Trust in the plan, Lisa, trust in the plan, and we will get there. I was just reading marathoning for mortals again, and even though I haven't run in over a week and a half, I think we're going to be alright! Cause reading is as good as running, right?
I was doing mostly 4/1 intervals, but on the longer one's I'd slow down, so increasing the walking intervals sped me up to keep me in the sweeper-free pace. I did 1/1 and that seemed to be the same pace as 2/1 for me. Right along, we've been at similar paces, so don't worry about it, it will all work out. Remember, we don't want to go out too fast either. We don't want to overdo it and not be able to get back to epcot for a margarita. We will need the salt you know.
Rose- I'm so glad Mike want to run with you. You will both deserve a trip after this week. I think you should go with matching tutus.
Now off to find those tyedye tutus for us, lisa.
That margarita is sounding so good right about now. Actually I'll get a cosmo slushie and meet you all in Mexico.
Woohoo for getting out of the house.
Rose,
Jen's husband Paul is running too...and she is threatening to make a tutu for him, too!!!



(not kidding!!!!) I hope that you can both come because I think it will be a great getaway for both of you....
As for me, I am struggling with my runs. I was supposed to do 9 today and barely finished 7.5. I am trying not to get discouraged and keep plugging along.... but right now 13.1 feels impossible (sorry for the downer comments. I just keep hoping that something will "click" again....)
Jude
Jude--you can so do it! You've done it before. Keep telling yourself that. This is a hard time of the year to get all those miles in. Just hang in there.

You got it!

I'm reading
The Nonrunner's Marathon Guide for Women: Get Off Your Butt and On with Your Training this afternoon. It is a scream!

, Jude. Of course you can do it!

Aren't you the person who did so well on their PSTs (sorry if that is not the official name) not too long ago?
I've been feeling like that for a whole week. I can do the miles but not the pace for the whole time. It makes me frantic!

I was telling my DH about all the thoughts going through my head during my run today as we drove home from the gym and he looked at me and said "that's quite the diatribe you have going in your head." So I'm trying to find my zen now cause the freak out is not working for me.
Might I suggest 8 minute meditations?



It's working well for me right now, not!
Ok, today was officially a flipping nightmare. Poor, Tom he is a mess cause he's worried about us. I had a complete and total meltdown this afternoon because I just cannot flipping believe how poorly people behave. The money stuff is pushing all my buttons--even though we live very comfortably it's leftover from childhood stuff--nothing to eat, no heat, etc.
Anyhow--here are the highlights, after spending all day on the phone trying to coordinate with all the cousins, and thinking that there was a plan, Mike was informed that there were "people" on facebook planning to come in this weekend and that the service should be Saturday. This was after he explained to everyone about Tom going back to school, and that he actually has a job that they expect him to come to. Plus honestly, he is a mess and just wants to get things settled. There still is no sign of will, but the family attorney is going to check probate court in the morning. So Mike was a mess, basically had the conversation with his cousin that the people coming in for the funeral were more important because he had no real relationship with his sister, etc. I guess we should have been on facebook so we could know what was going on. He agreed to the service Saturday, but said he would have to leave on Thursday. That's when I lost it. I do not think we should be footing the bill for a service on Saturday that he is unable to attend. And of course he is overwhelmed with guilt. So after the blowup we talked about it for a while and came up with the plan that we would pay for the cremation, for a small visitation on Wednesday evening at the funeral home and make a 500 donation for the service and that was it. If they want to do it Saturday, then they can pay for it. This is so freaking unbelievable. Here if someone dies, it is taken care of in two days period. He called the cousins and told them what he was responsible for, and if they wanted something else, then hopefully the estate could pay for it, but that he was not responsible. He is going to have a conversation with the funeral home to let them know, and he told the pastor of the church what was going on as well. Add to that that a couple of people told him who they "thought" she left things to, and he was not on the list. Which is absolutely fine with him. He wants nothing to do with it. But amusingly enough, no one has offered to open their wallets, but they are more than happy to tell him what to do. Mike is a peacekeeper and this is killing him. And Lisa you were right, Tom told me he is worried something will happen to us.
I'm only going to work 4 or 5 hours on mon and tues, and get home to spend some quality time with Tom. Then I'm off on Wed and Thurs. I feel so sick to my stomach, I am sitting on the verge on a panic attack and I don't have any idea what I ate today. I'm kind of looking forward to a couple of hours at work just for the normalcy.
Thank you all for being my surrogate mom's right now. I have my differences with my sisters, but none of them would ever behave the way these people have been behaving. And I know we are the bad guys in all this, and maybe we really are. But no one else knows what his relationship with his sister was, or why it was the way it was.
Lisa--I printed your pm from earlier for Mike and it really helped us both to stay grounded for the most part today.
Hopefully tomorrow will be better.
