Okay, so today I quit. I just gave up.

I'm not seeing the scale move. I'm walking, working out, eating MUCH better and staying with the program. I'm stuck at 180. So, maybe I won't give up. Maybe I can keep at this. I ate a lot of fruit for dessert and backed off of the other stuff (we had chocolate fondue by special request of my in-laws.)
I can so commiserate with you!! I had lost 75 pounds 3 years ago and hung out at 174...I just got TIRED of working out and not seeing it go down, so I just gave myself a break..I quit essentially, and blessed day forgive me but with some family stress (2 house payments for 31 months) I put the 75 back on and 15 more!!
Am I the only one who doesn't think they're as fat as they are?? I see myself in the mirror..those stretchy pants kept stretching....sure the bras were getting tight but taking them off made it feel better! I can NOT believe the mental games I played with myself!!! Oh, and then the pain, heck my body was carrying over 100 pounds it should not have!! No wonder my knees ache and my feet have pain when pounding away at the treadmill!!
But!! BUT!!
BUT!!!!
There is tomorrow, there is hope, I have walked 4 miles at least 5 out of every 7 days since December 26th..the other 2 days I managed 2 miles...I've only had one day off of walking and that was the day we closed on our other home!!


I lost 4 pounds the first weigh in and NONE the second, yes, we did eat out that weekend and celebrate (with food of course) the NCAA Football championship game and the house closing...but I ignored that no loss week because I could fit into a pair of jeans I bought last year, they zipped!! I could never get them over my thighs!!! So while the scale may deceive you/me the workouts are burning and reshaping our bodies into a healthy form!!! I am SOOO excited about recording my losses in inches on January 31 because I measured myself back at Thanksgiving and KNOW I have lost inches!!! I won't fight the scale, but relinquish that I can NOT eat a few homemade cookies to reward myself for doing 4 miles...I need to stick to average portions even though I walked 4 miles...I need to drink more water...
Won't beat myself up but I will post monthly pictures to help motivate any of you who suffered from the "I'm not THAT fat am I?" epiphany...I can actually feel the rolls going away as I walk and do my arm exercises..
Here is my exercise routine specifically!!
I have a Bowflex Series 7 treadmill, it has a little stream of 'clicks' that cover .25 miles...so for each quarter mile I do something different..
Keep heart rate between 140-160
1st Quarter Mile...warm up at 2.7
2nd Quarter Mile....increase speed to 2.9 and add in arm weights (5 pound weights that I use to do bicep curls...shoulder raises...and a boxing type move that matches my walk on the treadmill...adding in this exercise for the duration of the quarter mile ups my heartrate and boy do my arms and shoulders BURN!! I am constantly doing 3 sets of 12 until the quarter mile is up...alternating the three moves)
3rd Quarter Mile....increase speed to 3.1
4th quarter mile....increase speed to 3.3
5th Quarter Mile....decrease speed to 3.1 and add in arm exercises again
6th Quarter Mile...decrease speed to 2.9
7th Quarter Mile...decrease speed to 2.7 and add in arms again
8th Quarter mile...keep speed at 2.7 and go into 3 minute cool down after completing...
I've noticed as I've continued to do this I can increase my speed..when I started on December 26th I had to start at 2.5 and only increase to 3.1...now I easily start at 2.7 and move up to 3.3 speed. I gather as the weight comes off I will be starting at 3.0 and go up to 3.8..
I do this exercise 2x a day, in the morning and around 8pm at night...it took me 45 minutes in the beginning and now it takes less than 41...shaved off 4 minutes!!
I was planning to do 4 miles 7 days a week, but I find my body is actually stronger if I take only 2 miles on the weekend...I start to feel very fatigued if I do 28 miles in a week...
I hope this helps someone and when you see the pictures and know that I do still eat that cookie or have that order of french fries once in a while (meaning once every 2 weeks, instead of 3x a week on the go eating) you'll see how exercise played a big part in losing those inches...off to the treadmill!!!
Inspired by each of you and your journey, hope I can inspire those with similar thoughts like I have in this horrendous 'why am I here again' journey!
Tara