Hello everyone! Sometimes it's hard to find something to say when your a newcomer, but I really enjoy keeping up with all the happenings. I had to take my DH to the emergency room Monday evening. He was untangeling a wire from the blades of a tractor when one of the blades conked him on the head. It must have weighed about 10 pounds. (the blade, not his head) Lucky for him he is very hardheaded, and only needed 10 staples to close up the wound. This happened right as I was taking dinner off of the grill, (my first time EVER cooking on the grill). I had made some greek "kefta rolls" from a recipe I had seen on the news, and had finally trying grilling vegetables, (which by the way turned out REALLY good, asparagus and squash, it was so easy!) and I had just enough time to take the food off, have my DD cover them with tinfoil and race out the door. The entire way to the hospital he was trying to convince me to just stop and get some "nuskin" which is kind of like a skin super glue, that it wasn't that bad, I could just fix him up and he'd be fine. Yes Dear, just wipe the blood off and let me drive. Men!
The hospital visit went quick, but I'm embarrased to admit, my mind kept thinking of food. And now that something unexpected had happened to prevent me from eating a "diet dinner" and Sunday was my cheat day anyway, and today was only Monday, and I was stressed out, what would it hurt to go home and crash my diet? Surely I could write myself a pass for tonight? I really thought I was going to. He was really doing o.k., cracking jokes with the docter and nurses, so my mind was thinking of dinner. Why I am like this I don't know. It seems that I am always looking for an excuse to eat. And I don't mean eat, as in provide fuel for my body, I mean EAT, like break out the oreos and the cheetos, give me some ice cream, something that I have been denying myself. JUNK people, that's what I wanted. Sitting here 3 days later, it's hard for me to right that. It just seems so stupid and pointless, to waste that much energy on thinking of food. I will say though, that I went home and ate ALL of the squash, some asaparagus, and a couple of kefta rolls (which are kind of like a spicy meat loaf with no carbs, pretty good
) and was able to convince myself that was enough. That and honestly, I don't want to post a gain on Friday. I'm still not exercising as much as I should, or as much as I want to, but I am trying. I have done 300 crunches this week, and some toning. (thanks for the sparkpeople tip, thier exercises are great! It helps to be able to see people perform them, instead of just a picture of what the exercise is supposed to look like) Also yesterday was DD's 15th Bday and I HAD NO CAKE! Well, I only bought a mini this year, because only her and my DS are going to eat it. My DH is not big on sweets. (I'm big enough on them for both of us, thank you
) I am determined to stuff them both with cake over the next couple of days, and not to eat ANY of it. Then, whatever's left, I will throw it out!! It makes me feel better to just write that. Like I mean it. This will be my first birthday that there is cake in the house and I am not eating it.
Maybe I'll freeze a piece and eat it on my 1 cheat day. (my cheat days used to drift into 2,3,or sometimes even 4 days, when you start, it's hard to stop
.) I just wanted to check in, and say thanks for being here. It's about motivation.
I go back in another month. 
just his story...)
talk to ya laters
Hee Hee, I got a new Treadmill and Total Gym (Chuck Norris and Christy Brinkley) in barter for childcare. THERE. I don't look any fitter!
Yeah, I know you know that. Easier said than done, right? I know you can do it though! 
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Luv the heartbeat!
MAYZON!! 
