Annoniemus.... thank you!!!

[kdibattista]

I couldn't reply to your thread (I guess it was deleted) but I needed to thank you. You see, I am one of those little someones who know you matter. Unfortunately, my father wasn't as strong as you and wasn't as brave as you to be able to face his problems. I have lived with that guilt, with that knowledge and with that burdon for the past 15 years. It still impacts me to this day, every day and I am 27.

Please know that no matter how down you feel, you will always matter to your little ones.

I am very proud of you!!! Now, go hug them.... for me.

 

[Beauty]

Kim {{HUGS}}

Annonimous {{HUGS}} to you as well. Please know that you will ALWAYS matter!!

 

[nativetxn]

Well, said, Kim. I hope Annoniemus is reading.

{{{HUGS}}} my friend. The suicide of a father is a terrible pain to experience

 

[Annoniemus]

I am truly sorry for your loss, Kim. I can honestly tell you that if it wasn't for my kids, I wouldn't be here (or I would be living in the forest somewhere, away from the human race). It's just that sometimes, I wonder if I am doing more damage to them by being here than if I wasn't here and dh married someone a lot more sane. Then, someone comes along and knocks some sense into me and I look at them and realize that even though they might get lucky and get a really, really nice stepmom, they would always remember me as the one who checked out on them. So, I will try my hardest to always remember that.

I know that I wasn't hidden too well beneath my new name and I thank those in charge for not interferring. Things would have only gotten worse for me and I appreciate what you did.

I just want to feel something other than boredom, jealousy and helplessness. Today, at least, I learned that some people are caring, even if they don't know you.

Quote from MIL, "How are YOU going to work?" when I "confided" in her that I was thinking about getting a part time job.

Thank you.

{{{ Hugs, Kim }}}... I will always remember this post. Promise.

 

[wovenwonder]

You sound much brighter this afternoon! I am glad for that. You are going on for your kiddos and that shows that you are a wonderful, caring mother!

 

[Serena]

I'm glad you are still around. I know things feel awful right now, I've been there.
No education, no talents, no prospects, and a husband that left me with 2 kids, a dog, bills, a car. Now my situation turned out ok and is getting better. But at the time, I didn't think anyone cared either and I didn't believe the ones that said they did.

I found out lots of people care, even people you don't know. One person in particular made me talk, "fine" wasn't accepted when I answered how I was. Once I started, I couldn't seem to stop, and things got better.

I was able to get a job, my h was more reasonable and generous than I could ever thought he would have been. I found out for the first time that my inlaws actually liked me. I found out the more I talked here, the braver I got. I found myself talking to people in real life and found even more friends, perfect strangers one week, friends the next.

I found out even with all the things not being as bad as I thought they were and were going to be, that I still needed help. I went to a doctor and got some help. I got on some anti-depressants and now I'm seeing a counselor.

I hope you get some help. Your kids do need you.

 

[shamrock bunch]

Annoniemous - glad to see the people on the DIS helping you out today. please feel free to posts any problems - there are a lot of us here, and I'm sure more than one DISer has had that same experience. I have 2 kids and I know things can get hectic, but just look at their faces when they are sleeping and it will bring a smile to your face.

 

[Crankyshank]

Please anon, I beg you. Call you pastor, priest, rabbi, trusted friend. someone - anyone!
A very good friend of mine lost her dad to suicide. He drove to the restaurant where they were having an anniversary party for their grandparents and he blew his brains out in the parking lot.
not a day goes by where she doesn't curse him for taking the cowards way out and it has really affected her relationship with others. She has a problem accepting love from others because she thinks that if her father doesn't love her enough to stay in this life with her, than no one can. Don't let that happen to your children.

 

[gina2000]

I am so glad you are still with us.

Please, always remember, that you will find strength and the courage to go on in the most unlikely places. And sometimes, those places become your home for awhile.

This is a nice place to discover you are cared about. Never forget it. That's why it's a community.... one that is unusual and unlike any of the traditional ones we know. But just as good.

All of us need a helping hand once in awhile. I hope we were able to give that to you today.

 

[kpgclark]

If you want to start feeling good again, first concentrate on helping yourself by getting assistance through the rough time you are going through.

Please think about how your actions effect your children. Harming yourself is the worst thing your could do to them and something they will never get over. Don't give up on yourself. Coming through a down period can teach your children valuable life lessons. Giving up does not. Be strong. Your children are better off with you in their lives. Get help and reach out to someone.

If you feel like your life has no purpose, make a purpose! Share your love of Disney with sick children in hospital. Teach children how to read through your library. There are so many ways that YOU can make the world a better place. Doing so will make you feel better about yourself.

 

[trishy]

Anon:
Sounds like you could use some MIL jokes:

I bought my MIL a chair for Christmas, but she wouldn't plug it in.


A patient says, "Doctor, last night I made a Freudian slip. I was having dinner with my MIL, and I wanted to say, "Could you please pass the butter?" "But instead I said, "You silly cow, you have completely ruined my life."


Q: What's the difference between a dead mother-in-law lying in the middle of the road, and a dead snake lying in the middle of the road?

A: There are skid marks in front of the snake!


I never forget a face,
But in my MIL's case I'm willing to make an exception.


The doorbell rang this morning. When I opened the door, there was my mother-in-law on the front step.
She said, "Can I stay here for a few days?"
I said, "Sure you can." And shut the door in her face.


Q. What's the difference between a mother-in-law and a vulture?
A. The vulture waits till you are dead before it eats your heart out.

 

[Miss Jasmine]

Nice to see you posting Annoniemus! Hugs

I think some charity work would be a great place to start! And we are here for you.

 

[Curly Q]

Good to see you still posting!

 

[CRB#33]

I wasn't here all day, but I wanted to offer support for what looks to be a tough, tough thing for you.

Please always come here....as you can see, there is tons of support. Please try also to get some support outside of these boards.

You owe it to yourself as well as your children.

and prayers for you.

 

[scarlett873]

a few more never hurt anyone...

i'm so glad to see that you are still posting! there are some pretty amazing people here on these boards. if you feel overwhelmed, please don't hesitate to talk to someone!!