Chemical alley 2nd Gen RP 2

[Doodle98]

Trent: "I'm sorry. I haven't really been yelled at much since....." He sighed. "I'm sorry." He rested his head on Matt's chest and played with the loose fabric of his shirt.

Matt: "I did mean it, when I said you're perfection." He gently rubbed his back. "You are so loyal and kind and beautiful and talented and sweet and sexy and brave and strong and you're vulnerable, which I think is amazing. You don't hide anything from me. You don't want to hide anything from me."

Trent: "I'm weak. I'm too emotional."

Matt: "Shh," he whispered, continuing to rub his back. "You are so strong. You're so much stronger than me. And I love that you're emotional. I don't want a dead-pan boyfriend."

Trent: He smiled. "okay." His hands found his way to underneath Matt's shirt, his small fingers gently tracing all the muscles.

Matt: He blushed and leaned back against a tree. "I told you, perfection." He winced when Trent's hands got higher on his chest. "your hands are cold."

Trent: "Sorry!" He hugged him.

Matt: "It's okay. You wanna go have lunch at my house?"

Trent: "As long as you cook it." He giggled. "I'd burn everything."

Matt: "Sure, baby." He was glad that he wasn't mad or scared anymore.

 

[Doodle98]

Trent: He sat up on the counter and watched Matt make them macaroni and cheese. "You have nice arms."

Matt: "Really?" He looked down at them. "They're covered in scars though."

Trent: "Your scars are beautiful. It proves that you're strong." He blushed. "And you have nice muscles too."

Matt: He laughed and sat on the counter next to Trent, handing him a bowl of Mac and cheese. "I love you, baby."

Trent: "I love you too." He kissed his cheek.

Matt: He wrapped an arm around Trent's thin waist and pulled him against him. "You're so cute."

Trent: He giggled and ate.

 

[Doodle98]

David: "I have the prettiest wife. I'm so lucky." He snuggled into the blankets. Tears ran down his face. "I'm so lucky," he murmured again, gripping the blankets. He was very out of it. "I-I don't Wanna.... Gwen could you sing a song for me?"

 

[Fairywings]

OOC: Is this the final song? I had a few in mind for his final song.

 

[Doodle98]

OOC: No, you'll know when that comes. It'll be pretty obvious.

 

[Doodle98]

OOC: Basically this is the official start to his deterioration. I don't think he's getting out of bed again. He's going to get to the point where it even hurts him to think, and that's when it'll happen. It'll be like a couple days I think.

 

[Fairywings]

OOC: Okay. Hmm, let me think of a song...

 

[Fairywings]

Gwen: She smiled. "Sure, a song for you.
When I was younger
I saw my daddy cry
And curse at the wind
He broke his own heart
And I watched
As he tried to reassemble it

And my momma swore
That she would never let herself forget
And that was the day that I promised
I'd never sing of love
If it does not exist, but darlin'

You are, the only exception
You are, the only exception
You are, the only exception
You are, the only exception

Maybe I know, somewhere
Deep in my soul
That love never lasts
And we've got to find other ways
To make it alone
But keep a straight face

And I've always lived like this
Keeping a comfortable, distance
And up until now
I had sworn to myself that I'm content
With loneliness

Because none of it was ever worth the risk

But, you are, the only exception
You are, the only exception
You are, the only exception
You are, the only exception

I've got a tight grip on reality
But I can't let go of what's in front of me here
I know your leaving in the morning, when you wake up
Leave me with some kind of proof it's not a dream, oh

You are, the only exception
You are, the only exception
You are, the only exception
You are, the only exception

You are, the only exception
You are, the only exception
You are, the only exception
You are, the only exception

And I'm on my way to believing
Oh, and I'm on my way to believing."

OOC: Paramore, The Only Exception

 

[Doodle98]

Gwen: She smiled. "Sure, a song for you.
When I was younger
I saw my daddy cry
And curse at the wind
He broke his own heart
And I watched
As he tried to reassemble it

And my momma swore
That she would never let herself forget
And that was the day that I promised
I'd never sing of love
If it does not exist, but darlin'

You are, the only exception
You are, the only exception
You are, the only exception
You are, the only exception

Maybe I know, somewhere
Deep in my soul
That love never lasts
And we've got to find other ways
To make it alone
But keep a straight face

And I've always lived like this
Keeping a comfortable, distance
And up until now
I had sworn to myself that I'm content
With loneliness

Because none of it was ever worth the risk

But, you are, the only exception
You are, the only exception
You are, the only exception
You are, the only exception

I've got a tight grip on reality
But I can't let go of what's in front of me here
I know your leaving in the morning, when you wake up
Leave me with some kind of proof it's not a dream, oh

You are, the only exception
You are, the only exception
You are, the only exception
You are, the only exception

You are, the only exception
You are, the only exception
You are, the only exception
You are, the only exception

And I'm on my way to believing
Oh, and I'm on my way to believing."

OOC: Paramore, The Only Exception

OOC: Haha yaaaaaas Hayley Williams is my girl!!!!!!

David: He watched her, smiling, and took her hand. He fell asleep shortly after.

 

[Doodle98]

OOC: You wanted to talk, dearest Perry?

 

[Fairywings]

OOC: Well, I just thought I should apologize and explain.

First, don't think I don't like this thread. It's a wonderful thread and it's a wonderful idea.

But you're right, I'm not as passionate or invested in this thread.

Part of it is just out of our hands, it's not either of our faults - it's just the two of us unless MAPS is on and naturally that means things move slower and less plot goes on, so it kind of gets a monotonous feel, but even if we did reopen signups we probably wouldn't get anyone new because of how long the thread has gone on, so we just need to make more of an effort of advancing the plot. I have a couple ideas that I'll say in the next post.

I love Gwen, Flynn, Blake, Kennedy, Michael, Hope, Raven and Conrad. They're all unique and have interesting stuff going on. The reason I prefer the YA characters is the same reason (well, one of them) that I fell out of First Gen and couldn't get back. I couldn't relate to my characters. I like them, but I don't really relate to them. The YA - all four of them have a piece of my soul. Michael has both my politeness and the feeling that I'm lost and I don't quite fit in, which I get a lot. Hope... Hope is the girl I wish I could be, and kind of what I'm like when I'm with my best friend (not romantic like that, enough people ship me and him as it is, but more like kind and happy and looser). Raven is my rage and my cynicism, and that's a very consuming part of me. Conrad is my pain, and my depression, and the cheerfulness that I have around other people sometimes because I know I just need to grin and bear it. These characters feel so real to me and they make me feel real emotions, because they make up part of who I am. I just don't have that with these guys. And I'm sorry for that. I'd like to have characters here that I've got that strong connection with. I just haven't found it yet.

So, anyway, I'm sorry, and if you have any suggestions to help, or constructive criticism on how I play my characters her, it would be lovely if you could share that.

 

[Doodle98]

OOC: I totally get it. I think I feel the opposite way that you do though.

Trent is my uneasiness, my sense of worthlessness, all of my anxieties rolled up into one tortured little kid. And that's why he's so lovey with Matt, he needs it, and to a lesser extent, I feel like I need it too. That's where Matt comes in. He's the caring side of me that never wants anyone to be upset but disregards what I feel. David, again, is depressing, he's accepted defeat and just wants comfort, and im not even going to begin to explain how that connects to me.

I've said it before, I've got whacked up emotions and a whacked up mind at times, and my characters are representative of that. But it's harder with Gordon and Thora, they're still just kinda there, I don't feel like anyone really likes them all that much and theyre not involved in everything so I don't post as much there.

Id love to hear your ideas. I wish maps would get back.

 

[Fairywings]

OOC: I wish Maps would get back too.

No, I totally get whacked up emotions, I've had anxiety issues before, I've got a mental condition and I'm pretty sure I have depression (again). I get it. I'm a PM away i you ever need a talk, btw.

And yeah, I just told you about my soul shards, so I don't have to explain how I understand.

I don't think it's dislike so much as it's just fitting in. I'm a big believer of fiction imitating life, and I think it does in this case. Gordon and Thora come from a completely different culture. The others haven't been to Asgard (which we should maybe talk about changing in the future, but with Olivia obviously) so they haven't experienced their culture. They'd probably like to help Gordon and Thora, but they don't know how, they don't know the right comparisons or analogies to make. Even we real live humans don't. That's why this is such a big struggle.

right, ideas next post, this is getting long.

 

[Doodle98]

OOC: I wish Maps would get back too.

No, I totally get whacked up emotions, I've had anxiety issues before, I've got a mental condition and I'm pretty sure I have depression (again). I get it. I'm a PM away i you ever need a talk, btw.

And yeah, I just told you about my soul shards, so I don't have to explain how I understand.

I don't think it's dislike so much as it's just fitting in. I'm a big believer of fiction imitating life, and I think it does in this case. Gordon and Thora come from a completely different culture. The others haven't been to Asgard (which we should maybe talk about changing in the future, but with Olivia obviously) so they haven't experienced their culture. They'd probably like to help Gordon and Thora, but they don't know how, they don't know the right comparisons or analogies to make. Even we real live humans don't. That's why this is such a big struggle.

right, ideas next post, this is getting long.

OOC: Yeah, that's true. I've tried to do as much research as I could on Asgard, and I think a trip there would be fun.

Thank you for offering to talk. I may take you up on that offer someday, but it's really hard for me to explain what goes through my head in words. It's quite funny actually, I've concidered recording my thoughts before because it gets pretty deep.

 

[Fairywings]

OOC: So, I've had a couple ideas. Naturally, I based them around my characters because I was trying to improve, but they're still so loose they can be adjusted to fit a more well-suited character.
in no particular order:

• Blake or somebody should get discovered and and a big role in a movie. Think about it. Everyone around him would be affected by this. Some others might get discovered for other things, or more awareness could be brought for blindness or DID or anxiety or depression or cancer or abuse or the foster care system or the humane treatment of mental patients or whatever. Plus, opportunity for new characters - other people from the talent agency or the movie, family members flocking in to celebrate, etc.
• Flynn and Blake, a lot of the times, are so similar. I don't want to combine them because of Flynn and Chelsea, but maybe Flynn and Blake's families could combine, so they could be brothers or something. I'm just not sure how, I think either Blake has to get orphaned (because Flynn's the one with the large family) or Flynn's older bro AJ and Blake's older sis Brianna could get married or something.
• I think I've mentioned the thing with Kennedy and Sylvia. I've not got it quite figured it, but I think getting separated as kids is going to be a major factor.
• When/if Gwendolyn gets a new roommate, we can have that roommate have all kinds of stuff going on. I think you or Maps should play the new roommate, so more action. If we do the roommate right, it also leads us to more growth by multiple characters
• Maybe we could find a way to bring in the characters from the first thread, on a more permanent basis.
• It would be interesting if we took multiple trips to Chemical Alley. This will probably sound dumb, but what if being there was almost like a trance or another mental state/level, so anytime they fell back into the trance or accessed that other mental state/level, they'd be back in Chemical Alley?
• If we had more deaths, I think it would be interesting to see how they were adjusting back to normal life. It recently occurred to me that their story has to be at least if not more tragic than the patients, because they weren't patients, so they must have been normal kids, maybe kidnapped, maybe lured by money or internship, their minds wiped and brainwashed and ordered to kill, just like the Winter Soldier. But I don't think we really had deaths.
• And, if all else fails, we can just go to Disney World.

 

[Fairywings]

OOC: Yeah, that's true. I've tried to do as much research as I could on Asgard, and I think a trip there would be fun.

Thank you for offering to talk. I may take you up on that offer someday, but it's really hard for me to explain what goes through my head in words. It's quite funny actually, I've concidered recording my thoughts before because it gets pretty deep.

OOC: You're welcome. LOL, sounds interesting.

 

[Doodle98]

OOC: So, I've had a couple ideas. Naturally, I based them around my characters because I was trying to improve, but they're still so loose they can be adjusted to fit a more well-suited character.
in no particular order:

• Blake or somebody should get discovered and and a big role in a movie. Think about it. Everyone around him would be affected by this. Some others might get discovered for other things, or more awareness could be brought for blindness or DID or anxiety or depression or cancer or abuse or the foster care system or the humane treatment of mental patients or whatever. Plus, opportunity for new characters - other people from the talent agency or the movie, family members flocking in to celebrate, etc.
• Flynn and Blake, a lot of the times, are so similar. I don't want to combine them because of Flynn and Chelsea, but maybe Flynn and Blake's families could combine, so they could be brothers or something. I'm just not sure how, I think either Blake has to get orphaned (because Flynn's the one with the large family) or Flynn's older bro AJ and Blake's older sis Brianna could get married or something.
• I think I've mentioned the thing with Kennedy and Sylvia. I've not got it quite figured it, but I think getting separated as kids is going to be a major factor.
• When/if Gwendolyn gets a new roommate, we can have that roommate have all kinds of stuff going on. I think you or Maps should play the new roommate, so more action. If we do the roommate right, it also leads us to more growth by multiple characters
• Maybe we could find a way to bring in the characters from the first thread, on a more permanent basis.
• It would be interesting if we took multiple trips to Chemical Alley. This will probably sound dumb, but what if being there was almost like a trance or another mental state/level, so anytime they fell back into the trance or accessed that other mental state/level, they'd be back in Chemical Alley?
• If we had more deaths, I think it would be interesting to see how they were adjusting back to normal life. It recently occurred to me that their story has to be at least if not more tragic than the patients, because they weren't patients, so they must have been normal kids, maybe kidnapped, maybe lured by money or internship, their minds wiped and brainwashed and ordered to kill, just like the Winter Soldier. But I don't think we really had deaths.
• And, if all else fails, we can just go to Disney World.

I like all of these! I really like the discovery one. Maybe, if they can go back to chemical alley one of them could free Angela and she could come in.

 

[Fairywings]

OOC: Thank you! The nice thing is a lot of them can be done at the same time.

 

[Doodle98]

OOC: Ideas:

-David, before he dies, could say that he got back to Chemical alley, so they know it's possible but they don't know how? Idk it made more sense in my head.

-Trent just went through a big court case and sent a group of men to life in prison, I'm sure the media would eat him up.

-Because of Marcus I think it'd be easy to pull first gen characters in.

 

[Fairywings]

OOC: No, the thing with David makes sense. The media would work similar to discovery in unearthing all those issues I talked about. That's true - mine would still be difficult because I never really got into the inner-circle, but maybe we could pull some strings. I kinda wish I hadn't killed Caleb and Robin off, they had more interesting illnesses than Perry.