Angelrose's Journey

[ksumn1]

I think you know that Ron's always there but your dreams are your subconcious 9or ron's spirit) just confirming it to you. I hope you're doing well and that little Zoey and the rest of the family are well.

I'm sorru I haven't checked in more but I've been a bit occupied. M oldest Dd broke her leg in 3 places and is in a thigh cast, wheelchair, walker, the works. So I haven't had too much free time lately. I just wanted to check in and see how everyone's been and wish everyone (early) Happy 4th of July and hoping ya'll are having a great time this summer.

 

[minniecarousel]

ahhhh....Angelrose - that's so sweet. I hope that you keep having those dreams of Ron!

ugh - ksumn1, that's terrible! It must be a lot of work, caring for your daughter in a large cast! Hang in there!

 

[Minnie&Nana]

Oh, angelrose...it warms my heart good you share these "dreams' of Ron - we know for sure he is with you everyday, helping you to get through the difficult moments. I can only imagine how difficult it must be to be alone, in your home with so many memories.

Did you do anything with the kids on Ron's birthday? I do hope you were not alone that day.

How is Karen and Zoey doing? Is she feeling better now? Loving prayer everyday for all.

 

[Angelrose]

ksumn1 I'm so sorry about your daughter breaking her leg so badly. Sending hugs and prayers that her leg heals quickly.

Julie, those dreams are so vivid and so real. It gives me a lot of comfort.

Christine, I went to the kid's for dinner on the weekend. But for his birthday I was alone. I didn't mind that. I wished him a Happy Birthday and thought about the good times..

Karen and Zoey are doing well, thanks. But Karen is ready to have this little gymnast. She is tossing and turning and Karen can't get to sleep some nights. The end of August or the beginning of September is when they are planning the cesarian. (SP?) And I can't wait to meet my little princess.

(no matter what Karen says, I am going to buy her pink outfits!)

 

[snapppyd]

Hi AngelRose! I'm so glad Karen and Zoey are doing well.

I had a car accident last week, thank goodness no one was injured. My poor car lost the whole front bumper, it's in the shop now getting fixed.

I have a story I think you will appreciate. My parents passed quite a few years ago, my Mom in '96 and my Dad in '01. Last week their chihuahua, Spunky, passed away. He has been living with my sister the past nine years, he would have been 18 in September.

Well, on Monday I called my house to check the messages on the answering machine. There were no new messages so I hung up. My phone immediately rang and the answering machine was playing a message from my Dad that I never erased! It was like he was calling me to let me know Spunky was with them.

So, I totally get it when you say Ron is with you, because he is

 

[Angelrose]

Oh snappyd, that is such a wonderful story. Spunky would naturally be with your dad.

Those little things do make you feel better, don't they?

I'm so glad nobody was hurt in your car accident. Still it is a hassle and I hope everything turns out well for you.

 

[cm8]

Oh snappyd, that is such a wonderful story. Spunky would naturally be with your dad.

Those little things do make you feel better, don't they?

I'm so glad nobody was hurt in your car accident. Still it is a hassle and I hope everything turns out well for you.

Just wanted to send you an e hug...... may you grow stronger everyday...

 

[Angelrose]

Thank you cm8. All hugs are greatly appreciated.

Hope everyone has a great 4th of July.

I'm going to be doing a whole lot of nothing. Too much traffic to be going anywhere. I'm going to hibernate in my pool all weekend.

 

[Minnie&Nana]

Thank you cm8. All hugs are greatly appreciated.

Hope everyone has a great 4th of July.

I'm going to be doing a whole lot of nothing. Too much traffic to be going anywhere. I'm going to hibernate in my pool all weekend.

Beginning to sound like a broken record, but if we lived closer we could be doing a whole lot of nothing together!

How are you doing this week? Holidays are always difficult...so many memories....I think in some ways the 2nd year without our loved one is even more difficult than the first - we are no longer in shock and settle into our new reality without them.

I think of you everyday, angelrose. Although I lost my son, not a husband, I think these are the two closest in our lives.

 

[Angelrose]

Christine, I so wished we lived closer too. I'm not doing too bad this week. Being in the pool helps me. Keeps my mind and body occupied. Then I am so tired that I sleep very well.

Yes, a child and a spouse are the closest we have in this life. I loved my parents dearly, but I didn't have the heartache that I have with Ron being gone.

I takes time to come to terms with death. You never "get over it". You just learn to deal with it. Sometimes it's harder than others.

 

[sunnyday123]

Christine, I so wished we lived closer too. I'm not doing too bad this week. Being in the pool helps me. Keeps my mind and body occupied. Then I am so tired that I sleep very well.

Yes, a child and a spouse are the closest we have in this life. I loved my parents dearly, but I didn't have the heartache that I have with Ron being gone.

I takes time to come to terms with death. You never "get over it". You just learn to deal with it. Sometimes it's harder than others.

Haven't been here in a while Angelrose, but just wanted to give you and wish you a Happy Holiday.

 

[snapppyd]

I just want to wish everyone a Happy 4th of July!! We are so lucky to live in such a great country.

 

[Angelrose]

Thank you for the hug sunnyday123. That is what sustains me.

Just have to tell you a cutesy Jesse story. Karen and Jesse were waiting for daycare to open. He told her he was singing. She said OK. He said he was singing with his foot. LOL He was tapping his foot in time to music. She told him that was dancing. Then he asked if he could see "the girl" now. Meaning Zoey. Not quite yet.

Today they were at WAWA getting some milk and Karen got a bottle of iced tea. Jesse wanted to hold it for her. She just got through telling him not to drop it, when he dropped it on the foot of a poor college kid standing there. Jesse looked up at him and said "I'm so sorry, I didn't mean it". AWWWWW The kid took it well (even though his toe was surely in pain) and said, "That's ok little man. Next time you'll do better." That was so sweet of that kid. He could have been nasty and made Jesse cry, but he tried to make him feel better about dropping the bottle.

 

[Angelrose]

Well, I had the most horrible night and morning. I went to bed at 11:30 and woke up at 12:30. This is usual for me. I usually go downstairs and do the word scramble and then I can get back to sleep. I was putting the paper on the back porch, when I heard what sounded like rain. No rain was forecast, so I turned on the light. EEEEEEEEEKKK The connector to the pool hoses had split and water was fountaining out. So I ran and got dressed and tried to tape it shut with electrical tape. I thought it had worked and went back to bed. I woke up at 2 and looked out. The tape hadn't held and water was again pouring out. I got dressed and went out and tried to fix it, but it was too far gone. I just got it through and put the hoses up high enough that they wouldn't keep pouring water out. I lost about a foot of pool water.

I dozed off and on, constantly checking and finally gave up as soon as it was light out. A little after 5 I was out checking things again. At 6 I called my pool guy and begged him to come out this morning and fix it for me.

I just sat in my kitchen reading until he showed up around 10. He did fix it for me, but he said I should be moving to a senior development and use their pool and not have to worry about anything.

This upset me so much. This is my home. I've lived her for almost 40 years. This is where Ron is. He told me memories are in your mind and heart. Well, yes, but this is where my heart is. I would hate to leave my home. Maybe eventually I will have to do it, but not now.

I was sick all night with the runs and an upset tummy all day. I just can't seem to handle stress very well lately. Pool man left around 11 and the pool was finally refilled. I had lost about a foot of water. I got in and took the cover off. That cold water really felt good.

But it was so hot and humid out, I couldn't stand it. I came in and spent the day inside in the ac.

It was so hot and humid, I couldn't get in the pool even after 6. So I just gave up and left the cover off. I will deal with all the gnats and bugs in the water tomorrow.

I know pool man was only trying to help, but it really upset me to think about leaving my home.

I only started to feel better tonight after drinking a whole bottle of lemonade and eating some salty pretzels. I guess being out there for an hour this morning got to me.

And now this big baby will try and forget about today.

 

[CJMickeyMouse]

Oh, Angelrose.... hang in there! Let the pool guy's words roll off your back. You have kids and friends that understand how you feel about your home.

Get some rest and tomorrow is a new day. (Well, after you take care of the bugs in the pool, anyway..... ha ha )

Take care!!

 

[minnie56]

Please don't let someone's loose lips hurt you...consider the source. What does he know? Does he have a home or merely a house ..unlike you. Your home is where your heart is..and all that matters is that you know that. He was inconsiderate and that was a thoughtless remark. He came, did the job and left. Don't let him get to you.

Tomorrow is another and hopefully MUCH better day!!!!! With a few bugs tossed in to keep you busy

Enjoy your cool pool....these days are unbearable!

 

[minniecarousel]

Oh, Angelrose, isn't it funny (odd) that someone's comment can cut so deep? It sounds to me that you're no where near needing to move to a Senior development. You should stay in your house as long as you want and can manage. It must be difficult to have to handle all these things on your own (yes, your son and daughter-in-law are there for you and they sound like a huge help). I agree, it's your home and you stay "put"!!

Hang in there dear.

 

[Minnie&Nana]

Oh, angelrose! What an absolutely horrid day and night!! That poor fellow had no right to say that to you, it is none of his business and he has no understanding of your situation. Maybe he had a rough few days an was not happy about coming out.

Of course you should stay in your home as long as you want - my goodness, you are too young for a senior development.

My friend, I think you are remarkably independent and take care of yourself and your home perfectly well. We are about the same age and I certainly have no interest in any senior development - maybe someday, but maybe not!

I am so sorry you had such a rough time and felt ill all day - this heat also takes a toll on us and the added stress was just too much. Take gentle care of yourself and know Ron is right there with you, holding you up.

 

[snapppyd]

Does he realize that if he keeps giving out advice like that he will put himself out of a job?

Only you know what is right for you. I'm sure he thought he was being helpful, but it's really none of his business. You hang in there! This weather is enough to get anyone down, hopefully next week will be better and you will be out enjoying your pool.

Just have to share this - taken this morning - that should be the Manhattan skyline, but it's nothing but smog today:

 

[ksumn1]

Angelrose, sounds like your pool problem culd have happened t anyone. And I think the pool guy was maybe just a it annyed and made a flip cmment, not realizimg hw much you would tale it t heart. You know you're perfectly capable of taking care of yourself and your home. Dont't give it another thought. Hope you have a great day.