I'm not scared.
I'm 17 and in college, so I've always been on the fast-track of life. Now I'm wishing I had more time to be a teenager. I never really realized how great being a teenager is until recently. I mean, you're supported by your parents, you always have that 'teenager' excuse in your back pocket, etc.
I've lived a comfortable life, but I'm not ignorant to the real world. I know it's a big and scary place, and I'm kind of...nervous about it. Getting my first apartment kind of makes me terrified. It seems like such a big step right now, but I know that when I eventually get to it, it'll be no big deal.
I thought college was a huge step until I started. I thought driving was a big deal until I started. When I was young & I thought about these things, they seemed so abstract. Now everything is here in.my.face.right.now.
I don't want to grow up, but I don't want to be younger either. Time goes by so quickly, it feels like tomorrow I'll wake up and be 40. I'm afraid of getting old in the vision loss, hearing loss, arthritis, alzheimers, kind of way.
But for now, I'm just going to live life as much as I can, and worry as little as I can.
