almost 2:30 in the morning and can't stop worring

[o2cre8]

please forgive me for posting here. I know that what I am about to say pales in comparasen to what some of you have shared. But, I had no where else to turn to......
ever since 911, ever since we had to sell the first "real" house that I've ever lived in, ever since my husband lost his job, ever since B got diagnosed with breast cancer, ever since I lost my job, ever since our bills started to pile up, ever since I was almost diagnosed with MS, I have been living in a state of not even fear, but being completely petrified. I hide it well during the day when I am distracted by things, but as soon as I wake up at night-for any reason I can't stop the overwhelming sense of dread and it takes me hours to go back to sleep. Going to the Dr. tomorrow b/c getting lots of weird pains and symptoms- I'm useless at coping and imagining the worst. I always feel like the worst is yet to happen god forbid. I try to have a positive attitude, but sometimes it's just too hard to do. Thanks for giving me a space to share my thoughts. Hopefully I'll wake up on the right side of the bed........

 

[quasar4legs]

Sorry you've got so many things that are worrying you and sometimes night time can be the hardest when you can't sleep.
I think seeing the doctor and talking about how you are feeling is a good idea, we all need a little help now and then.

By nature I am a 'worrier' so I can sort of relate to how you are feeling. I meditate and find that it gives me space from my thoughts as we all need some 'silence' in our heads.

I am sending you a big Koala cuddle from 'down under' and hope that you are feeling better in the morning.

Feel free to come and have a chat here anytime, there are always lots of people that want to listen and offer their support.

Quasar

 

[Heidict]

I'm so sorry for all the worry and despair that you are going through. I can imagine that it can be overwhelming at times, especially at night, when all the everyday distractions are gone.

Seeing a doctor is the smartest thing for you right now. You may need someone to talk to, someone whom you can express yourself freely with and not hold back for fear of scaring someone or worrying them.

Life is always throwing curve balls, up and downs, but you have had a lot of things happen to you over the last few years and it is understandable that it is making you scared of things just getting worst.

I'll keep you in my prayers.

 

[cm8]

, I hope that you get the support you need.Life is really scary when you can't control the things you want/ need. After every storm comes a rainbow.