In 2004 I had a miscarriage when I was 12 weeks pregnant. The baby had been due December 26th. As you probably can imagine it was painful, especially since we had just told our 3 older children that they were going to have a baby brother or sister.
However, we were very lucky, and I fell pregnant again as soon as we started trying. So by the time Christmas and my due date arrived I was 5 months pregnant and my focus was on the new baby and how fortunate and blessed we were.
I honestly don´t think about the baby we lost too often, and when I do I tend to think that if we hadn´t lost him/her we wouldn´t have our wonderful 5 year old daughter.
My DH hardly ever mentions the miscarriage nor did it hit him very hard when it happened. He´s a very down to earth guy who is very sure of the fact that this was natures way of letting go of a baby that wasn´t vital and I agree with him. However, I think that since I had experienced the changes in my body I had grown more attached to the baby and therefore had a harder time of letting go.
On December 26th. this year we sat down at the table to eat. The kids had set the table and when DH came he started counting the plates and said that one was missing. When the kids re-counted and told them they were right as they were he said "Strange, I really felt we were missing one at the table". I then reminded him what day it was and that we once had been expecting a baby to be born that day.
I can´t help but wonder whether there´s somewhere a tiny soul watching over us
However, we were very lucky, and I fell pregnant again as soon as we started trying. So by the time Christmas and my due date arrived I was 5 months pregnant and my focus was on the new baby and how fortunate and blessed we were.
I honestly don´t think about the baby we lost too often, and when I do I tend to think that if we hadn´t lost him/her we wouldn´t have our wonderful 5 year old daughter.
My DH hardly ever mentions the miscarriage nor did it hit him very hard when it happened. He´s a very down to earth guy who is very sure of the fact that this was natures way of letting go of a baby that wasn´t vital and I agree with him. However, I think that since I had experienced the changes in my body I had grown more attached to the baby and therefore had a harder time of letting go.
On December 26th. this year we sat down at the table to eat. The kids had set the table and when DH came he started counting the plates and said that one was missing. When the kids re-counted and told them they were right as they were he said "Strange, I really felt we were missing one at the table". I then reminded him what day it was and that we once had been expecting a baby to be born that day.
I can´t help but wonder whether there´s somewhere a tiny soul watching over us



