parties is exhausting to me! Tomorrow is DS's official 16th birthday so we have late lunch planned at Outback Steakhouse - no problem with low-carb there!

Amanda, the organic trail mix is made by Waymount Farms and is sold at my grocery store.

Lisa (Castillo Mom), my depression used to be debilitating practically every day, until the doctor switched me to Effexor. Now I only go through this a few days a month - a change for the better! Before I had depression, I really never believed people who said they were so tired they could not get out of bed - I just figured they were lazy. Well, I learned my lesson on that one!! Now I'm much more likely to listen when my body says it needs to rest, but it's a fine line between "rest" and "emotional and physical shut-down". It sounds like your depression is in the past - happy to hear it!

I'll catch up on everyone's journals tomorrow!

 

[lulu201]

Good morning, Doe-Doe of the WISH Here's some warming sunshine for you in the midst of our PA deep freeze. I was lying in bed this morning thinking, "this is as good as it gets. I'll never be this warm again until I come back to bed tonight." Quite the positive way to start the day, wasn't it?

At any rate, I'm here to wish you well on your healthy living journey. Take your meds and your vitamins and have a little of that lc ice cream! It was nice that your dad had an option for dessert. My dad was diabetic; it was hard for him to always be saying "no, thank you."

Go forward into the new day. Have a fun time at Outback and enjoy the birthday party.

Lulu of the WISH

 

[DoeWDW]

I have not gotten on the scale since weigh-in last Sunday morning. That alone is reason to celebrate - I've never been able to go that long without weighing!

This morning the scale said 128 - that's 2 pounds less than the 130 I weighed last Sunday!! I didn't take measurements yet - I'll post them later.

I guess all these cheat free days and the 3 mile training walks are paying off!!

Erin, knowing I could finally weigh in today is what drove me out from under those warm covers!

Edit: 10:15 AM
Official Weigh-In and Measure Results
Weight 128 / 130 / 142
Bust 37.5 / 38 / 39.5
Chest 33 / 33 / 33.5
Waist 31.5 / 31.5 / 34
Hips 38 / 38 / 40
Thighs 39 / 39 / 41

So I've lost 2 pounds and half an inch off my bust, while the rest of my measurements remain the same. All in all, it's been a good week and I'm happy with the results. It will be interesting to see how continued training for the half-marathon affects my measurements.

Can't stay - have egg custard in the oven. It will be breakfast today and for the next couple days at work.

 

[lulu201]

Wow! Two pounds gone! That's fantastic! They just jumped off when you weren't even looking!

Don't forget, Doreen--we've got to stay up late tonight and sign up for the half marathon! (that's us getting to the finish line on 1/9/05!)

It seems warmer today. Hooray!

Erin

 

[DoeWDW]

I surprised myself today! I went to the fitness center to use their treadmill - I really didn't want to walk outside with wind chills in the teens (I'm a cold weather wimp....LOL!). I walked 2 miles in 30 minutes (4.0 mph). Then I got bored so I walked another mile a little faster (4.2 mph). Then I REALLY got bored so I jogged a half mile (5.0 mph).... I walked the last half mile (4.2 mph) just because I thought I should - I could have kept running, I think.

I'm a little worried about training there - they have big signs up saying there's a 20 minute time limit on the treadmills. I figure I'll go during the slow times and hopefully no one will say anything, as long as there are other treadmills open for use.

I had 1.5 oz honey roasted sunflower seeds (9 carbs), drank 24 oz water and took my meds before I went to the fitness center. I think I'll save the egg custard for later. Late lunch / early dinner will be at Outback Steakhouse - a 1/2 pound burger and baked sweet potato. I'll go check their website for carb counts before we leave.

I'm so excited about registering for the half-marathon tomorrow! Do you really think they'll start taking registrations at midnight tonight??? If I knew they were, I'd seriously stay up!

 

[A1A1]

Woooooooo HHHoooooooooo!!!!!!!!!!! Great job. This is wonderful news. Good for you! Way to go!!!! Wonderful!!

 

[A1A1]

Doe---I will be up with you and Lulu. I am registering for this race!!!!

 

[lulu201]

Doreen--and all interested folks--registration is open for the half marathon. I'm registered with a confirmation number and everything!

Uh, now, Doreen, could you help me with my little running Mickey clippie?

Erin

 

[DoeWDW]

I'm excited beyond belief!! I'm all registered for the 2005 WDW Half Marathon!!!! I'm really going to go to Orlando, meet lots of other WISHers and do the half-marathon next January!!!

I've never done anything like this in my life. I've set such a cool goal and I have no doubts that I'll meet this goal. A half-marathon at age 40 - I would never even have dared to dream this a couple years ago. Now I'm not only dreaming it, I'm doing it!! I'm hearing strains of "When you wish upon a star, makes no difference who you are....".

WISHCon 2005 and the 2005 WDW Half-Marathon - LOOK OUT, HERE I COME!!

Back to reality for a moment....we went to Outback for my son's birthday dinner and I stayed on plan. I just entered everything into Fitday, including the 2 sips of cranberry margarita, the 2 pieces of DD's mac & cheese AND the 3 fries, as well as the burger (no bun), half a salad and half a baked sweet potato. The whole thing came to 45 carbs. Add the 9 carbs from earlier and I finished the day with 54 carbs!

That's 2 weeks cheat free for me!! I'm turning over my clippie and I'm going to TRY to go to bed.

 

[LAinSEA]

Now it's REAL and so exciting! It has got to feel great to be registered and have a concrete goal to go after.

I'm so thrilled for you - be proud of yourself!

-Laurie

 

[lulu201]

I'm wearing my new clippie! Thank you so much, Doreen. Your post about the Walk made me smile--it's an amazing, wonderful goal to have, isn't it? And we're going to do it!

We're walking The Walk, 1/9/05!

Good night. Try to sleep--you're an athlete in training!

Erin

 

[A1A1]

This 1/2 marathon is the most exciting thing that has happened to me in a while. I am not letting anyone in on it yet. I want it to be all about me and not about my family and what they have to say about it. I don't want anyone judging me or my progress. I want to do it by myself and for myself.

I am glad for you that you not only lost the two pounds, but remain positive and "cheat free", may I add.

Have a great day. Stay warm.

 

[lulu201]

Good morning, Doreen! I think we're supposed to get lots of sun today, aren't we? If not, we'll be making our own just thinking about how well we're doing.

Your times yesterday on the treadmill were fantastic! You're going to be leading the pack! Just think how fast you'll be a year from now!!!!

Remember to take your vitamins and meds to work.

for your day,
Erin